Since discovering RC's a short while ago SWIM has become a interested viewer of this forum, among others.The knowledge SWIM has learnt from here has greatly helped SWIM in SWIM's RC journey and gave SWIM a large amount of information across a large value of different aspects when taking these substances. Finally registering SWIM is happy to be a member of this online community incorporating the various experienced people that post here daily and offer many fascinating experience reports and insight on these substances. 
In the past SWIM's experience includes weed, Ketamine, Coke and more recently methylone, mephedrone and various party pills.
SWIM knows this is a long post, but please bear with SWIM, he would love to hear from you guys on perhaps things you pick up or can relate with her to the experience and what may have contributed to that!
SWIM tried methylone for the first time about 2 months ago after having heard a lot of positive information about it and recently journeying into this world of RC's deciding this would be a good place to start, having heard the wealth of positive experiences and the relation to X but not in the same level of intensity.
The very first time SWIM dappled with finger tipped amounts of mephedrone, a friend was big into the substance but SWIM was more akin to his first RC experience being with methylone as at the time SWIM did not have any scales to correct measure a dose he decided at that time not to take much more than small sizes of this RC, finger sized dabs taken orally. The experience was virtually non existent, perhaps a faster heart rate but not much more. Forward to the the first proper time with methylone, SWIM took 150mg orally, dissolved with water, of methylone. Did not experience any euphoria, generally the only effect at this time was how more visually beautiful the world looked, the lack of effect could possibly be down to the meal eaten almost an hour beforehand. No music was playing so cannot comment on music appreciation. It is useful to note on each of the following occasions unless otherwise states SWIM had an experienced SWIMMER with him, used to the world of many different substances, and able to guide him should the experience go that way, generally trying the RC'S as the magic left this SWIMMER with mdma a long time ago, hearing these substances can bring back the initial mdma magic for those with tolerance to md, he was almost intrigued to try these RC'S.
Forward to a couple of days later when SWIM tried a first proper dose on an empty stomach, 200mg taken orally dissolved in water, the last meal being at around 1.30pm that day, the time then being around 7.00pm.
After about 10 mins SWIM started to feel the effects, the all talked about euphoria taking effect almost suddenly and at the same time almost complete losing of the world around SWIM enveloped in bliss, the checking of any baggage at the door, the magic people talk about. It kept getting better and better, no thoughts could intervene, everything was perfect, music was beyond words, with each new song played a rush of euphoria was present, going up level after level of contentedness and euphoria and bliss. Accompanying this the higher perception of almost all senses. SWIM had to walk around the house, could not sit still, anything else felt like wasting this experience. SWIM's pet monkey at time had to tell SWIM to calm down as SWIM was in such a state of euphoria and beyond excited at this experience. There was no comedown, after about 2 hours as SWIM was simply left back at baseline he suddenly began feeling a feeling of not wanting to do anything, SWIM and his pet monkey where to go to a club and the taxi had to be called, SWIM felt at this point not knowing if he wanted to go, dysphoria almost, while feeling very disappointed the high had gone. SWIM took a 50mg of methylone bombed and went to a club with a friend. The effects of the bomb did not hit and during the time at the club, where SWIM would normally be full of energy in such a situation he felt almost like a fly on the wall, paranoid and a feeling of wanting to get out of there, he was relieved when they left to go home. That night, while lying in bed, about 4am the effects of the 50mg seem to come on, everything became almost beautiful, there was euphoria but SWIM did not feel the need to get up and enjoy the experience, he lay in bed enjoying it instead until it dissipated a little while later. SWIM slept well following this and was in a positive mood the next day and following through the week.
In the next couple of days SWIM wanted to try the experience again, taking 250mg this time in the same way. This experience was even better than the first. Another positive trip, feeling first effects after 5-10 mins, to full blown euphoria, lots of thought searching achieved and good feelings, working out how to connect with people he has wronged in the past. This trip also had no bad comedown and no after effects, the trip simply dissipated after a couple of hours, SWIM slept well that night. SWIM did not redose this time either.
At this stage if it worth noting that through the self discovery methylone is known for SWIM had worked out a lot of life issues, almost now seeing the bigger picture and becoming more in line with being his own person compared to the last year and how closed minded he had become, in the process losing a lot of great friends and previous girlfriends due to his thinking. So to speak SWIM's mind felt like it had been "opened up".
It is worthy of note in the following week SWIM went for an interview that would decide if his current job could be kept. This interview went bad and through the feelings of worrying about not getting the job that followed SWIM wished, and knows now this was not the right thing to do and could have led to some of the following bad experiences, he could escape once again to the methylone plane where he could check baggage at the door. He promised himself this would be a one time only thing and proceeded to take 200mg orally dissolved in water. Same effect as previous times, feeling effects after 5-10 mins. At this time he was talking to an old friend he had placed a lot of strain of in the past, via msn, feeling the effects of the methylone he felt he had to call this person, hear their voice in person. He did this and through the course of his trip he talked to this person, re-connected with them, talked over the difficult times and why he was in that frame of mood at that time, talked through his train of thought currently, leaving the friend very pleased about SWIM's new turn in direction and open minded perception to life at this point. Following 1 and a half hours of the trip and as effects began to dissipate, wanting to remain in such high euphoria, SWIM took a 50 mg re-dose, this seemingly doing very little for him, extended perhaps the speedy stimulant side but once again trailing of and leaving him back to basecamp comfortably with no side effects, he again slept well that night and there were no discernible side effects that following week.
