Red Koi
Bluelighter
Acid - First Time - The most beautiful nightmare
This all took place around 24 hrs ago, so you'll have to forgive this report if its not exactly clear.. Im still trying to get my head around the whole experience.
It all started over a few drinks with a small gathering of BL friends. The conversation turned as it inevitably does in this particular circle to drugs and our most recent experiences.
When A friend of a friend said they had tripped last weekend my ears instantly pricked up. I have tried in vain for the best part of a year to get some acid. Its something I've always wanted to try but something I've always felt I should be cautious about. Over the past 12 months or so I had managed to experiment with a small range of different drugs and combinations, LSD seemed like the next step.
Not wanting to waste the opportunity I bought three blotters and spent the rest of the night thinking of when and how I was going to try it.
After some hasty planning the next afternoon I found myself crowded around my coffee table at home with my younger brother and a work mate. I cut the trips in half and figured I would only take a half to test it all out.
Under the tongue it goes and the waiting starts.
Around half an hour later everyone seems in pretty good spirits, everyone is laughing and having a generally good time. Theres a movie on in the background but no one's really paying attention. I can feel something at this point but I cant really put my finger on it.
An hour later and it doesn't really feel like its going anywhere further and we decide to take our other halves.
We all decide to take a walk outside, wandering across the road to the park. At this point everyone is laughing fairly hard and having fun running amuck on the kids play equipment.
The first visuals distortions started within a rope ladder. As it moved in the breeze it seemed more "real" than normal like it was somehow standing out from everything else around us.
We moved on from the playground deciding to make our way to my friends house, as we walk past the buildings I started to notice that they aren't standing straight. Some of the taller ones seem to lean in a particular direction, a bit like the leaning tower of pisa ?? but not quite as exaggerated. The "for sale" sign at the front of the house has a picture of the ocean, the waves start to move, more like a hologram than what i expected but interesting nonetheless. I remember thinking " Is this going to be it??"
Things started to get a bit uncomfortable from here. Being out in the open wandering around the streets seemed to bring out some light paranoia which we laughed off fairly easily.
Thats when I noticed the clouds, I have never seen them move so fast. They were out of control. With the orange light from the setting sun, it looked as though the sky was on fire,. The clouds were spinning around each other, licking like flames. It is one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen.
We walked down past a skate park and thats when things really started to kick in. The graffiti art was starting to crawl all over the place, the writing and the pictures seemed to be sliding over each other in two separate layers. We walked down into the bowl and sat in the middle looking up at the sky. The walls of the bowl slowly started to breathe just gently in and out in waves lie we were lying in the middle of a giant living thing. I must have spent at least an hour watching the patterns and sitting in awe as the whole world seemed to come alive around me.
Things were getting dark and we wanted to see the last of the sunset over the ocean. AS we walked down to the foreshore I noticed the fence of an area under construction, the green wire was flourescant and leaves in the trees were the most beautiful green. Everybody was exclaiming, pointing and wandering around in awe. Every corner we turned it seemed as though something breathtaking was waiting for us.
The trip began to switch between this emmense euphoria and an intense paranoia. It was decided that we were going to "trip quietly" to try and stop drawing attention to ourselves. By the time we reached the beach my friend was insisting that every group of people we passed were out to get us. I knew that it wasn't the case but he seemed so sure of it that I started to believe it myself. It seemed that every bout of paranoia was short lived, as soon as you voiced how you felt it seemed to dissipate the fear.
I wish I could describe the ocean as the sun disappeared, the lights up and down the coast and the glow of the buildings and the industrial section were some of the most amazing things I have ever seen. The more I took in what was happening around me the more the euphoria was building. My heart was thumping so hard and it seemed hard to catch my breath. I felt invincible, the world was incredible and I felt such an overwhelming sense of peace as we sat and looked out over it all. I had the overwhelming sense that I had stumbled blindly into a very very powerful state of mind. Reality seemed so far away, it was like being inside a dream.
