alantis360
Bluelighter
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So I'm very but have not tripped on this past year except doc. Tried to satisfy the need for a trip I thought that this would at least give me a chance. Way way more satisfied than I thought. Nausea yes, puking and shitting nope. Visually like 150mc of Lucy but mentally and physically more more intense. Very dissociating can't really feel my body walking is funny. Feels like ergot 2cb\mipt
So some thoughts
Lying. I think we can all agree than not lying and being honest is better than to lie and mislead people. Take " how do i look in this picture" and answer honestly or lie to them saying you look good to protect them. Protect them of feeling an emotion : sadness, anxiety, etc. Etc. But while we may wanna lie even tho we really think they honestly look like this, that means we are still lying and no matter how hard we want to protect someone from feeling an unwanted emotion this does nothing since only that person can protect themselves from feeling that emotion. You can try and make someone happy but it is only up to them to find or feel it because happiness stems from inside us not externally but internally. Something I work everyday loving myself so then I can love others truly and honestly.
Image. Am I who I love and enjoy or am I this way to be appealing to what others like. Am I this wY because I love it or because it is status quo and it fits. If you do something that you don't love but you do it be cause it is what other people love your lying. If someone comes to me they want "me" and who I am not this body with a name living a mold of what another person likes and prefers. It's dishonest. This isn't my existence but the existence of what others want me to exist as. A fake existence.
Still high asballs and lots visual 5 hours since dosing excuse my grammar please.
So some thoughts
Lying. I think we can all agree than not lying and being honest is better than to lie and mislead people. Take " how do i look in this picture" and answer honestly or lie to them saying you look good to protect them. Protect them of feeling an emotion : sadness, anxiety, etc. Etc. But while we may wanna lie even tho we really think they honestly look like this, that means we are still lying and no matter how hard we want to protect someone from feeling an unwanted emotion this does nothing since only that person can protect themselves from feeling that emotion. You can try and make someone happy but it is only up to them to find or feel it because happiness stems from inside us not externally but internally. Something I work everyday loving myself so then I can love others truly and honestly.
Image. Am I who I love and enjoy or am I this way to be appealing to what others like. Am I this wY because I love it or because it is status quo and it fits. If you do something that you don't love but you do it be cause it is what other people love your lying. If someone comes to me they want "me" and who I am not this body with a name living a mold of what another person likes and prefers. It's dishonest. This isn't my existence but the existence of what others want me to exist as. A fake existence.
Still high asballs and lots visual 5 hours since dosing excuse my grammar please.