SWIM then decided he had to introduce his friend to methylone. It is interesting to note this friend was the same person SWIM re-connected with following the previous time he took methylone. This person going through a difficult time also wanting some release, SWIM at the time thought this would be the perfect way for this person to achieve that, if even for the brief couple of hours methylone lasts. On the Sunday night of the week following the last time SWIM took methylone he took 250 mg, orally with water, while his friend took 150 orally with water. Both SWIM and his friend had stupidly eaten a large meal not more than one hour beforehand this time so would explain why the effects did not take hold. Another explanation SWIM has been thinking over and would go a ways to explaining this lack of effect when taking into consideration all the factors of surrounding and situation when taking methylone and your state of mind could be SWIM's friend brought a friend with him, someone he met on the way up to SWIMS house. This person was painfully shy and although not anti drug was never exposed to this world of substances. This person sat in SWIM's house for the duration, not saying a word, very difficult to get conversation out of, in an almost depressive state looking at the ground for the duration of his stay, almost not wanting to be there. SWIM's pet monkey even remarked at a point about how cold this person was and he was not even in the same room for the majority of his stay but still picked up on this when he did venture into the other room. This person had also taken 250gm of methylone. SWIM feels this person was a bad negative energy in the room and could have effected the normal wiliness to let go when methylone takes hold. After about 1 and half hours, when neither were feeling anything SWIM decided to take another 50mg and SWIMS friend another 100mg. After about 1 hour of no effects, apart from slightly more perception, visually and to the music playing it steps up a level for SWIM, not to the degree of previous times but defiantly having some effect. SWIMS friend, a little disappointed at the non effect of the methylone decided to take off a little while later, generally only feeling a little of the empathetic effect and how the weeks problems drifted away, before returning to normal. Again though SWIM puts this down to the big meal eaten and also SWIMS negative friend being in the same room, most obviously SWIM's friend, who was close to this person and knowing his viewpoint on substances was at least sub consciously thinking what his friend must be thinking at this time. Just as his friend was leaving suddenly lights got brighter for SWIM and he began to feel the effects, as with the previous times it was pure euphoria and bliss. Again once he was back at basecamp he felt more lasting side effects apart from the usual ones, gurning etc. SWIM slept well that night.
In the next week SWIM wanted to try methylone again, hearing about piracetam and how methylone trips were made more intense SWIM wanted to add this to the mix. He took an attack dose of about 3600mg of piracetam following by 250mg of methylone. About 45 mins or so after taking this the only discernible effects were cold rushes throughout the body, replacing the usual warm euphoric rushes SWIM believed. After around 1 and a half hours of these low effects SWIM decided to take another 100mg. Again the only effects, apart from the usual heightened perception were these constant cold rushes, SWIM no longer felt the need to open up and share and talk constantly as he normally did on methylone. SWIM then stupidly did another 50mg of methylone, in the hope he could get some short of high, obviously this was dumb and a waste, but in his frame of mind at that time the right thing to do. After about a hour there was a definite comedown, suddenly SWIM was overcome by negative stimulation, his whole body stimulated, nausea, his vision went double when he had to stand to go vomit (very mildly) his balance was off, he nearly fell over a couple of times on the way to the bathroom. This negative stimatulation continued for a while, he got about 2 hours of sleep and the next day felt pretty terrible, his double vision still there, he felt in this mood for most of the day. After getting some food that evening he felt better. This was the first time SWIM encountered a bad comedown on methylone.
It was in the week following this SWIM knew he was going to lose his job, in the week following up to this SWIM was in a very displacement mood, going into work each day and fighting for his chance to stay, but at times he felt in a dream like phase, pissed off and at the same time emotional to be leaving a place of people he really enjoyed working with. Workmates mentioned to him on several occasions how bad he looked, even higher up employees who he didn't see on a regular basis noticed this, obviously this is worrying. In this week leading up to losing his job SWIM took a lot of party pills, obviously this was a terrible idea and SWIM knows this but to escape the obvious problems and feeling terrible of losing his job and perhaps being kicked out of his currently rented house he needed to escape. Taking one pill or so each night, heading out with friends to clubs etc, but not drinking a lot, more so letting the pills do there thing. Obviously the effect wasn't good by any means. Some of the pills included Phat freddy tripstas, trance, elevate. It is also worth noting that SWIM did not eat his usual diet this week, stupidly preferring to eat a minimum as the pills worked better on an empty stomach. This was absolute stupidity SWIM knows.
