MessedSeed
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Hi all,
I've decided to post my experience trying HWBR for the first time as there are a lot of negative ones out there and I believe if people read more positive ones before the trip, it will help them control it. Which is what helped me. Despite experimenting with a number of drugs, I have never felt the need to write a trip report until these seeds.
This turned out to be incredibly long, so for a short report, scroll to the bottom.
First, a little bit about myself so you can have a general understanding about my background.
I'm currently 21 and in my last year as an undergraduate studying Neuroscience. I have had a strong interest in the brain and how drugs affect the brain since a young age, before I even took any drugs myself, but have always wanted to self-experiment.
At about the age of 17, I tried weed and have been smoking it ever since. Since then, I have experimented with a variety of drugs. In chronological order;
- 30x Salvia
- 10g of Atlantis truffles (low dose, wasn't very effective)
- MDMA (numerous times, obviously enjoyable every time. Strong visual hallucinations one time after taking 0.5g in the woods, friends also hallucinated so may have been a mix of MDMA & something else)
- LSD (unsure on the dosage, but had 1 tab and brain felt like it was working super fast, strong CEVs, mild OEVs. Would count it as my first strong hallucinogenic experience (discounting salvia as its effects were incredibly strong, but didn't last long))
- Amanita muscarina mushrooms (preparation may not have been good enough and only had mild CEVs)
- Mescaline (My method of extraction from a San Pedro cactus was terrible and ended up vomitting due to having to drink almost 2 litres of the most disgusting slimy liquid in existence, so the effects were very mild)
Now you have a vague background, I'll describe the moments before the trip and the trip itself.
5 days ago, a 15g bag of Psilocybe Hollandia and two packs of 10 HBWR arrived in the mail and me and a friend planned on sharing the bag of truffles at mine that day since the house was free for the week. Long stories short, we ended up eating them later than planned due to having to give one of my dealers a lift to re-stock so we could buy some grade off him. This, on top of having to look after my not-so-well behaved 50kg dog made me slightly stressed, but I figured I can ignore it. Sadly, 5 minutes after eating my half of the bag, my body instantly rejected the truffles and I puked them all up. This was probably down to me not eating ALL day and having a completely empty stomach (kind of over-did the 'take hallucinogenics on an empty stomach' rule).
Within half an hour, my friend was laughing hysterically and was constantly describing everything he felt, which generally seemed to annoy me quite a bit. After telling my friend to calm down a bit and potentially ruining his trip (I apologised when I tripped on the seeds, but I'll come to that later), I ate 3 seeds. I've read some bad trip reports with people taking 3 seeds, plus didn't know how much psilocybin was actually left inside me so decided to play it safe. We then went to my room to watch the film Six String Samurai. During this time I felt odd, but nothing really that incredible, no visuals or confusion, just a bit more in my own thoughts. My friend seemed a bit down, and I felt it was my fault so wasn't in the greatest of moods either. But we smoked some joints and were generally not too bad.
Eventually, after around 2 or 3 hours of me eating the seeds, everybody left and I was left on my own to clear up the house. It was around 12am and I felt pretty lonely and depressed about how I don't talk to people enough and might treat them badly. At one point I even almost cried, so decided to go to sleep and watch a film in bed. Ended up just thinking about my life until falling asleep. Generally, a disappointing trip, but enjoyed the enhanced introspectiveness that allowed me to think about myself a bit more. Before falling asleep I decided that tomorrow I need to lead a productive day, visit my younger brother and mum at our mum's house and was considering trying the seeds again the next night but wasn't sure.
The next day I awoke in a good mood, tidied the house a bit more, had a spliff, read a few more HWBR reports then took the dog for a walk. After returning from the walk, I had another spliff and went to my mum's house. We had some dinner and I played on my brother's new Oculus Rift for several hours before going home at around 10:30. As I got home, I immediately decided to take 2 seeds. I chewed them up for around 5 minutes before swallowing then went to play Dirt 3. Played for around half an hour before deciding I may as well take another 2 since I may have developed tolerance from the night before but didn't want to dive straight in too much, so 4 seemed like a good number. Took them the same way as before and continued playing Dirt3. By around 00:00, I decided I may as well eat the remaining 3 seeds left in the pack, as I wasn't experiencing as much of the nausea or 'drunken-ness' as some people get within an hour of taking them. Scoffed down 3 seeds and decided I should probably write my trip down incase something does eventually happen. I'll paste what I ended up writing while tripping, then describe it in more detail now that I'm sober.
[T +0:42] 00:42: So yeah, about half an hour after taking the last 3, I started feeling slightly drowsy and my stomach felt slightly odd. Tried to load myself a bong, but felt a bit sick thinking about it so left it for a bit and chose to lie in bed and Watch The Millers.
[T +2:30] 02:30: I was really enjoying the whole film and it seemed really high definition. There was a scene where Jennifer Aniston strips for some drug dealers and I felt incredibly aroused and decided to masturbate to some porn (sorry for the details haha). This was the first moment I noticed some effects. At first I was incredibly horny, but after loading a porn video, I started to realise just how fucking weird the concept of porn is. Watching other people having fake sex could not have been any less arousing at that point, so I decided to stop and actually document my trip.
[T +2:48] 02:48: I got up off the bed and started writing stuff down. This is when it got intense. My brain started working incredibly fast, constantly changing my mind about what I was gonna write, and my typing could not keep up with my thought AT ALL. My stomach felt worse and it felt like there was a darkness surrounding me. Vision became very much pie-shaped, with blurred peripheral vision and things began to look a bit weird and confusing. I started to panic a bit thinking this may have been a bit too much, but calmed myself down by rolling a cigarette. When I tried smoking it though, I felt sick and realised my body was rejecting the tobacco cause it was so unhealthy and that a spliff would be a better bet. Rolling the spliff took a while because I kept getting lost in my own thought and trying to keep away the nausea. I rolled the spliff, but could only take 1 toke before zoning out or deciding to have the cigarette instead. I ended up walking back and forth from the window several times, switching between spliff and cigarette. In the end I decided to go downstairs and make a coffee, but had to make sure to take my spliff with me as it seemed to be what was keeping my trip in control.
