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BrainChild

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Hey guys, I'm a new user. I come from Vancouver, BC, Canada. I recently turned 19 and am in my second year at the University of British Columbia, doing a psychology major / sociology major. Anyways, last night was my second time rolling (150mg first time, in early September, Ratatat Concert) and I did 200 mg pure MDMA (or so I was told). Anyways, I had liked this girl who was 22 like crazy. We both have girlfriends/boyfriends but like, she was really something else. We could talk for weeks and not get bored, just a real special connection.

She knows that I do drugs, but last night I told her I wasn't on drugs, when really I was rolling fucking like a euphoric tank of love, and we just had a great time (we were at a concert, Dandy Warhols) and started dancing, and began making out. I was like, honestly feeling like I was having the best night of my life, the drugs just really complimented the meal, like a fine glass of wine at a 5 star restaurant. Anyways, we went back to my place and got my car and then I drove her home (don't worry was like 3 hours after I plateaued). We were amazingly cuddly though, jesus.

So I guess my question is, will this intense feeling of love (I use this word because I have had 6 girlfriends before this but, I feel more for her than I ever have felt for anyone) is it just the afterglow of a perfect night or...?

I was just wondering if anyone had a similar experience and the feelings dropped off after a bit?

Either way, I don't think I'll be rolling again for maybe half a year, last night was a fluke I know, and it could've fucking gone terribly and ruined our friendship. But, hey, I've learned to be more optimistic from last night, even if things don't work out with me and her, I'm very grateful for everything.
 
in 2-3 days any added feelings that the x gave you should go away.

I'll never forget, (totally different situation but same thing, girl- etc, except I just met her)
I had eaten 3 tabs and was like "i dunno if im gonna roll" so i snuck out of the venue got a few more ate em, went back through the smokers crowd (rolling so hard they welcomed me in past security) and it was one of those things where she grabbed my hand and I was literally reborn and began to roll balls
2 days later felt like I lost my soulmate.

It wasnt that I really liked her or any of that, I just had such a strong "E" experience with her that being separated made me sad.

I think itll lessen but still be prominent in your feelings.
 
My first time rolling was a week ago, i met this really cool girl at the rave i went to and we hooked up. the next day i was moderately upset she wasn't around, but in a couple days you'll get over you awesome night, i did haha. although i wouldn't totally rule out seeing where things take you with this girl/ catering to your own girlfriend and what to do about her.
 
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-inappropriate and/or unintended emotional bonding
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I have met many people while rolling, some I am still friends with and some I am not. A lot of the people that I knew prior I felt A LOT closer to them afterwards. It was like we connected on a deeper level than ever before and I will find myself thinking about them a lot more. It is perfectly normal, and I think it is good for a friendship/relationship to roll with the person. But also if you are going to keep your current girlfriend I would recommend trying to have a bit more self control the next time you roll because that habit could really cause a problem in your relationship.
 
BrainChild said:
Hey guys, I'm a new user. I come from Vancouver, BC, Canada. I recently turned 19 and am in my second year at the University of British Columbia, doing a psychology major / sociology major. Anyways, last night was my second time rolling (150mg first time, in early September, Ratatat Concert) and I did 200 mg pure MDMA (or so I was told). Anyways, I had liked this girl who was 22 like crazy. We both have girlfriends/boyfriends but like, she was really something else. We could talk for weeks and not get bored, just a real special connection.

She knows that I do drugs, but last night I told her I wasn't on drugs, when really I was rolling fucking like a euphoric tank of love, and we just had a great time (we were at a concert, Dandy Warhols) and started dancing, and began making out. I was like, honestly feeling like I was having the best night of my life, the drugs just really complimented the meal, like a fine glass of wine at a 5 star restaurant. Anyways, we went back to my place and got my car and then I drove her home (don't worry was like 3 hours after I plateaued). We were amazingly cuddly though, jesus.

So I guess my question is, will this intense feeling of love (I use this word because I have had 6 girlfriends before this but, I feel more for her than I ever have felt for anyone) is it just the afterglow of a perfect night or...?