On the Friday of this week SWIM took an elevate party pill (stupidly believing this would preload serotonin) and dropped another Phat freddy tripsta, after about an hour of feeling no effect he decided to take 200 mg of mephedrone dissolved in water, followed by 50mg after an hour and a half. Again the only effect was the cold rushes throughout his body, prompting him to even put on another jacket. After about 2 hours of where the trip would have been he was again overcome by the negative stimulation. He went to bed but wasn't feeling overly bad the following day. It was from here were things went very bad. It is perhaps worthy of mention that a lot of what following may have manifested itself through realization of changes so quickly since his introspective time with methylone. SWIM mind had been opened up, from a year of being closed off his was now seeing the big picture, getting his life in order, perhaps this was a large shock to the system so to speak in such a short space of time for so many things to be realized. This state of mind at the same
It was on the following night that SWIM decided to try a combo of mephedrone and methylone, having heard many good things about it. Again he had eaten very little that day so had an empty stomach when taking this combo. Bombing 200mg of each substance SWIM listened to music as he normally did. Again the only effects seem to be the heightened perception, music sounded good and in SWIM's face. The euphoria was again missing, cold rushes again came on as before. After about 1 hour SWIM began to feel traces of euphoria accompanying the cold rushes and it was almost like SWIM tried to force this euphoria on. After about 2 hours, SWIM feeling in a good mood, sitting listening enjoying the music when suddenly he began to feel like this throat was being attacked. SWIM did the worst possibly thing you could do and in that split second of feeling this told himself he was going to die, which obviously made things much worse. Immediately SWIM was walking crazy around the house, all the lights on, repeatedly feeling this sensation of his throat being attacked, like he was unable to swallow and washed over with bad feeling and a sinking feeling at times, thinking that was it for SWIM. Without thinking SWIM took off out the door and felt he had to walk, get into the air, so he took off not knowing a destination, all the while feeling this terrible throat sensation at select times. After about half a mile SWIM decided to head toward the hospital and for the next 2 hours or so did laps in front of the hospital, every time the sensation getting worse he would approach the hospital, obviously not wanting to go in and in term give a bad press to this RC'S such as SWIM's frame of mind was at that time. SWIM eventually returned home, still feeling this throat sensation at times, sometimes worst than other times but definitely still there. Thinking at that time it could be down to hydration SWIM proceeded to a lot of water over the next little while, not overdoing however, knowing the effects of too much water while effected by a substance such as methylone etc. For the next couple of days SWIM felt this sensation, almost always accompanied by the feeling of worry as realized he may not be able to swallow. This led SWIM to swallow almost constantly, somehow afraid if he didn't he would forget how to and choke. Obviously this sounds very stupid now but at the time this was SWIM's displaced frame of mind.
Over the next little while SWIM still felt this sensation at select times, and almost each time worried he was on the way out, very stupid thinking and did nothing but exasperate the feeling. A couple of days later, still having no idea why this was happening SWIM was heading out with some friends, and not wanting to take any methylone at this time due to the obvious circumstances but still wanting to have a good time SWIM decided to take a trance party pill. He did this and when the pill hit him he felt somehow like he knew why this throat sensation was occurring and maybe he could control it. It was less pronounced in the coming days but defiantly still there, more so when SWIM thought about it when actively eating, worrying he could not swallow etc, obviously doing himself no favors.
For a large part of the week following SWIM was not in a good mood, having lost his job, he at times fought with his roomate, being in a very bad mood, not wanting to talk to anyone, feeling depressed and not himself. This is very out of the ordinary as by natural SWIM had always been a generally happy person.
A day following this SWIM got offered another contract with his work, finally he was returning back to work, but not until the middle of the following month, but things seemed to be getting back on the level. Still SWIM's mood was noticeably affected and he was in bad moods and not feeling like talking to people. On the Sat of this same week and feeling terrible and not wanting to talk to his roomate but feeling he really had to, to set the record straight, SWIM very stupidly felt the best way to do this was on methylone, given the sharing qualities it had offered him in the past, and the ability to say things he normally could not while sober. This was the most stupid idea SWIM knows and most defiantly could have been a large factor in how much worse the situation got. Around this time SWIM was still experiencing the throat sensation, albeit not as bad but it was still there.
SWIM took 250 mg orally with water and his roomate 200mg orally with water. Both had empty stomachs. As usual the music went on and SWIM's roomate went to play some drums in another room while he was coming up. SWIM's mood at this time was shaky and as situation and state of mind affect a trip in such a way very stupid to be taking methylone at this time. The effects began to take hold after about 5 mins, SWIM's heart began beating faster and where normally SWIM would let the effect take him he was actively fighting it off, the throat sensation coming on bad, until he had himself into a state, obviously the methylone exaggerating this tenfold. SWIM had to go find his pet monkey as as had to talk to someone and immediately they decided to go for a walk like before. SWIM was experiencing what he then worked out to be panic attacks. Over the course of the next while SWIM experienced this to a severe level, walking around for hours, thinking if they returned home he would be worse in the house. Over this course of time he and his pet monkey talked about a lot of issues, things he could not have when SWIM was sober, explaining his mood the previous days and how it no doubt effected his pet monkey. This intense introspection was all among the panic attack and throat sensation, at times SWIM could not talk in complete sentences such was the condition. Finally SWIM returned home, calmed down a little, but still feeling the throat sensation at selective times. It was after this that the negative stimulation took over SWIM, almost becoming too much to handle and he had to talk around the house to cool it off, inside was almost too much. SWIM went to bed a little while later, still experiencing the throat sensation and light panic attacks at times. The next day he had the typical methylone side effects.
