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LSD - Last Time - Pulling back true love in the cosmic playground

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GlassShatters

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A few months ago, a experience involving black microdots occured, a party of 7, unprepared, unjustified. L and myself, along with our friends, all journeyed into the abyss of lsd by twilight, a true party of insanity, as, besides myself, only one other had taken lsd.

Unprepared, 3 were dosed, and, by the end of the night, L and myself were in shambles. I was walking a road that I couldn't handle by myself, and in the end, she was unable to pull me through. Towards the end of the night, I laid in bed, crying, because, I had fallen apart. The last words I said were "this isn't the last time, I have to come back to fix it".

I was told I was crazy....

Since then, L and myself have not been okay. We had fought 5 times a week, I was an emotional frail wreck, and she had become an emotionless zombie.

----now to the story-----

3 months later, a plan is hatched by me, and me alone. A journey back into the playground, with only her by my side. She fought against this, really, she was scared. We knew it was a roulette dare. Every single one of my friends told me I was crazy, and, that I can't rely on a drug to save a relationship. I didn't even want to do acid. If I can't break through, and make her feel, nothing can.

A few hits were procured, via a 3 hour drive in the rain, beige paper, blue lines, very odd looking, almost convinced it wasn't real.

Alas, it seems to be happening.....

I prepare for this event, without L knowing what was going on. I spent 3 weeks on a cd(including the most beautifully written songs I could find in the world), and, I made a cosmic cd for the journey.

A beautiful sunday morning arises.

I wake her up, and say "it is time". She is scared. As am I. D and K are alongside us, because, L has succesfully avoided confronting this problem, by allowing partners to journey with us into the garden of eden.

We all dose, 1 hit each.

An hour in, D and K are both approaching cosmic land, and, they lay in the bed, and L attempts her circles of keeping her mind on something, so she could keep control of herself and the situation. I am not okay with this, this goes against everything I intended.

I convince D and K to go for a walk in the park.

L walks in. Starts cleaning her bowl, and watching Yellow Submarine, she is beginning to peak, and I am feeling it, but nowhere near what they are.

I dose an extra 1/2 hit, and suddenly, it all hits me like a ton of bricks.

This acid was not normal acid, this was magical cosmic acid. I imagine probably 200ug per hit, of white fluff.

I am laying in bed with her, trying to pull her away. I pull out my secret weapon(magical cd), and I put it on.

The world is collapsing around me at this point, I can't see reality any longer, it seems the world has turned itself into a scene from Yellow Submarine.

I pull her over, as "Annie's Song"(rivers cuomo covering john denver) begins. and I look her right in the eyes, and both of us instantly fall apart.

We start crying hysterically, looking eachother in the eyes. I don't see reality any more, I don't know what life is any more, but I can't help but stare into her beautiful eyes, crying, as the cd I made tells the poetry of what I feel inside for her. We talk, in what fragmented broken sentences we can mutter out.

Acid usually leaves you so mentally confused, you don't know what you are saying or doing. L and I are different, we completed eachothers sentences.

Have you ever wondered how beautiful seeing shooting stars and the universe create itself around you is? I really do wonder too. I never once took my eyes off of her, I didn't care about the trip, I just wanted to find a way into her heart. I needed to break through.

I know without a doubt:

a) that she loves me
b) that she is my soulmate
c) that everything is going to be alright.

I borderlined zen, and insanity, the entire 12 hours of this experience, but, never once, did I utter a word of fear(anxiety is what made me stop taking acid before), or confusion. I fought my demons myself, and I won my girl back.

D+K really were inconsequential, not that they didn't have amazingly beautiful experiences, but, they weren't part of my reason, or journey. Though D did manage to take a picture, of my beautiful girl and myself sitting in bed, hitting a can of cosmic candy(whipped cream, heh) and then pouring whipped cream all over eachother post nitrous. :-)

I bid my adieu to lsd for a long time for these reasons:

a) it took a special special relationship, and made it into a meaningless pile of dribble
b) it made that meaningless pile of dribble, back into a beautiful relationship
c) if it gave me another chance, I am not going to meddle in with ego deconstruction any longer.

