Man Dexedrine wds. Where the duckin funk can i go?!

[BananasAndOranges]

Went to er I have bizzarreeeee episodes if I do not use adderall, or this dexedrine. I swear. Its fucking lame. I told them basically after calling my doctors office three times, getting attitude, and finally getting the doctors note from nurse saying no wait the 10 days. That is way to long when I mentioned I hated the ir tabs in the first place. It's pissing me off when someone says drug abuse to me. I'll show you fucks drug abuse. I dropped another mg, even though at 3pm a wave of nausea came over me very uncomfortable. I'm out of options could pay and see 2 doctors tomorrow? I want one that cares because I cannot find a nice psychiatrist until a few more months. Seriously I have to wait till 2011 to see someone besides this idiot that left a note saying no more meds. I'm seriously annoyed. People use extra meds when they fucking need them duh duh and duh. Its not drug abuse. If I keep getting that label I will show a different me on here. Just like I am now. Some people are so jaded, what really gets me is why the fuck I'm currently alone and diseased and my partner for a month I found out, isn't anymore. I fucked up now I feel dirty he wont talk he got me the illness. Scabies I think. Hopefully just bedbug or lice and I killed it fo sho but could be scabies. I got toxic pesticides to put on my body dunno how safe that is answer that too please. fuck i cant remember all other problems. F in freshman seminar for writing a paper that said "The meanest person in the school is the lady upstairs shes very unprofessional and told a teacher I go to MMT" fuck that shit. SO now im both ugly and stupid And diseased. lets all throw on pity party hats. ftw

 

[NotQuiteAnonymous]

Dude...you've got way too much going on right now. Is there anyplace welcoming you can go to get out of your place and away from the thoughts of bugs and ppl who should be squashed like them?

Please don't put toxic pestacides on your skin. Please see a doctor about the bugs if you haven't already...a doctor can likely rx something to kill them safely.

Self-diagnosis on stims or w/d-ing from stims while in a negative state of mind is a bad thing. About 10 weeks ago i developed a quarter-sized raised patch on my back that was terribly itchy. A bunch of extremely stressful events occurred over the next few weeks. I dignosed and treated the patch like it was ringworm. it got worse and i developed more patches on my torso, neck and face.

I was so sure it was ringworm. i obsessively cleaned and disinfected my bathroom where i was sure i had caught it from...didn't realize how off i was until my eyelids, lips, legs and feet swelled up and forced me to seek medical attention after being awake for over 48 hours...i didn't have a fungal infection i was covered in HIVES and i now had angioedema too. The cause ended up being NSAIDs (i had taken excedrine daily, applied a diclofenac solution to my shoulder daily, there was salicylic acid in my bath products, and 250mg of Naproxen orally triggered the angioedema). IME it is best to see a doctor for a diagnosis instead of trying to figure it out on your own.

As for the pity party...i love hats and if you would like some company, i can bring glowsticks. It's never a party until someone breaks out the glowsticks!

i hope everything improves for you soon!