SWIM now knows that the sensation which manifested itself the first time after the combo was a panic attack, however has no idea where it came from as SWIM's mood at the time was enjoying the music one minute then suddenly hit with that sensation of his throat being attacked. The best conclusion SWIM can come up with is the introspective soul searching and changes methylone helped SWIM to realize transcending on to a deeper level of consciousness bringing to the surface the negative aspects, manifesting them as panic attacks. Obviously the mental strain SWIM placed on himself in the lead up to losing his job was very bad and at the same time using the substances and party pills to compensate for this. SWIM can't stress how much methylone had helped him to grasp major change in his life, finally seeing the big picture over the course of a month. SWIM's friend believes this is one of the defining factors in this manifestation of panic attacks, the realization of such a huge life defining difference in such a short amount of time. Another factor could be how SWIM is not totally comfortable with his situations right now, being out of work and his days and lack of money meaning less social time is possible and more time in the house etc, whereas when he returns to work he will regain his daily cycle.
Anyway SWIM now decided after this terrible night he needed to get his priorities in order and lay off the methylone for a while, getting back into a good flow with his job and back into a healthy cycle of meals etc, daily life before his went into a binge so to speak with methylone and party pills etc. During this time generally the panic attacks where worst at night, and if is almost as if the only thing being the problem is when SWIM feels he cannot swallow he panics a little, but generally knows if that was absent he could enjoy the effects of RC's once again. Just the other night there SWIM decided to try some Shamantrance in the hope it would relax him, it however made his panic attack and throat sensation come on more than usual. In the days after SWIM was still experiencing the panic attacks, the throat sensation being the main symptom to an extent each day but getting less and less with each day.
Which brings SWIM up to yesterday, the throat and panic sensation almost being nonexistent, being 2 weeks on Sunday since SWIM last had methylone. Wanting the next experience with methylone is be a positive one SWIM knows he has to lay off this RC for as long as possible, possibly more than 2-3 weeks like he has planned now. Anyway just yesterday SWIM decided to try some ex-ses platinum he had, mixed in a joint with some shamantrance, possibly about 200-250mg of ex-ses. Within 5 mins, still smoking the joint the effect of the ex-ses took over almost suddenly, but at the shame time the usual chilled out sensation he would expect to experience on a weed like effect product was not there, at times he thought the music playing sounded better but suddenly became overcome with bad feelings, the music becoming more distant and had to be turned down and eventually off. Present to some degree was the unable to swallow, SWIM did not feel right and felt like he was drifting off, very very displaced to his surroundings and for a brief while near the start of it's effect the sudden urge to walk, and it was raining pretty harshly outside, this did not deter SWIM. He fought this notion and inside the next 10 mins saw how stupid it would have been to have left the house, instantly wondering why he thought that was ever even a good idea. In the next two hours the effect became less and less and eventually SWIM was back to as he was before smoking the ex-ses.
It seems to SWIM that anytime he experiences an altered state of mind on these drugs, apart from alcohol, he immediately experiences this panicked feeling accompanied by the fear of not being able to swallow. These panic attacks are almost non existent in normal sober life right now, and until SWIM smoked the ex-ses last night believe he was getting on the other side of this effect, believing it just to be the effect of the methylone still in his system, reading about how a panic attack on such a substance can leave its negative effects such as this for up to a week or so following the last time the substance was taken.
SWIM still cannot not piece together why this effect is taking place, especially now as SWIM is getting back on track with his life and will soon be back in his daily cycle of life, and currently on his usual healthy schedule of meals. Could it be the mental anguish that initially manifested itself when the dropped the combo has been brought to the surface, or is it something else that SWIM has sub-consciously unlocked though methylone.
SWIM would really love when he next tries methylone for it to be another positive magic experience but after experiencing familiar feelings last night on the ex-ses with panic that the panic attacks will take over when he next drops methylone and it will be a repeat of the last weeks. Can anyone offer any insight on where this may be, is it simply the methylone and various other substances have yet to fully leave his body and to a certain extent are influencing these panic attacks, which have related themselves to a particular shift in altered perception so when SWIM moves into this perception, from smoking for example this sensation manifests itself again in a feeling of panic and at this stage brief throat effects, the feeling he cannot swallow. Any insight you guys can give for process SWIM can perhaps try out, breathing exercises for example or any similar experiences SWIMMERS may have than relate to this situation. SWIM really wants to try methylone again, but not until he knows he will not drop into the same panicked state of mind and physical negativity. Any insight or comments you guys can make would be more than helpful. SWIM knows this is a lot of read and thank for for your time in reading this.
Apart from the previous negative issues (which SWIM almost certainly knows is down to place, setting and situation when taking the combo that time) SWIM is glad he discovered methylone as it has most certainly helped him to realize many things I was closed off to, opened his mind up in a good way, helped me re-connect with people and see things from their side, made him see the big picture, getting his priorities in order and overall made him a better person than before SWIM encountered it!