Once again my friend wasn't taking to peak so well. He asked us not to leave him alone and every shadow and sound really seemed to frighten him. My brother and I seemed to use each other to balance each other out. Without him there it would have been much harder to reassure our third tripping partner.
His paranoia was seeping into the trip and I spent a lot of time trying not to say anything to upset him. In retrospect I would have liked to have let go a bit more and got into the experience more, but having to watch what your doing and saying didn't really allow it.
We eventually made our way back to my house and spent the rest of the with head phones on, watching the visualizations on my laptop. The music was so Intense and the closed eye visuals were spectacular. With the head phones on and the my eyes closed i could really feel the energy moving through my body. I wish I could describe the intensity of that feeling.
The Xbox and a few movies provided a few good distractions. A short anime called "voices of a distant start" blew my mind. Its already a fairly powerful film but with the acid it seemed like I was inside the main character feeling her every emotion as though I was right there with her. I stunned with the how easily you could get into the plot lines and action sequences of both the games and the movies.
My house was alive at this point. Everything with a pattern was breathing and blending together so beautifully. THe blinds were moving as though there was a gentle breeze blowing through them.
The hardest part was trying to go the the toilet and watching the bowl gently sway underneath you. I tried looking at my face in the mirror, it warped and bent and twisted and really didn't make me feel comfortable.
Everytime I left the room and returned my friend seemed threatened by me. Telling me to get away from him. Thinking we were planning things against him.
After around 7 and a half hours into the trip and everything stopped moving unless I was really concentrating. I tried sleeping but every sound made me jump. I woke up twice covered in sweat and feeling really restless.
I got around 3 hours sleep before my alarm went off and I had to go to work. My head was a scattered mess and I really didn't think I could make it to work and still do my job. Once I arrived and got into the routine everything settled down.
Now works finished I plan on getting some sleep and recovering. I really feel like I found something truly powerful last night, something that demands respect. You can see how easily things could go astray with the wrong environment and people around you. I look forward to experimenting with it in the future and seeing what else it has i store for me.
This all took place around 24 hrs ago, so you'll have to forgive this report if its not exactly clear.. Im still trying to get my head around the whole experience.
It all started over a few drinks with a small gathering of BL friends. The conversation turned as it inevitably does in this particular circle to drugs and our most recent experiences.
When A friend of a friend said they had tripped last weekend my ears instantly pricked up. I have tried in vain for the best part of a year to get some acid. Its something I've always wanted to try but something I've always felt I should be cautious about. Over the past 12 months or so I had managed to experiment with a small range of different drugs and combinations, LSD seemed like the next step.
Not wanting to waste the opportunity I bought three blotters and spent the rest of the night thinking of when and how I was going to try it.
After some hasty planning the next afternoon I found myself crowded around my coffee table at home with my younger brother and a work mate. I cut the trips in half and figured I would only take a half to test it all out.
Under the tongue it goes and the waiting starts.
Around half an hour later everyone seems in pretty good spirits, everyone is laughing and having a generally good time. Theres a movie on in the background but no one's really paying attention. I can feel something at this point but I cant really put my finger on it.
An hour later and it doesn't really feel like its going anywhere further and we decide to take our other halves.
We all decide to take a walk outside, wandering across the road to the park. At this point everyone is laughing fairly hard and having fun running amuck on the kids play equipment.
The first visuals distortions started within a rope ladder. As it moved in the breeze it seemed more "real" than normal like it was somehow standing out from everything else around us.
We moved on from the playground deciding to make our way to my friends house, as we walk past the buildings I started to notice that they aren't standing straight. Some of the taller ones seem to lean in a particular direction, a bit like the leaning tower of pisa ?? but not quite as exaggerated. The "for sale" sign at the front of the house has a picture of the ocean, the waves start to move, more like a hologram than what i expected but interesting nonetheless. I remember thinking " Is this going to be it??"
Things started to get a bit uncomfortable from here. Being out in the open wandering around the streets seemed to bring out some light paranoia which we laughed off fairly easily.