In conclusion.

once upon a time. two people met. they fell in love. and they lived happily ever after.


edit:(here's the tracklist for the cd)

coldplay - don't panic
the beatles - norwegian wood
the magnetic fields- love is lighter than air
mazzy star - flowers in december
the smashing pumpkins - crush
rivers cuomo - annie's song
the gloria record - cinema air
simon & garfunkel - the only living boy in new york
onelinedrawing - smile
modest mouse - a case of you
wilco - reservations
the smashing pumpkins - let me give the world to you
 
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Wow that is awesome! I'm so glad this worked out for you, because like you said it was playing russian roulette with your sanity.

But I had a feeling that if any trip would have helped you "return" it would be from those blotters.

"This acid was not normal acid, this was magical cosmic acid. I imagine probably 200ug per hit, of white fluff."

Haha, what did I tell you? Those blotters are *amazing*! :)

[note: I didn't hook the poster up with the blotters. I just happened to have tried these exact same ones at a concert a couple months ago and they were absolutely the best LSD I ever took. The guy selling them said they were white fluff and there is absolutely no reason to doubt him]

Anyway, very nice report.
 
the weirdest thing...after it all was over, after the come down. Acid decided to play a last laugh on me.

I packed a bowl with 4 kinds of herb in it:
ak-47, javaberry, white widow, and maui wowie.(our best friends showed up).

I took 1 hit, and, suddenly, I felt like I was on ketamine for close to an hour. I couldn't move, think, talk, or do much of anything. I honestly thought that I had won, but, suddenly, that acid was receiving the last laugh. I'm feeling okay now, but that was the scariest moment ever.
 
^^
That's why I don't mix weed with acid until I've mostly come down.

Even then it can sneak up on you sometimes 8o
 
What a great report! I love hearing all these reports about acid, although I must admit I'm jealous that other people are procuring it, and not ME.... Ah well, it's okay, I've had my fun and I only hope other people can experience the sheer beauty and utter terror that become ONE during an acid peak.

I just wanna say that that version of Annie's Song is definitely one awesome song. Totally beautiful...
 
Brilliant to hear LSD changing peoples lives for the better, i was getting shocks all over my body reading that report.

I'm still looking for that total ego loss trip with acid, i'll have to take a couple at once sometime and see how it goes, the last acid i had wasn't overly strong but it was good..i'd say it was a mediumish dose, there was visions and thoughts but not a heaven and hell type experience.
 
I think, at least with myself, you have to train yourself to feel intensely enough to allow for the heaven/hell ego loss experiences. I take psychedelics as a spiritual experience entirely, not as a drug, and that's why it's easier for me to let myself go entirely.(before, I used to always attempt to hold onto the real world).
 
great report! after a couple of strong experiences i began to be able to handle myself alot better. for me the trip has to be taken on a spiritual level as there is no other way of doing high dosage trips without a spiritual mindset and setting. Having said that i can have a fuckin brilliant time on psychedelics.

peace
 
I've noticed that whenever i take LSD at home i get more of a spiritual side to it rather than going out to a club on it, you don't tend to think about things as much if your out at a club. I actually think it's a better drug to take at home alone, you appreciate the trip more and actually do learn something. I may be saying all that but you still have a brilliant night out on the town on pyschedlic drugs.
does anyone know effects of say lsd mdma and alcohol together?would they fuck with each other or what?
 
what exactly is "white fluff" acid?

oh yeah, awesome trip report. Last time i took lsd me and my girlfriend spent what felt like hours looking into each others eyes and the feeling is not something that was made for words.

peace.
...cat
 
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White Fluff is about 95% pure. Most of the acid floating around north america this summer is or "beige" or "lavender". Whether or not "beige" and "lavender" are the same crystal with two different names or they are actually made by different people, I'm not sure. I suspect most of what's going around is the same stuff, with the exception of some "silver" crystal from last year.