Thanks for reading!
In the past SWIM's experience includes weed, Ketamine, Coke and more recently methylone, mephedrone and various party pills.
SWIM knows this is a long post, but please bear with SWIM, he would love to hear from you guys on perhaps things you pick up or can relate with her to the experience and what may have contributed to that!
SWIM tried methylone for the first time about 2 months ago after having heard a lot of positive information about it and recently journeying into this world of RC's deciding this would be a good place to start, having heard the wealth of positive experiences and the relation to X but not in the same level of intensity.
The very first time SWIM dappled with finger tipped amounts of mephedrone, a friend was big into the substance but SWIM was more akin to his first RC experience being with methylone as at the time SWIM did not have any scales to correct measure a dose he decided at that time not to take much more than small sizes of this RC, finger sized dabs taken orally. The experience was virtually non existent, perhaps a faster heart rate but not much more. Forward to the the first proper time with methylone, SWIM took 150mg orally, dissolved with water, of methylone. Did not experience any euphoria, generally the only effect at this time was how more visually beautiful the world looked, the lack of effect could possibly be down to the meal eaten almost an hour beforehand. No music was playing so cannot comment on music appreciation. It is useful to note on each of the following occasions unless otherwise states SWIM had an experienced SWIMMER with him, used to the world of many different substances, and able to guide him should the experience go that way, generally trying the RC'S as the magic left this SWIMMER with mdma a long time ago, hearing these substances can bring back the initial mdma magic for those with tolerance to md, he was almost intrigued to try these RC'S.
Forward to a couple of days later when SWIM tried a first proper dose on an empty stomach, 200mg taken orally dissolved in water, the last meal being at around 1.30pm that day, the time then being around 7.00pm.
After about 10 mins SWIM started to feel the effects, the all talked about euphoria taking effect almost suddenly and at the same time almost complete losing of the world around SWIM enveloped in bliss, the checking of any baggage at the door, the magic people talk about. It kept getting better and better, no thoughts could intervene, everything was perfect, music was beyond words, with each new song played a rush of euphoria was present, going up level after level of contentedness and euphoria and bliss. Accompanying this the higher perception of almost all senses. SWIM had to walk around the house, could not sit still, anything else felt like wasting this experience. SWIM's pet monkey at time had to tell SWIM to calm down as SWIM was in such a state of euphoria and beyond excited at this experience. There was no comedown, after about 2 hours as SWIM was simply left back at baseline he suddenly began feeling a feeling of not wanting to do anything, SWIM and his pet monkey where to go to a club and the taxi had to be called, SWIM felt at this point not knowing if he wanted to go, dysphoria almost, while feeling very disappointed the high had gone. SWIM took a 50mg of methylone bombed and went to a club with a friend. The effects of the bomb did not hit and during the time at the club, where SWIM would normally be full of energy in such a situation he felt almost like a fly on the wall, paranoid and a feeling of wanting to get out of there, he was relieved when they left to go home. That night, while lying in bed, about 4am the effects of the 50mg seem to come on, everything became almost beautiful, there was euphoria but SWIM did not feel the need to get up and enjoy the experience, he lay in bed enjoying it instead until it dissipated a little while later. SWIM slept well following this and was in a positive mood the next day and following through the week.
In the next couple of days SWIM wanted to try the experience again, taking 250mg this time in the same way. This experience was even better than the first. Another positive trip, feeling first effects after 5-10 mins, to full blown euphoria, lots of thought searching achieved and good feelings, working out how to connect with people he has wronged in the past. This trip also had no bad comedown and no after effects, the trip simply dissipated after a couple of hours, SWIM slept well that night. SWIM did not redose this time either.
At this stage if it worth noting that through the self discovery methylone is known for SWIM had worked out a lot of life issues, almost now seeing the bigger picture and becoming more in line with being his own person compared to the last year and how closed minded he had become, in the process losing a lot of great friends and previous girlfriends due to his thinking. So to speak SWIM's mind felt like it had been "opened up".
It is worthy of note in the following week SWIM went for an interview that would decide if his current job could be kept. This interview went bad and through the feelings of worrying about not getting the job that followed SWIM wished, and knows now this was not the right thing to do and could have led to some of the following bad experiences, he could escape once again to the methylone plane where he could check baggage at the door. He promised himself this would be a one time only thing and proceeded to take 200mg orally dissolved in water. Same effect as previous times, feeling effects after 5-10 mins. At this time he was talking to an old friend he had placed a lot of strain of in the past, via msn, feeling the effects of the methylone he felt he had to call this person, hear their voice in person. He did this and through the course of his trip he talked to this person, re-connected with them, talked over the difficult times and why he was in that frame of mood at that time, talked through his train of thought currently, leaving the friend very pleased about SWIM's new turn in direction and open minded perception to life at this point. Following 1 and a half hours of the trip and as effects began to dissipate, wanting to remain in such high euphoria, SWIM took a 50 mg re-dose, this seemingly doing very little for him, extended perhaps the speedy stimulant side but once again trailing of and leaving him back to basecamp comfortably with no side effects, he again slept well that night and there were no discernible side effects that following week.
