Subdivisions
Bluelighter
- Joined
- May 2, 2010
- Messages
- 50
Well, I relapsed. Started to get clean around June 2010, was clean totally by September of 2010. Relapsed the past 3 months. Just crashed like a plane that lost all its engines.
I've spent a ton of money on pills to the point of having to declare bankruptcy. My life still isn't fully recovered from my last spell...financial and using problems set me back socially and mentally.
Long story short, I come from a strict muslim family. I am definitely the black sheep of the family. I been in music for awhile (club DJ) which I absolutely love...but I decided to quit to try to make peace with my family. Well, that's when the using started...I got really depressed and couldn't take not being myself anymore, and I just went off the rails I guess. I still haven't really done much to clear up my problems with my family, I guess that's part of the problem.
I did SMART Recovery last time...I think I am going to check into an outpatient (daytime) clinic just to try a different approach...I am a believer in trying out all the options (I have come to realize that none of the addiction approaches are perfect...we know little about addiction compared to other diseases).
Any suggestions on how my fellow BL'ers have dealt with relapse? I know I can search it...but it feels better to write. Ahhh.
I've spent a ton of money on pills to the point of having to declare bankruptcy. My life still isn't fully recovered from my last spell...financial and using problems set me back socially and mentally.
Long story short, I come from a strict muslim family. I am definitely the black sheep of the family. I been in music for awhile (club DJ) which I absolutely love...but I decided to quit to try to make peace with my family. Well, that's when the using started...I got really depressed and couldn't take not being myself anymore, and I just went off the rails I guess. I still haven't really done much to clear up my problems with my family, I guess that's part of the problem.
I did SMART Recovery last time...I think I am going to check into an outpatient (daytime) clinic just to try a different approach...I am a believer in trying out all the options (I have come to realize that none of the addiction approaches are perfect...we know little about addiction compared to other diseases).
Any suggestions on how my fellow BL'ers have dealt with relapse? I know I can search it...but it feels better to write. Ahhh.