gothfaery3
Bluelighter
4 Hit of Acid- ALONE-ego loss
This was not my first experience with acid...but it will be my last
I decided that, even though I was to be alone all evening, I would take a few hits of acid that i had aquired earlier in the week. I started off taking two hits.
An hour came and went, and I felt nothing. I was chatting online and I could tell that my heart beat was quickening, but I didnt see or feel anything different. So I ate another two.
It hit me about 10 minutes later like a ton of bricks. The desk moved and grew almost arms, which reached for me until I got up and went into the living room. For another two hours or so I had an ordinary trip _weird visualizations (smoke mostly) listened to some music, wrote some, etc.
About three hours in I started feeling paniced. I was listening to some tool (dont knwo which song) and it came to a part where the music hit one note and sort of plateued (sp?) and the whole room started spinning into a black hole, almost like it was going down the drain. I felt like my heart was going to explode out of my chest. I couldnt tell fi I was dead- I felt like I was having a panic attack, but even though I knew i was on a drug, my mind was telling me that this was some sort of perminant thing. Thoughts of killing myself floated through my mind, as a means to end the panic and paranoya.
There were faces everywhere, looking at me, asking for my name but I couldnt give it to them. I thought about calling an ambulance, but managed to (thankfully) talk myself out of it. I couldn't remember my name, and when I thought of friends and family the only thing I could relate to them was some sort of dream, like I had imagined the whole thing. I was outside my body, matrix style, watching it all and taking it in.
I guess that this could be considered ego loss? It wasnt a pleasant experience and I evewntually took a handful of valuim in an effort to go to sleep.
The entire trip lasted a little under 7 hours.
Anyone had similiar experiences? I'd love to try acid again (I think it has a lot to offer me, and looking back on the experience I gained a lot from it) but I dont know how to without being terrified...any hints?
This was not my first experience with acid...but it will be my last
I decided that, even though I was to be alone all evening, I would take a few hits of acid that i had aquired earlier in the week. I started off taking two hits.
An hour came and went, and I felt nothing. I was chatting online and I could tell that my heart beat was quickening, but I didnt see or feel anything different. So I ate another two.
It hit me about 10 minutes later like a ton of bricks. The desk moved and grew almost arms, which reached for me until I got up and went into the living room. For another two hours or so I had an ordinary trip _weird visualizations (smoke mostly) listened to some music, wrote some, etc.
About three hours in I started feeling paniced. I was listening to some tool (dont knwo which song) and it came to a part where the music hit one note and sort of plateued (sp?) and the whole room started spinning into a black hole, almost like it was going down the drain. I felt like my heart was going to explode out of my chest. I couldnt tell fi I was dead- I felt like I was having a panic attack, but even though I knew i was on a drug, my mind was telling me that this was some sort of perminant thing. Thoughts of killing myself floated through my mind, as a means to end the panic and paranoya.
There were faces everywhere, looking at me, asking for my name but I couldnt give it to them. I thought about calling an ambulance, but managed to (thankfully) talk myself out of it. I couldn't remember my name, and when I thought of friends and family the only thing I could relate to them was some sort of dream, like I had imagined the whole thing. I was outside my body, matrix style, watching it all and taking it in.
I guess that this could be considered ego loss? It wasnt a pleasant experience and I evewntually took a handful of valuim in an effort to go to sleep.
The entire trip lasted a little under 7 hours.
Anyone had similiar experiences? I'd love to try acid again (I think it has a lot to offer me, and looking back on the experience I gained a lot from it) but I dont know how to without being terrified...any hints?