SWIM then decided he had to introduce his friend to methylone. It is interesting to note this friend was the same person SWIM re-connected with following the previous time he took methylone. This person going through a difficult time also wanting some release, SWIM at the time thought this would be the perfect way for this person to achieve that, if even for the brief couple of hours methylone lasts. On the Sunday night of the week following the last time SWIM took methylone he took 250 mg, orally with water, while his friend took 150 orally with water. Both SWIM and his friend had stupidly eaten a large meal not more than one hour beforehand this time so would explain why the effects did not take hold. Another explanation SWIM has been thinking over and would go a ways to explaining this lack of effect when taking into consideration all the factors of surrounding and situation when taking methylone and your state of mind could be SWIM's friend brought a friend with him, someone he met on the way up to SWIMS house. This person was painfully shy and although not anti drug was never exposed to this world of substances. This person sat in SWIM's house for the duration, not saying a word, very difficult to get conversation out of, in an almost depressive state looking at the ground for the duration of his stay, almost not wanting to be there. SWIM's pet monkey even remarked at a point about how cold this person was and he was not even in the same room for the majority of his stay but still picked up on this when he did venture into the other room. This person had also taken 250gm of methylone. SWIM feels this person was a bad negative energy in the room and could have effected the normal wiliness to let go when methylone takes hold. After about 1 and half hours, when neither were feeling anything SWIM decided to take another 50mg and SWIMS friend another 100mg. After about 1 hour of no effects, apart from slightly more perception, visually and to the music playing it steps up a level for SWIM, not to the degree of previous times but defiantly having some effect. SWIMS friend, a little disappointed at the non effect of the methylone decided to take off a little while later, generally only feeling a little of the empathetic effect and how the weeks problems drifted away, before returning to normal. Again though SWIM puts this down to the big meal eaten and also SWIMS negative friend being in the same room, most obviously SWIM's friend, who was close to this person and knowing his viewpoint on substances was at least sub consciously thinking what his friend must be thinking at this time. Just as his friend was leaving suddenly lights got brighter for SWIM and he began to feel the effects, as with the previous times it was pure euphoria and bliss. Again once he was back at basecamp he felt more lasting side effects apart from the usual ones, gurning etc. SWIM slept well that night.
In the next week SWIM wanted to try methylone again, hearing about piracetam and how methylone trips were made more intense SWIM wanted to add this to the mix. He took an attack dose of about 3600mg of piracetam following by 250mg of methylone. About 45 mins or so after taking this the only discernible effects were cold rushes throughout the body, replacing the usual warm euphoric rushes SWIM believed. After around 1 and a half hours of these low effects SWIM decided to take another 100mg. Again the only effects, apart from the usual heightened perception were these constant cold rushes, SWIM no longer felt the need to open up and share and talk constantly as he normally did on methylone. SWIM then stupidly did another 50mg of methylone, in the hope he could get some short of high, obviously this was dumb and a waste, but in his frame of mind at that time the right thing to do. After about a hour there was a definite comedown, suddenly SWIM was overcome by negative stimulation, his whole body stimulated, nausea, his vision went double when he had to stand to go vomit (very mildly) his balance was off, he nearly fell over a couple of times on the way to the bathroom. This negative stimatulation continued for a while, he got about 2 hours of sleep and the next day felt pretty terrible, his double vision still there, he felt in this mood for most of the day. After getting some food that evening he felt better. This was the first time SWIM encountered a bad comedown on methylone.
It was in the week following this SWIM knew he was going to lose his job, in the week following up to this SWIM was in a very displacement mood, going into work each day and fighting for his chance to stay, but at times he felt in a dream like phase, pissed off and at the same time emotional to be leaving a place of people he really enjoyed working with. Workmates mentioned to him on several occasions how bad he looked, even higher up employees who he didn't see on a regular basis noticed this, obviously this is worrying. In this week leading up to losing his job SWIM took a lot of party pills, obviously this was a terrible idea and SWIM knows this but to escape the obvious problems and feeling terrible of losing his job and perhaps being kicked out of his currently rented house he needed to escape. Taking one pill or so each night, heading out with friends to clubs etc, but not drinking a lot, more so letting the pills do there thing. Obviously the effect wasn't good by any means. Some of the pills included Phat freddy tripstas, trance, elevate. It is also worth noting that SWIM did not eat his usual diet this week, stupidly preferring to eat a minimum as the pills worked better on an empty stomach. This was absolute stupidity SWIM knows.
