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Bluelighter
- Joined
- Dec 6, 2011
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- 129
well, this sucks, i had this best friend who stood by me through everything, then last night decides she cant watch me wreck my life. She's a bit straight laced, smoked weed every now and then but nothing major, I got hooked up with a new connect and i started talking to her about getting X and shit, and last night she just broke down, telling me that i wasnt fine and that im going to destroy my life, and that i should watch my step because its a long fall, really laying a guilt trip on me, so I go into asshole mode, saying shes blowing it all out of proportion. the only thing stopping me from going off the rails was her, and now i feel like shit is never going to get better, but at the same time part of me really wants to just say fuck her and go do a bunch of shit, i know i shouldnt but at this point i really need something, someone, anyone. You guys are my only true peers, the only people who can relate, i need help to get through this, I really miss her but i was just a complete and utter dick and now it's like I dont even deserve to talk to her, let alone be her best friend...