I was just wondering if anyone had a similar experience and the feelings dropped off after a bit?

Either way, I don't think I'll be rolling again for maybe half a year, last night was a fluke I know, and it could've fucking gone terribly and ruined our friendship. But, hey, I've learned to be more optimistic from last night, even if things don't work out with me and her, I'm very grateful for everything.
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Back in the day, we called this "XTC Love" -- named after the tune by Bertocucci Feranzano. In some cases it becomes something deeper, in other cases it was just the drug. It can ALWAYS be a catalyst to a long term relationship, though. I've known many friends that hooked up on MDMA that stayed together for a long time / are still together.

The trick is if you're both rolling, sometimes the feeling was only there because you were rolling. That is what XTC love is.
 
"unintended emotional bonding" This says it all.

Basically what I call a E crush. You'll crush on this person till A) You get to know them and find something out that you can't stand (pretty easy) B) They do something personally to you that hurts your feelings (ala not be your friend for lying to them etc etc)
 
its pretty fucking ironic for you to talk about love when your cheating with somone whose also cheating and you dont even consider you own fucking girlfriend.

Seriously, fuck your lack of consideration, pretty fucking selfish. Imagine you are in love with her and it turns into a long term relationship and then one day she pops some pills and makes out with some other guy because 'she's in love' and now wants to leave you for him. Just how the fuck would you feel?
 
ganja god said:
its pretty fucking ironic for you to talk about love when your cheating with somone whose also cheating and you dont even consider you own fucking girlfriend.

Seriously, fuck your lack of consideration, pretty fucking selfish. Imagine you are in love with her and it turns into a long term relationship and then one day she pops some pills and makes out with some other guy because 'she's in love' and now wants to leave you for him. Just how the fuck would you feel?
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Hahaha, that's life. Read some Nietzsche, I never promised any morality when I was born.
 
I got one of these E-crushes on saturday night at a rave. I met a really cool cute chick who was also rolling, so we just introduced ourselves and whatnot, then she invited me to go smoke some herb and I said "Okay, weed is the best!" So we smoked and then we started talking and connecting. She asked me for a light show and I cannot deny a light show, especially for a girl. Once I finish my light show she jumps up, hugs me, and drags me to the dance floor when Andy Moor was playing and we started dancing like there was no tomorrow. The rest of the night was dancing and hugging and smiling with her. I felt a great deep emotional connection with her that night. Ive had this happen a few times but never to this magnitude. It was an amazing time and made a great friend! :D
 
I have the opposite feeling from the Friday night that just passed. Dumb bitch slammed her mouth into mine and gave me a fat lip. I feel like I've been raped.
 
If you still have a current gf, you owe it to her to end things before you consider pursuing anything new. Just saying. Back-burnering her while you wait to see if the other girl pans out is just... low... and cruel.

Honestly, the drug can inflict emotions you don't mean it to. I think my boyfriend will never quite get over the first girl he ever rolled with. He'd never had a prior girlfriend or anything... so he fell pretty hard. He loves me of course, but I understand that a part of him will always wonder about her.
 
Wadsworth said:
If you still have a current gf, you owe it to her to end things before you consider pursuing anything new. Just saying. Back-burnering her while you wait to see if the other girl pans out is just... low... and cruel.

Honestly, the drug can inflict emotions you don't mean it to. I think my boyfriend will never quite get over the first girl he ever rolled with. He'd never had a prior girlfriend or anything... so he fell pretty hard. He loves me of course, but I understand that a part of him will always wonder about her.
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Yeah no, don't worry I broke up with my girlfriend a couple days ago. Um, me and the other girl, have taken a break as she has been dating that guy for about 3 years now and needs time to think about what she is going to do. I would say yes, the feeling were not as intense when we hung out on sunday night, but I definitely do really like her, in summary I'd say it was just a huge mind-fuck, it was like falling in love with someone in a couple hours, looking into their soul and seeing that everything is beautiful, um.. unrealistic, yes, but honestly emotions are more real than logic I'd say.
 
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