On the Friday of this week SWIM took an elevate party pill (stupidly believing this would preload serotonin) and dropped another Phat freddy tripsta, after about an hour of feeling no effect he decided to take 200 mg of mephedrone dissolved in water, followed by 50mg after an hour and a half. Again the only effect was the cold rushes throughout his body, prompting him to even put on another jacket. After about 2 hours of where the trip would have been he was again overcome by the negative stimulation. He went to bed but wasn't feeling overly bad the following day. It was from here were things went very bad. It is perhaps worthy of mention that a lot of what following may have manifested itself through realization of changes so quickly since his introspective time with methylone. SWIM mind had been opened up, from a year of being closed off his was now seeing the big picture, getting his life in order, perhaps this was a large shock to the system so to speak in such a short space of time for so many things to be realized. This state of mind at the same
It was on the following night that SWIM decided to try a combo of mephedrone and methylone, having heard many good things about it. Again he had eaten very little that day so had an empty stomach when taking this combo. Bombing 200mg of each substance SWIM listened to music as he normally did. Again the only effects seem to be the heightened perception, music sounded good and in SWIM's face. The euphoria was again missing, cold rushes again came on as before. After about 1 hour SWIM began to feel traces of euphoria accompanying the cold rushes and it was almost like SWIM tried to force this euphoria on. After about 2 hours, SWIM feeling in a good mood, sitting listening enjoying the music when suddenly he began to feel like this throat was being attacked. SWIM did the worst possibly thing you could do and in that split second of feeling this told himself he was going to die, which obviously made things much worse. Immediately SWIM was walking crazy around the house, all the lights on, repeatedly feeling this sensation of his throat being attacked, like he was unable to swallow and washed over with bad feeling and a sinking feeling at times, thinking that was it for SWIM. Without thinking SWIM took off out the door and felt he had to walk, get into the air, so he took off not knowing a destination, all the while feeling this terrible throat sensation at select times. After about half a mile SWIM decided to head toward the hospital and for the next 2 hours or so did laps in front of the hospital, every time the sensation getting worse he would approach the hospital, obviously not wanting to go in and in term give a bad press to this RC'S such as SWIM's frame of mind was at that time. SWIM eventually returned home, still feeling this throat sensation at times, sometimes worst than other times but definitely still there. Thinking at that time it could be down to hydration SWIM proceeded to a lot of water over the next little while, not overdoing however, knowing the effects of too much water while effected by a substance such as methylone etc. For the next couple of days SWIM felt this sensation, almost always accompanied by the feeling of worry as realized he may not be able to swallow. This led SWIM to swallow almost constantly, somehow afraid if he didn't he would forget how to and choke. Obviously this sounds very stupid now but at the time this was SWIM's displaced frame of mind.
Over the next little while SWIM still felt this sensation at select times, and almost each time worried he was on the way out, very stupid thinking and did nothing but exasperate the feeling. A couple of days later, still having no idea why this was happening SWIM was heading out with some friends, and not wanting to take any methylone at this time due to the obvious circumstances but still wanting to have a good time SWIM decided to take a trance party pill. He did this and when the pill hit him he felt somehow like he knew why this throat sensation was occurring and maybe he could control it. It was less pronounced in the coming days but defiantly still there, more so when SWIM thought about it when actively eating, worrying he could not swallow etc, obviously doing himself no favors.
For a large part of the week following SWIM was not in a good mood, having lost his job, he at times fought with his roomate, being in a very bad mood, not wanting to talk to anyone, feeling depressed and not himself. This is very out of the ordinary as by natural SWIM had always been a generally happy person.
A day following this SWIM got offered another contract with his work, finally he was returning back to work, but not until the middle of the following month, but things seemed to be getting back on the level. Still SWIM's mood was noticeably affected and he was in bad moods and not feeling like talking to people. On the Sat of this same week and feeling terrible and not wanting to talk to his roomate but feeling he really had to, to set the record straight, SWIM very stupidly felt the best way to do this was on methylone, given the sharing qualities it had offered him in the past, and the ability to say things he normally could not while sober. This was the most stupid idea SWIM knows and most defiantly could have been a large factor in how much worse the situation got. Around this time SWIM was still experiencing the throat sensation, albeit not as bad but it was still there.
SWIM took 250 mg orally with water and his roomate 200mg orally with water. Both had empty stomachs. As usual the music went on and SWIM's roomate went to play some drums in another room while he was coming up. SWIM's mood at this time was shaky and as situation and state of mind affect a trip in such a way very stupid to be taking methylone at this time. The effects began to take hold after about 5 mins, SWIM's heart began beating faster and where normally SWIM would let the effect take him he was actively fighting it off, the throat sensation coming on bad, until he had himself into a state, obviously the methylone exaggerating this tenfold. SWIM had to go find his pet monkey as as had to talk to someone and immediately they decided to go for a walk like before. SWIM was experiencing what he then worked out to be panic attacks. Over the course of the next while SWIM experienced this to a severe level, walking around for hours, thinking if they returned home he would be worse in the house. Over this course of time he and his pet monkey talked about a lot of issues, things he could not have when SWIM was sober, explaining his mood the previous days and how it no doubt effected his pet monkey. This intense introspection was all among the panic attack and throat sensation, at times SWIM could not talk in complete sentences such was the condition. Finally SWIM returned home, calmed down a little, but still feeling the throat sensation at selective times. It was after this that the negative stimulation took over SWIM, almost becoming too much to handle and he had to talk around the house to cool it off, inside was almost too much. SWIM went to bed a little while later, still experiencing the throat sensation and light panic attacks at times. The next day he had the typical methylone side effects.
