Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
As some of you know I have recently been posting about my liver failure, alcoholism and generally my deep desire to just be sober for at least once in my life. It's time to take a break.
Somehow LSD always has this magical ability to appear in my life and guide me when I need it the most. While I still consider DMT to be the granddaddy God of psychedelics, LSD has always been my favorite both from a recreational and teacher medicine perspective.
I dosed 200ug at 11pm because I love to line up the comedown with the sun rising. As I was coming up I dosed 2ml GHB to take the edge off. I was having a great time, 2 hours in took another 100ug.
I did the various typical things I do tripping alone in my room at night. Watched a movie, played some games, meditation with music... Etc was a great trip.
Right as the sun was coming up, my favorite part I was having such a beautiful mindset, very euphoric, motivated, happy and realized that I no longer need alcohol or benzos to deal with my anxiety. I have the strength to walk through that scary wall of fire that is a life of anxiety avoided with drug abuse.
It was one of the most beautiful spiritual moments I've had in longer than I can remember.
Then, out of pure habit, I decided to finish off my bottle of GHB. I didn't even bother dosing it. It was probably about 5ml.
Then I black out for 4 hours and wake up on the floor feeling like complete shit.... Completely ruining all the euphoria and that beautiful come down I was having.
And that, ladies and gentlemen, was a very fitting way to end today's lesson. I couldn't think of a more tragic yet accurate and on point end to LSD's lesson for me.
I am going to try to go completely sober. I think I have the strength now. Hopefully I don't eat my words.
Somehow LSD always has this magical ability to appear in my life and guide me when I need it the most. While I still consider DMT to be the granddaddy God of psychedelics, LSD has always been my favorite both from a recreational and teacher medicine perspective.
I dosed 200ug at 11pm because I love to line up the comedown with the sun rising. As I was coming up I dosed 2ml GHB to take the edge off. I was having a great time, 2 hours in took another 100ug.
I did the various typical things I do tripping alone in my room at night. Watched a movie, played some games, meditation with music... Etc was a great trip.
Right as the sun was coming up, my favorite part I was having such a beautiful mindset, very euphoric, motivated, happy and realized that I no longer need alcohol or benzos to deal with my anxiety. I have the strength to walk through that scary wall of fire that is a life of anxiety avoided with drug abuse.
It was one of the most beautiful spiritual moments I've had in longer than I can remember.
Then, out of pure habit, I decided to finish off my bottle of GHB. I didn't even bother dosing it. It was probably about 5ml.
Then I black out for 4 hours and wake up on the floor feeling like complete shit.... Completely ruining all the euphoria and that beautiful come down I was having.
And that, ladies and gentlemen, was a very fitting way to end today's lesson. I couldn't think of a more tragic yet accurate and on point end to LSD's lesson for me.
I am going to try to go completely sober. I think I have the strength now. Hopefully I don't eat my words.