Kindledspirit
Greenlighter
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- Jul 10, 2016
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Hello, I am writing here really as a last resort;
I am only young and currently live with my boyfriend and he is an addict, he had problems before our relationship which I didn't find out about until a number of months into the relationship. (He was on subutex)
He tried to detox from Oxycodone shortly after I found out about the problems he had had but used benzo's to help through the withdrawal, he then got addicted to those.
A little down the line and he was back on the subutex and taking benzo's.. In the past year I have tried to talk him into stopping with the drugs, each time it gets worse.. In the past year I have seen him go from taking Valium, to what were legal high chem test pills like clozolam, to heroin, tramadol, morphine..
Never in my life did I think I would have to ever witness a person on heroin, especially not in my own home.. It made me feel sick and ashamed
We also moved in together earlier this year, this is very difficult and upsetting to live with when I don't choose to take drugs.. I used to feel uncomfortable around people who smoked weed before our relationship ( that's no longer an issue) but you can imagine how I feel..
At the moment I'm being lied to daily... "He hasn't taken any" when I assume he has, he makes out that I'm crazy for assuming he's on drugs when "he isn't" even though I later find he is...
Sometimes he takes days off work at a time and I'm scared he'll lose his job if it happens again..
He tells me he wants to be with me but does everything to hurt me.. I want to be how we were at the start of our relationship
I just want someone to tell me if I'm fighting a losing battle? Should I give up? Is he in too deep to be saved?
The one thing I don't want to do, is give up... But after over a year of trying to make him stop, after it getting progressively worse recently, with harder drugs and more lying... Do I have to leave?
I am 19 years old and have never taken a drug in my life, I have to deal with this daily, my parents are clueless as I'm too ashamed to tell them about what I'm dealing with. I feel very alone and I am scared.
I'm sick of living a double life
I just need some clarity
I am only young and currently live with my boyfriend and he is an addict, he had problems before our relationship which I didn't find out about until a number of months into the relationship. (He was on subutex)
He tried to detox from Oxycodone shortly after I found out about the problems he had had but used benzo's to help through the withdrawal, he then got addicted to those.
A little down the line and he was back on the subutex and taking benzo's.. In the past year I have tried to talk him into stopping with the drugs, each time it gets worse.. In the past year I have seen him go from taking Valium, to what were legal high chem test pills like clozolam, to heroin, tramadol, morphine..
Never in my life did I think I would have to ever witness a person on heroin, especially not in my own home.. It made me feel sick and ashamed
We also moved in together earlier this year, this is very difficult and upsetting to live with when I don't choose to take drugs.. I used to feel uncomfortable around people who smoked weed before our relationship ( that's no longer an issue) but you can imagine how I feel..
At the moment I'm being lied to daily... "He hasn't taken any" when I assume he has, he makes out that I'm crazy for assuming he's on drugs when "he isn't" even though I later find he is...
Sometimes he takes days off work at a time and I'm scared he'll lose his job if it happens again..
He tells me he wants to be with me but does everything to hurt me.. I want to be how we were at the start of our relationship
I just want someone to tell me if I'm fighting a losing battle? Should I give up? Is he in too deep to be saved?
The one thing I don't want to do, is give up... But after over a year of trying to make him stop, after it getting progressively worse recently, with harder drugs and more lying... Do I have to leave?
I am 19 years old and have never taken a drug in my life, I have to deal with this daily, my parents are clueless as I'm too ashamed to tell them about what I'm dealing with. I feel very alone and I am scared.
I'm sick of living a double life
I just need some clarity
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