Thats when I noticed the clouds, I have never seen them move so fast. They were out of control. With the orange light from the setting sun, it looked as though the sky was on fire,. The clouds were spinning around each other, licking like flames. It is one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen.
We walked down past a skate park and thats when things really started to kick in. The graffiti art was starting to crawl all over the place, the writing and the pictures seemed to be sliding over each other in two separate layers. We walked down into the bowl and sat in the middle looking up at the sky. The walls of the bowl slowly started to breathe just gently in and out in waves lie we were lying in the middle of a giant living thing. I must have spent at least an hour watching the patterns and sitting in awe as the whole world seemed to come alive around me.
Things were getting dark and we wanted to see the last of the sunset over the ocean. AS we walked down to the foreshore I noticed the fence of an area under construction, the green wire was flourescant and leaves in the trees were the most beautiful green. Everybody was exclaiming, pointing and wandering around in awe. Every corner we turned it seemed as though something breathtaking was waiting for us.
The trip began to switch between this emmense euphoria and an intense paranoia. It was decided that we were going to "trip quietly" to try and stop drawing attention to ourselves. By the time we reached the beach my friend was insisting that every group of people we passed were out to get us. I knew that it wasn't the case but he seemed so sure of it that I started to believe it myself. It seemed that every bout of paranoia was short lived, as soon as you voiced how you felt it seemed to dissipate the fear.
I wish I could describe the ocean as the sun disappeared, the lights up and down the coast and the glow of the buildings and the industrial section were some of the most amazing things I have ever seen. The more I took in what was happening around me the more the euphoria was building. My heart was thumping so hard and it seemed hard to catch my breath. I felt invincible, the world was incredible and I felt such an overwhelming sense of peace as we sat and looked out over it all. I had the overwhelming sense that I had stumbled blindly into a very very powerful state of mind. Reality seemed so far away, it was like being inside a dream.
Once again my friend wasn't taking to peak so well. He asked us not to leave him alone and every shadow and sound really seemed to frighten him. My brother and I seemed to use each other to balance each other out. Without him there it would have been much harder to reassure our third tripping partner.
His paranoia was seeping into the trip and I spent a lot of time trying not to say anything to upset him. In retrospect I would have liked to have let go a bit more and got into the experience more, but having to watch what your doing and saying didn't really allow it.
We eventually made our way back to my house and spent the rest of the with head phones on, watching the visualizations on my laptop. The music was so Intense and the closed eye visuals were spectacular. With the head phones on and the my eyes closed i could really feel the energy moving through my body. I wish I could describe the intensity of that feeling.
The Xbox and a few movies provided a few good distractions. A short anime called "voices of a distant start" blew my mind. Its already a fairly powerful film but with the acid it seemed like I was inside the main character feeling her every emotion as though I was right there with her. I stunned with the how easily you could get into the plot lines and action sequences of both the games and the movies.
My house was alive at this point. Everything with a pattern was breathing and blending together so beautifully. THe blinds were moving as though there was a gentle breeze blowing through them.
The hardest part was trying to go the the toilet and watching the bowl gently sway underneath you. I tried looking at my face in the mirror, it warped and bent and twisted and really didn't make me feel comfortable.
Everytime I left the room and returned my friend seemed threatened by me. Telling me to get away from him. Thinking we were planning things against him.
After around 7 and a half hours into the trip and everything stopped moving unless I was really concentrating. I tried sleeping but every sound made me jump. I woke up twice covered in sweat and feeling really restless.
I got around 3 hours sleep before my alarm went off and I had to go to work. My head was a scattered mess and I really didn't think I could make it to work and still do my job. Once I arrived and got into the routine everything settled down.
Now works finished I plan on getting some sleep and recovering. I really feel like I found something truly powerful last night, something that demands respect. You can see how easily things could go astray with the wrong environment and people around you. I look forward to experimenting with it in the future and seeing what else it has i store for me.
