DiscoRabbit
Bluelighter
k therapy session.. what the hell was that.
This trip report isnt too detailed because of the fact that I don't really remember much from one point to another, but at the end of the trip it got real intense. I wanted to share this because I have freinds who have had experiences like this, but do not do k anymore because of it. I have to say that because of this i am done k for a long time, but only because of the intense experience, not because I had a bad time..
My boyfriend and I had been doing k for awhile and both had been having trouble reaching a decent hole.. so this time we measured out approx 250-300 mg each to make sure we were taking the right amount. We sat on the couch surrounded by pillows and blankets (we alwasy have a huge set up for when we do this), turned out the lights except for a red light we have, put on some progressive trance, and went for it.
0:00
snorted two lines (i would imagine about 75-100 mg each)
0:05
snorted two more lines (total of 250-300 mg.)
0:10
typical k feeling starts to come on. very relaxed, beginning to close eyes, start thinking strange things, etc.
0:15
i am assuming its about 15 minutes later. I am definatley in a k hole, but it is not the relaxed happy hole that i used to be able to find. I am visulaizing myself still sitting in my living room, talking to people who do not exist, but are talking back to me. I feel very far away from H (boyfreind), which has been the case lately, although when the two of us had first started this together, we would go ont he same journey and feel very much as one person. I also do not find myself moving from area to area, room to room seeing people and places as i usually do. THe k hole i am in is pleasant, i am having extremely sexual visions related to a k hole i was in a few months ago where H and i rule the world (another trip report in itself) but I am disappointed at the same time. i cant remember details of the hole because I did not pay much attention to going over what happened after i came out (which is what i normally would do)
0:45
I am very much still messed up, cannot move correctly, but my vision is starting to come back. H and I somehow are now kissing. We are touching each other all over and being very sloppy, which is strange also because normally on k touching does not feel good at all. H disappears for a moment and suddenly I see him sit on the floor. He pulls me down to sit in front of him and we are holding each other, still kissing and sitting in front of each other indian style-ish with our legs wrapped around each other. We are taking turns kissing and mumblign to each other..
1:00
I have noticed that the music stopped. I ask H about it and he tells me he turned it off (must have been when he disappeared). I keep putting my glasses on and taking them off (i do this often when I am coming out of a hole for some reason). I play with them also because they confuse me.. I know they are my glasses but they look and feel different, I misplace them and eventually forget about them. H and I are still talking to each other, not sure what about, and my vision becomes clearer..
1:10
H and I are comparing the holes we were in, he too felt completely distant from me. Now, somewhere in all this mess, H gets up, and when he comes back, I am crying. I am compltely and utterly paranoid and upset about a personal issue he and I have. Im not going into detail, because I am sure you dont want to hear about my personal life (and nor do i wish to share it), but the jist of this is, for the next hour and a half he and i are talking, crying, sorting things out. Letting everything out that had bothered us, in complete emotional overload. I want to compare it to talking thigns out on E, but you don't cry and feel so helpless when you are on E like we did.
Now the people who i talk to who don't do k anymore tell me that they "went to a bad place" with k .. i am imagining that this is what happened to them as well, severe depression, helplessness, just being completely miserable. However, with H and I, although we felt these things, they benefitted us in the sence that we had a two hour therapy session because of it. Of course, we were upset, but we could have never said the things we said if we were on e, because of the loved up feeling and the sympatheticness of the drug. There were a lot of things said that were directly mean to say, and we oculd have never done that on E. however, like i said, the experience was good for the both of us.
I have one question though, does anyone else seem to have a problem getting to the same hole that you used to once you've done k for awhile? We don't do it that often, we usually only buy one or two liks every two or three months.. but it seems like the experience has been tuned down. Or is this just what every drug does to you after awhile and i should stop complaining about it.
This trip report isnt too detailed because of the fact that I don't really remember much from one point to another, but at the end of the trip it got real intense. I wanted to share this because I have freinds who have had experiences like this, but do not do k anymore because of it. I have to say that because of this i am done k for a long time, but only because of the intense experience, not because I had a bad time..
My boyfriend and I had been doing k for awhile and both had been having trouble reaching a decent hole.. so this time we measured out approx 250-300 mg each to make sure we were taking the right amount. We sat on the couch surrounded by pillows and blankets (we alwasy have a huge set up for when we do this), turned out the lights except for a red light we have, put on some progressive trance, and went for it.
0:00
snorted two lines (i would imagine about 75-100 mg each)
0:05
snorted two more lines (total of 250-300 mg.)
0:10
typical k feeling starts to come on. very relaxed, beginning to close eyes, start thinking strange things, etc.
0:15
i am assuming its about 15 minutes later. I am definatley in a k hole, but it is not the relaxed happy hole that i used to be able to find. I am visulaizing myself still sitting in my living room, talking to people who do not exist, but are talking back to me. I feel very far away from H (boyfreind), which has been the case lately, although when the two of us had first started this together, we would go ont he same journey and feel very much as one person. I also do not find myself moving from area to area, room to room seeing people and places as i usually do. THe k hole i am in is pleasant, i am having extremely sexual visions related to a k hole i was in a few months ago where H and i rule the world (another trip report in itself) but I am disappointed at the same time. i cant remember details of the hole because I did not pay much attention to going over what happened after i came out (which is what i normally would do)
0:45
I am very much still messed up, cannot move correctly, but my vision is starting to come back. H and I somehow are now kissing. We are touching each other all over and being very sloppy, which is strange also because normally on k touching does not feel good at all. H disappears for a moment and suddenly I see him sit on the floor. He pulls me down to sit in front of him and we are holding each other, still kissing and sitting in front of each other indian style-ish with our legs wrapped around each other. We are taking turns kissing and mumblign to each other..
1:00
I have noticed that the music stopped. I ask H about it and he tells me he turned it off (must have been when he disappeared). I keep putting my glasses on and taking them off (i do this often when I am coming out of a hole for some reason). I play with them also because they confuse me.. I know they are my glasses but they look and feel different, I misplace them and eventually forget about them. H and I are still talking to each other, not sure what about, and my vision becomes clearer..
1:10
H and I are comparing the holes we were in, he too felt completely distant from me. Now, somewhere in all this mess, H gets up, and when he comes back, I am crying. I am compltely and utterly paranoid and upset about a personal issue he and I have. Im not going into detail, because I am sure you dont want to hear about my personal life (and nor do i wish to share it), but the jist of this is, for the next hour and a half he and i are talking, crying, sorting things out. Letting everything out that had bothered us, in complete emotional overload. I want to compare it to talking thigns out on E, but you don't cry and feel so helpless when you are on E like we did.
Now the people who i talk to who don't do k anymore tell me that they "went to a bad place" with k .. i am imagining that this is what happened to them as well, severe depression, helplessness, just being completely miserable. However, with H and I, although we felt these things, they benefitted us in the sence that we had a two hour therapy session because of it. Of course, we were upset, but we could have never said the things we said if we were on e, because of the loved up feeling and the sympatheticness of the drug. There were a lot of things said that were directly mean to say, and we oculd have never done that on E. however, like i said, the experience was good for the both of us.
I have one question though, does anyone else seem to have a problem getting to the same hole that you used to once you've done k for awhile? We don't do it that often, we usually only buy one or two liks every two or three months.. but it seems like the experience has been tuned down. Or is this just what every drug does to you after awhile and i should stop complaining about it.
