is it worth the risk?

[pLur4eVer<33]

so my parents found out im gay, and the fact that thier hardcore catholics just totally fucked up our relationship. after i tried to off myself i started therapy and my therapist recommended antidepressants. i read that antidepressants fuck up ur ability to enjoy e, but im just wondering if its worth the risk not taking the antidepressants so i can at least get floored and forget about my fucked up home once in a while. any thoughts?

 

[Legerity]

My doctor was going to put me on an SSRI for anxiety, but I got an appointment with a psychiatrist and he prescribed something else instead. I'm quite fond of MDMA so I had the same concern as you...but I thought about it and would have been willing to try it out if I thought it would be beneficial.

So I would ask myself if I thought the medication would help. Some people seem to benefit from SSRI medications, whereas other people feel worse.

Another question is whether or not you feel that MDMA is harmful to your mental health. Many people that are prone to depression find that it makes it worse. Is this the case for you, or do you find that it somehow helps you with your depressive symptoms? When I say help, I don't mean just when you are rolling, but do the experiences actually help you to have a more positive outlook and to feel those deep connections with people even when you are not rolling.

It's really a personal decision that you will have to make. If your depression has reached the point that you are suicidal, I would really recommend making the decision that will benefit your mental health, even if it means having to sacrifice something that you enjoy. If MDMA is being used so you can forget about your life, then working on the cause of that (with or without medication) may also remove your desire to consume it.

 

[pLur4eVer<33]

well ive rolled 3 times now, and each time i feel like i experienced a whole new part of life, its incredible for me. great response btw thanks

 

[paranoid android]

Alot of anti-depressants including ssri's, snri's, tricyclics, MAOI's and various atypical type anti-depressants either dumb down, block the effects of ecstasy altogether or make it dangerous or even deadly to take in rare instinces. With many of them due to their half life skipping one dose is not going to help matters. There are many threads on bluelight about the interactions MDMA has with various anti-depressants so just do a quick search. Which anti-depressant are you taking anyway?

I personally don't think it would be worth it going off your anti-depressants just so you can do E. Anti-depressants need to be taken everyday in order to be effective and skipping doses make them less effective, alot of anti-depressants have withdrawal symptoms and a few have very harsh withdrawal symptoms in some people and due to the long half life of some anti-d's you may have to skip more then a few days in order for the MDMA to work.

How old are you by the way? If your parents are giving you a hard time just because you are gay and they are good ol catholics 8) then you will be happier as soon as you can get the fuck out of there in my opinion. I have never taken E before (various reasons) but no drug is going to make living with people who don't tolerate the way you just are well any nicer to live with. So getting the fuck out of there ASAP would be the best advice i could give you.

Also MDMA can actually cause depression in alot of people so taking it while your already depressed is not a very good idea in my opinion atleast.

 

[Paulycodone]

Hey I have a lot of experience with psychiatric medicines and recreational drugs and would be happy to answer any of your questions. One time when I was taking Paxil I took 2 MDMA pills (blue dolphins) and felt absolutely nothing. Also, I've been told that everytime you do ecstasy, you can never regain the same amount of seratonin you once had. So in my personal opinion and from experience, it can be something enjoyable to do a few times a year, but you start doing E every weekend or more, and you'll start to have some psychological problems such as panic, anxiety, that kind of thing so be careful with it. I'm not sure how long you'd have to stop taking a SSRI prior to rolling in order to experience the effects of it. I know some people take 5htp or whatever it is the day after when people feel all cracked out lol, I was always alright with some xanax and weed nearby the day after haha. Wow you live so close, you know medical marijuana has been more helpful for my anxiety/depression than any SSRI, SNRI, anti-psychotic, et cetera. <snip> Anyway if you have any question and think I could help feel free to send me a PM or yahoo msg.

-Paul

 

[Lady Codone]

If you take a short-acting SSRI, you can quit and still roll without waiting a month or more like with Prozac and some of the other long-acting ones (in most cases).

This is an issue I struggle with too, and it's a tough call. I usually just listen to my intuition and the feedback of others: if I start getting paranoid, cranky or depressed after quitting my meds, I'll start them again immediately. I've been off my Prozac for 3 months now and am doing relatively well, but that's not always the case. Just be careful about starting/stopping antidepressants, as that's when they're most likely to trigger suicide and other severe side effects.

 

[heythatsmybike]

Sorry mate but there is more of an issue here than working out whether you're going to get high or not. Your actual question could have been posted in any dd, but you posted here. Maybe you should ask for advice on how to deal with your problems so you don't have to take prescriptions altogether. That's the problem with much of society today, they hide from their problems rather than deal with them. If your parents can't accept you for who you are then IMO you're better off without them, because ultimately that is bad parenting and just inhumane. Drugs aren't a way to hide, they make it worse.

 

[Paulycodone]

Yea bike is right, I used illegal drugs and then prescription drugs to not feel anything, to numb myself from things I didn't want to feel, for years, then I got on a ton of Rx psych meds, and for a few more years did the same thing. Finally I got off the psych meds (except klonopin my body needs benzos now or will convulse/seize) and all the things I had been hiding from/stuffing exploded in my face lol. Then after dealing with them, a lot of my anxiety became less overwhelming, among other things. Now, don't get me wrong, I still have a bit of an "addiction to my medication" well I can't stop the pain meds yet that are helping my back, hopefully after some physical therapy I'll be doing better and the doc can help wean me off, cuz I have mega withdrawal if I try to not take it for a couple days. But I am addicted to marijuana, I mean I can go a couple days without it, or longer if necessary, but it is a crutch for me and sometimes it's the only thing that helps me relax or sleep. My tolerance is so high with other things that it's nearly impossible to sedate myself lol. There's my 2 cents =)