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Into recovery...still using.

alexvolume2

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I've been in recovery for about 7 years, off and on. It may sound like an oxymoron, but I've been interested in and have participated in my recovery (including AA/NA and NAMI) for about seven years. I've been in active addiction since 2004 or so. I know that I have a problem and have worked through step eight a couple of times.

I am interested in recovery from alcohol/drug addiction but have problems with my ideals which include psychedelic, MJ, and dissociative use as possible means to an end. I feel that my use of alcohol and dissociatives, and until recently-synthetic cannabinoid usage hurts my recovery efforts but that they are still helpful in my mental health issues including chronic anxiety and major depressive disorder. I have recently 5/15, concluded another stay in rehab but am again using alcohol and dxm.

What helps you guys stay clean? What helps you when you've relapsed?:|
 
You need to seek treatment for your anxiety and depression, and you need to persist with it. Self medicating with alcohol and DXM will only make matters worse.

Make it a priority to find a good psychiatrist and psychologist, and focus on being fully committed to your mental health treatment long-term.
 
You need to seek treatment for your anxiety and depression, and you need to persist with it. Self medicating with alcohol and DXM will only make matters worse.

Make it a priority to find a good psychiatrist and psychologist, and focus on being fully committed to your mental health treatment long-term.

^ exactly what I would have said.

Best of luck getting off the alcohol and other drugs you wish to quit.
 
Well, I guess that's it. I appreciate the replies. I have sought treatment but I'm still on a working page with both of those things. BL and it's members always help, especially when I am in a weak point in my life. True HR shit, I wish I could show my P.O. some of these pages, but she is quite humorless. Time to take my antidepressants and coffee....
 
What is your diet like? Do you eat processed foods or fast food? Do you eat raw and cooked greens? What kind of exercise are you getting? These considerations are all cornerstones of my sobriety.
 
I eat both. I used to be a strict vegan before I turned back to the dark side. Even though, as a non-vegetarian, I worked in a couple of health food stores and drank veggie juice, took wheat grass shots, and tried to live a holistic lifestyle...aside from the drugs. I suppose I need to put into action the things I knew and know. I have high blood pressure atm and know that I need to improve things within myself...as well as quitting smoking.

Mehm, I haven't been following a healthy diet lately but I do love spinach, kale and leafy greens. I would run 5-6 miles a day in my past but I haven't as of the last few months. Thanks again, guys and gals.
 
Thanks for the reply, it seems like you have some good knowledge about health. I would say that above everything else, the one thing in my life that has changed (asides from not using anymore) is taking all 12 steps then practicing 10, 11, and 12 on a daily basis.
 
I eat both. I used to be a strict vegan before I turned back to the dark side. Even though, as a non-vegetarian, I worked in a couple of health food stores and drank veggie juice, took wheat grass shots, and tried to live a holistic lifestyle...aside from the drugs. I suppose I need to put into action the things I knew and know. I have high blood pressure atm and know that I need to improve things within myself...as well as quitting smoking.

Mehm, I haven't been following a healthy diet lately but I do love spinach, kale and leafy greens. I would run 5-6 miles a day in my past but I haven't as of the last few months. Thanks again, guys and gals.

This sounds just like me. Since my addiction has escalated (worse than ever) I have not been taking care of my health. I typically eat really healthy and love to exercise, but so much energy and money goes to feeding my addiction that I've turned away from health foods and exercise.
 
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