Anyway, the difference lies in the particular chemist sacrificing quality for quantity. Beige/Lavender is maybe 70% pure. White Fluff is about 95% pure. Whoever makes White Fluff does a hell of a lot better job making the stuff and carefully washing the crystal of contaminants.

Many people believe that contaminants, which for something like beige acid exist in the area of 20-30ug per hit, can't possibly alter the nature of the trip. The only differences would be the intensity per "hit" (a typical hit is laid with 100ug of "acid"... something that is 70% pure will be a smaller dose of LSD than something that is 95% pure) and, beyond that, only the power of suggestion.

But after trying a hit of this white fluff, laid on the same kind of blotter as this poster described (and I'm almost certain they came out of the same original source, but don't ask me who that is because I haven't a clue) I now believe the purity of LSD does in fact have a large role to play in the overall pure and clean feeling of an acid trip.

Let me put it this way. When I took that white fluff hit I was convinced it was fake for 60 minutes until I started to feel it. My expectations were very low for the stuff, so I don't believe the power of suggestion could have played a role in my trip. Also, I've had several acid trips on this "beige" acid and none of these trips have come close to the pure feeling I got on the white fluff.

The difference, for me, was that the beige acid made me more tense, both physically and mentally, and there was more "psychedelic static", so to speak. The white fluff hit felt like the purest thing I ever put in my body. It was beautifully intense.
 
^ I've never actually heard of the term 'white fluff', but I remember this one time when I picked up a vial, the liquid was clear-- not the usual darker color-- and the guy tells me this stuff is a lot stronger than last time, so be careful, take only one drop at first...

So I did, and I realized it was about 3 or 4 times stronger than the usual dosage per drop (I estimated about 350-400ug per drop)... but what really struck me about this acid, was how even though I was taking much higher doses than usual, I would sometimes just forget that I was tripping from time to time, because the feeling was so pure, and just natural-like. I always assumed (up to now) that that particular batch might have been ald-52 perhaps? Maybe it was just really pure lsd? All I know is that pure lsd is supposed to still make you nervous and jittery, and that clear acid was calm and serene....

Maybe it was 'white fluff'....
 
BD thanks for the explanation.
One comment i have to make though is that i doubt an average hit today is laid with 100ug. At the dead show i atented during the summer the hits me and my friends bought were some of the weakest i have tasted to date. In the area od 20-30ug per hit. I would love to get some of this 100ug/hit acid.
 
I really failed to describe what the effects of the chemical itself were on me.

Often times, I felt completely calm and collected, like I was there.

But underlying it all, I could say, I was on a bridge, on one side was zen, on the other side was insanity. I constantly crossed the line between both, only holding myself together through her.

As far as strength of hit goes. My strongest experience with lsd in comparison was one of the eyeballs from 2003. I'd say each hit was equal in strength, but of a different crystal(this was a much dreamier more magical experience).
 
Cat Again said:
BD thanks for the explanation.
One comment i have to make though is that i doubt an average hit today is laid with 100ug. At the dead show i atented during the summer the hits me and my friends bought were some of the weakest i have tasted to date. In the area od 20-30ug per hit. I would love to get some of this 100ug/hit acid.
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Sorry to hijack your thread glassshatters ;)

Anyway I should explain this.

A "dose" of acid is 100ug of crystal, regardless of actual purity. But that doesn't mean that sometimes people don't put more or (more often) less on a blotter, or water down their liquid LSD more.

At Phish shows this summer I also tried several kinds of LSD that were sub-standard. But the majority of the "real" acid I tried (excluding stuff that wasn't completely bunk or obscenely weak) did seem to be laid to these specs.

If LSD is laid to the 100ug = 1 dose spec than 1 gram of crystal makes a 10-pack of sheets. This is a North American standard and people who put less than 100ug of acid (regardless of purity) on a hit are scammers, unless they tell you flat out that their acid is very weak and they charge you much less.

peace
 
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