'lil advice needed for younnnga stoonnna

[adamski10]

Hello BL,
I have been smoking cannabis now for a good few years, in that time I had a five month break- (which after the difficulty of cessation) was a good head-cleared, and I think pushed me in the right direction with my life, I’m not back at college etc..

I then moved back into my home county area, where the links are flowing and the culture really exists and penetrated into every aspect of socialisation. I love these friends to bits, but even if I did ask them not to smoke around me- I don’t think we know how to respond to each other without drugs. I love the culture, I love the art work, the humour, the music, the political movement- I feel part of the enlightened, people who don’t buy the propaganda that we’ve been fed in the war against drugs.

I’ve also got ADHD, and my mind races without cannabis- well it races coherently, trails of thought processes that never seem to end but I can’t quite catch, Cannabis slow’s these down making them more easy to analyse, I can sit in one spot and churn over old information- but I can’t take in new information. So I’m able to sit still in lessons, and appear like I’m concentrating but be taking no information in, this seems to suit my teachers better than the Idea frenzied, chit chattering, little energy box. Although I feel cannabis helps me keep myself under control, being out of control is where my talents come from as a Media Producer- my mind just wasn’t designed to be conditioned in the way that the education system is trying to, I can be quite and underachieve or (without sounding like I’m blowing my trumpet) be moving from task to task, with constant LOUD commentary and make something that others don’t seem to be able to even formulate.

I’ve tried just smoking at night, but I can’t deal with the temptation to just get baked as fuck during the day. I’ve tried going without weed and its horrible now, body/mussels tense. No appetite, aggie/irritable just plain pissed off.
I feel trapped, by my own mind- and believe me, I’ve had addictions… been through the opiate family, been a meph head- but they seemed to get so dark that I couldn’t allow myself to get into that position again where as cannabis I can always rationalize to myself, because it’s not that bad- it’s natural and I feel like it’s a it-my-mind-to-free-scenario. The sensation seeker in me wants to try it all, explore it all, feel it all.

I’ve kinda lost track of what I wanted to say here, so this is what I’ve got, anyone ever feel like they’re in this catch 22? Should I just quit again? Can I manage it within my life?

 

[Big)Sky]

I think you have to find a balance in between smoking and not. You know how you function when your high, and you know how you function when your sober. Theres 2 different traits that both can apply to life.

IMO when you completely quit something that you enjoy, it still controls you. You still think about it and force your self not to smoke. If you can find a proper balance in between the 2 worlds life will run smoothly.

 

[Sega420]

acid :D

 

[DrunkardsDream]

Get your priorities straight and figure out what you want to do. Do not blame the educational system for your own short comings, if you want to do things in this world chances are you will have to have at least a college degree.

Some people can control their smoking and other people just can't. It's way too easy to get into the trap of smoking daily and getting blazed all day and night and not doing much of anything.

If you can't control your smoking and know that once you start smoking you are just going to eventually wind up being a total pothead and getting blazed daily then don't smoke.

Go on medications for ADD/ADHD they do work.

 

[cryptix420]

Get your priorities straight and figure out what you want to do. Do not blame the educational system for your own short comings, if you want to do things in this world chances are you will have to have at least a college degree.

Go on medications for ADD/ADHD they do work.

I can't get across just how intensely I disagree with you on an internet forum, but I'll do my best.

A college degree is NOT necessary to 'do something' in this world. If nothing else, college is just a place to further develop life/social skills and make connections. You know, networking. I don't feel that college provides some sort of 'advanced education' that better suits you to be productive in life. Granted, if you want to perfrom brain surgery, you're going to need some higher education, but this is usually not the case. People jump in head-first into thousands and thousands of dollars in debt just because society determined college is what you're 'supposed to do' after high school. It's for some people, not for others. You also frustrate me acting as if it's just a walk in the park to 'figure out what you want to do'. Well, kind sir, what do YOU 'want to do'? I'm sure you already have it figured out.

And jesus, are you serious about the medications? Do you really recommend them? Exactly which one do you think is ok? I can't think of a single ADD/ADHD medication that doesn't disgust me. They may 'work' (I don't believe that ADHD/ADD are legitimate medical conditions, people are just different!), but who knows what else they do to your body/mind in the long haul.

 

[Chainer]

I don't feel that college provides some sort of 'advanced education' that better suits you to be productive in life.

Um...

I highly disagree as well. A college degree opens many doors that would otherwise remain sealed shut, regardless of the degree. Even a 2-year program allows for higher income and increased job security in a time where such a thing is increasingly rare.

That said, college is not for everyone, but many, many jobs require a degree. The only actual "scam" I can think of for college would be business school, besides the networking aspect.

 

[FacedAgain]

You have written a good post and i want to help your thought processes... But i think the first thing u need to deal with is why you cant risk the temptation to get high all day... Find yourself something that is important to you that involves not being high (gym, writing, whatever) and then use that to rationalise to yourself to wait until its appropriote to get high...

And i think the best reason not to smoke all day and ignore your life is that in 20 years your life is still going to be static. you seem like you have a brain and are able to focus on things that inspire you. concentrate on harnessing those talents. let weed augment them (inspiration etc) but dont let it hinder you... i hear you when you say a collage degree isnt everything, which is true, you can make just as much money, but understand that generally thats not true, its the exception - not the rule. if u want to be the exception, you need to diferentiate yourself from the collage drones in your field.

and tell your friends to stop offering u and respect your choice!