Long time lurker, but finally had the urge to post

[shyzzs]

I've always come across BlueLight when looking for info on drugs and stuff. I started doing hard drugs when I was about 18-21 (Coke, MD, E, Acid, and occasional meth) but I've been clean for over 6 years. Not entirely clean, from hard drugs to pharmaceuticals now, benzos especially. Trying my hardest to get off without any medical help available. Was on over 100+ diazepam per day + 2-6mg Xanax. Recently started tapering but life has been shiiiit.

 

[Coffeeshroom]

Hey bud and welcome

Yeah that sounds like a mean benzos habit there but we can work on that and help you bring it down if you wish.

We are all just here to help. Ask away my friend. Sure you have a lot of q’s?

 

[Halif2]

Hey Shyzzs. Welcome to BL.

That is a mammoth dose of diazepam. Tapering will be miserable but you're definitely doing the right thing because protracted use of benzos is damaging to your mental and physical health (especially at super high doses).

Good luck with it and hope you find good advice and perhaps motivation here on the site.

 

[shyzzs]

Hey bud and welcome

Yeah that sounds like a mean benzos habit there but we can work on that and help you bring it down if you wish.

We are all just here to help. Ask away my friend. Sure you have a lot of q’s?

Thank you Coffeeshroom.

Yeah, the habit spiraled out of control because of lockdowns, breakup, loss of friends. Also being the headteacher of a prestigious school of over 1000 students brings new levels of stress.

I'm currently sitting at 70mg Diazepam, with no xanx. I've managed a taper for the last month. My first on this site has more info if you'd like to check it out.

 

[shyzzs]

Hey Shyzzs. Welcome to BL.

That is a mammoth dose of diazepam. Tapering will be miserable but you're definitely doing the right thing because protracted use of benzos is damaging to your mental and physical health (especially at super high doses).

Good luck with it and hope you find good advice and perhaps motivation here on the site.

Thank you Halif!

Yeah, that 100mg+ combined with the xanx made me pretty disgusted with myself. I've been tapering for nearly a month now, and I'm down to 70mg Diazepam with no xanx. The messages here are already welcoming, and I appreciate them! Thank you!

 

[Coffeeshroom]

down to 70mg diazepam and no alprozalam is a step in the right directions

 

[bingey]

Welcome and yes diazepam is the golden standard in tapering so shouldn't be any problems there.

The hard part is going from 1 or 5 mg to zero though , think insomnia might want to stock up on valerian tea or sleepytime

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