SWIM now knows that the sensation which manifested itself the first time after the combo was a panic attack, however has no idea where it came from as SWIM's mood at the time was enjoying the music one minute then suddenly hit with that sensation of his throat being attacked. The best conclusion SWIM can come up with is the introspective soul searching and changes methylone helped SWIM to realize transcending on to a deeper level of consciousness bringing to the surface the negative aspects, manifesting them as panic attacks. Obviously the mental strain SWIM placed on himself in the lead up to losing his job was very bad and at the same time using the substances and party pills to compensate for this. SWIM can't stress how much methylone had helped him to grasp major change in his life, finally seeing the big picture over the course of a month. SWIM's friend believes this is one of the defining factors in this manifestation of panic attacks, the realization of such a huge life defining difference in such a short amount of time. Another factor could be how SWIM is not totally comfortable with his situations right now, being out of work and his days and lack of money meaning less social time is possible and more time in the house etc, whereas when he returns to work he will regain his daily cycle.
Anyway SWIM now decided after this terrible night he needed to get his priorities in order and lay off the methylone for a while, getting back into a good flow with his job and back into a healthy cycle of meals etc, daily life before his went into a binge so to speak with methylone and party pills etc. During this time generally the panic attacks where worst at night, and if is almost as if the only thing being the problem is when SWIM feels he cannot swallow he panics a little, but generally knows if that was absent he could enjoy the effects of RC's once again. Just the other night there SWIM decided to try some Shamantrance in the hope it would relax him, it however made his panic attack and throat sensation come on more than usual. In the days after SWIM was still experiencing the panic attacks, the throat sensation being the main symptom to an extent each day but getting less and less with each day.
Which brings SWIM up to yesterday, the throat and panic sensation almost being nonexistent, being 2 weeks on Sunday since SWIM last had methylone. Wanting the next experience with methylone is be a positive one SWIM knows he has to lay off this RC for as long as possible, possibly more than 2-3 weeks like he has planned now. Anyway just yesterday SWIM decided to try some ex-ses platinum he had, mixed in a joint with some shamantrance, possibly about 200-250mg of ex-ses. Within 5 mins, still smoking the joint the effect of the ex-ses took over almost suddenly, but at the shame time the usual chilled out sensation he would expect to experience on a weed like effect product was not there, at times he thought the music playing sounded better but suddenly became overcome with bad feelings, the music becoming more distant and had to be turned down and eventually off. Present to some degree was the unable to swallow, SWIM did not feel right and felt like he was drifting off, very very displaced to his surroundings and for a brief while near the start of it's effect the sudden urge to walk, and it was raining pretty harshly outside, this did not deter SWIM. He fought this notion and inside the next 10 mins saw how stupid it would have been to have left the house, instantly wondering why he thought that was ever even a good idea. In the next two hours the effect became less and less and eventually SWIM was back to as he was before smoking the ex-ses.
It seems to SWIM that anytime he experiences an altered state of mind on these drugs, apart from alcohol, he immediately experiences this panicked feeling accompanied by the fear of not being able to swallow. These panic attacks are almost non existent in normal sober life right now, and until SWIM smoked the ex-ses last night believe he was getting on the other side of this effect, believing it just to be the effect of the methylone still in his system, reading about how a panic attack on such a substance can leave its negative effects such as this for up to a week or so following the last time the substance was taken.
SWIM still cannot not piece together why this effect is taking place, especially now as SWIM is getting back on track with his life and will soon be back in his daily cycle of life, and currently on his usual healthy schedule of meals. Could it be the mental anguish that initially manifested itself when the dropped the combo has been brought to the surface, or is it something else that SWIM has sub-consciously unlocked though methylone.
SWIM would really love when he next tries methylone for it to be another positive magic experience but after experiencing familiar feelings last night on the ex-ses with panic that the panic attacks will take over when he next drops methylone and it will be a repeat of the last weeks. Can anyone offer any insight on where this may be, is it simply the methylone and various other substances have yet to fully leave his body and to a certain extent are influencing these panic attacks, which have related themselves to a particular shift in altered perception so when SWIM moves into this perception, from smoking for example this sensation manifests itself again in a feeling of panic and at this stage brief throat effects, the feeling he cannot swallow. Any insight you guys can give for process SWIM can perhaps try out, breathing exercises for example or any similar experiences SWIMMERS may have than relate to this situation. SWIM really wants to try methylone again, but not until he knows he will not drop into the same panicked state of mind and physical negativity. Any insight or comments you guys can make would be more than helpful. SWIM knows this is a lot of read and thank for for your time in reading this.
Apart from the previous negative issues (which SWIM almost certainly knows is down to place, setting and situation when taking the combo that time) SWIM is glad he discovered methylone as it has most certainly helped him to realize many things I was closed off to, opened his mind up in a good way, helped me re-connect with people and see things from their side, made him see the big picture, getting his priorities in order and overall made him a better person than before SWIM encountered it!
Thanks for reading!
