I'm a new member. Blue light has done a lot for me.
What I'm trying to say here is going to sound f***** up and jumbled I'm just trying to explain it best way I know how.
I have a burning Love fot shooting Rock. Supply is very scarce I don't hang or know the right people. Every couple weeks the cards are right I truly amaze myself at what I can accomplish to get what I love so much.
I have a house in a family my jobs mostly odd. I'm good at a lot of things but great well we'll just leave it at that.
I'm on Adderall and Suboxone. When trigger happens and there's nothing around I started booting my Adderall and filtering it a good few times. I've washed Ritalin with ethanol and when it evaporates mix it with water and slam that s*** compared to the adderal that's great. I was f****** with my pills maybe once a week now I do it two or three times a day methodically triple filtering what what the f*** am I thinking!! If I can't get to the good stuff I should be thankful for that but why do I got to keep substituting shity Adderall for that Sweet .3 shot of crack.
Write a good long spells when it's pretty much out of my mind but when the ganja harvest comes in sometimes I trade that s*** all the time. Even though it's scarce for me give the right person a good deal on a big bag they find it for me almost every time.
I've been through some treatment where I did learn a lot I can see the wisdom in what they teach me and how it relates to this disease I got.
But the cycle keeps going and going and never ends year after year I really wants to put it to bed. I tell myself that but when the time rolls around gimme three grams of Rock and just two blasts for my lightweight wife, then that's sexual ecstasy brings me back every time and every time again and again.
I don't know what I'm trying to say I think I'm naive I know I'm a sucker now you know I am a f****** complete slaves since those good drugs in my veins. For what it's worth if he was really really good to get that out thank you blue light.
What I'm trying to say here is going to sound f***** up and jumbled I'm just trying to explain it best way I know how.
I have a burning Love fot shooting Rock. Supply is very scarce I don't hang or know the right people. Every couple weeks the cards are right I truly amaze myself at what I can accomplish to get what I love so much.
I have a house in a family my jobs mostly odd. I'm good at a lot of things but great well we'll just leave it at that.
I'm on Adderall and Suboxone. When trigger happens and there's nothing around I started booting my Adderall and filtering it a good few times. I've washed Ritalin with ethanol and when it evaporates mix it with water and slam that s*** compared to the adderal that's great. I was f****** with my pills maybe once a week now I do it two or three times a day methodically triple filtering what what the f*** am I thinking!! If I can't get to the good stuff I should be thankful for that but why do I got to keep substituting shity Adderall for that Sweet .3 shot of crack.
Write a good long spells when it's pretty much out of my mind but when the ganja harvest comes in sometimes I trade that s*** all the time. Even though it's scarce for me give the right person a good deal on a big bag they find it for me almost every time.
I've been through some treatment where I did learn a lot I can see the wisdom in what they teach me and how it relates to this disease I got.
But the cycle keeps going and going and never ends year after year I really wants to put it to bed. I tell myself that but when the time rolls around gimme three grams of Rock and just two blasts for my lightweight wife, then that's sexual ecstasy brings me back every time and every time again and again.
I don't know what I'm trying to say I think I'm naive I know I'm a sucker now you know I am a f****** complete slaves since those good drugs in my veins. For what it's worth if he was really really good to get that out thank you blue light.
Ty as always.