At this point, time was impossible to keep track of so I can only really use time points I wrote down when actually tripping as I checked the time on my computer. Also, it was incredibly confusing and hard to pinpoint what I was actually feeling
When I got downstairs, I sat down and went between so many different activities within what seemed like both a long and short timescale. I watched some stand up comedy on TV, but wasn't really taking much in. At some point I managed to make a coffee, and sat with a spliff in one hand, writing down ways to help myself and sort out problems in life. Writing down thoughts seemed to slow my thinking down slightly and enable me to channel my thoughts more positively and keep the trip good. After what seemed like ages, it turned out I had only written about 10 short sentences, each one completely separate from the others as my thoughts were very jumbled. Since the notes I wrote down at that point were pretty personal, I decided to write a more general trip report on my phone, but this didn't go that well and ended up with this:
By that time, my nausea and stomach pain had passed and I felt amazing, able to enjoy my trip. Tried eating a banana, but it took me almost half an hour to eat half. At one point I had a cuddle with my dog and I truly felt the connection of two life forms. In fact throughout the whole trip, since the onset of nausea, lieing and cuddling with my dog helped me significantly with avoiding a bad trip.
[T +04:06] 04:06: After apparently spending an hour downstairs (seemed like forever), I decided to get up off the sofa and head upstairs. This change of scenery must have made me think I was coming down, but as soon as I started writing my feeling down, the effects increased and became intense again (possibly because I took the seeds at different times within an hour). This time everything was more visual. Stuff on youtube went incredibly far into the screen and was in such high definition I felt like I was there. Looking at patterns and psychedelic pictures was amazing.
I have no idea what I did for the next 2 hours, I remember playing guitar at some point and looking at videos on youtube.
[T +06:09] 06:09: I was starting to feel slightly tired now and decided to lie in bed and watch a documentary. It wasn't the one I wrote down, as I changed my mind far too many times. Think in the end it The Most Extreme Animals. But I can't remember, I think I wasn't really watching it. Getting off my bed was now impossible though and I felt like gravity was insanely strong. When I closed my eyes, there was quite chaotic imagery, hard to pinpoint what I saw. A lot of flashes and quick-moving patterns. Looking at my arms in bed was interesting as the one that was further away seemed much larger than the one that was closer. When I closed my eyes, it felt as if this ball of energy was circulating around my head quite quickly.
The next day I didn't have much motivation, but was generally in a happy mood.
Summary / Short Version / General points
- I was alone and felt like I could have easily fallen into a bad trip if I didn't remember that it would be over eventually and marijuana, my phone and my dog helped me GREATLY when I needed to distract myself from dark thoughts.
- Hightened vision, brighter colours, everything looks more defined.
- Everything looks more 3 dimensional and certain things are confusing, such as telling how far open my window was.
- When looking outside had moving shadows in peripheral vision and heard noises in the bushes I didn't like
- My mind felt like it was working at 100x speed, was very useful for figuring out aspects of my life I needed to sort out and how.
- No perception of time
- Drastic changes in mindset
- Hard to talk and write down thoughts and feelings.
- Impossible to hold a thought, very short attention span, but tend to zone out looking at stuff.
- Gravity feels slightly heavier
- Things look like they're melting slightly
- Objects feel nicer, similar to mild MDMA feeling
- Nature became more inviting compared to man-made items. Realised how pointless TV and movies are, when there are so many skills out there to be learnt and activities to be done.
- Realised the vast amount of opportunities there are in the world
- Could really feel connections with living things
- Very introspective, easy to analyse yourself and listen to your body and brain.
Sorry if this post was far too long, it really is hard to describe how intense and amazing my experience was on these seeds. Looking forward to potentially trying a higher dose at some point.
I've decided to post my experience trying HWBR for the first time as there are a lot of negative ones out there and I believe if people read more positive ones before the trip, it will help them control it. Which is what helped me. Despite experimenting with a number of drugs, I have never felt the need to write a trip report until these seeds.
This turned out to be incredibly long, so for a short report, scroll to the bottom.
First, a little bit about myself so you can have a general understanding about my background.
I'm currently 21 and in my last year as an undergraduate studying Neuroscience. I have had a strong interest in the brain and how drugs affect the brain since a young age, before I even took any drugs myself, but have always wanted to self-experiment.
At about the age of 17, I tried weed and have been smoking it ever since. Since then, I have experimented with a variety of drugs. In chronological order;
- 30x Salvia
- 10g of Atlantis truffles (low dose, wasn't very effective)
- MDMA (numerous times, obviously enjoyable every time. Strong visual hallucinations one time after taking 0.5g in the woods, friends also hallucinated so may have been a mix of MDMA & something else)
- LSD (unsure on the dosage, but had 1 tab and brain felt like it was working super fast, strong CEVs, mild OEVs. Would count it as my first strong hallucinogenic experience (discounting salvia as its effects were incredibly strong, but didn't last long))
- Amanita muscarina mushrooms (preparation may not have been good enough and only had mild CEVs)
- Mescaline (My method of extraction from a San Pedro cactus was terrible and ended up vomitting due to having to drink almost 2 litres of the most disgusting slimy liquid in existence, so the effects were very mild)
Now you have a vague background, I'll describe the moments before the trip and the trip itself.
5 days ago, a 15g bag of Psilocybe Hollandia and two packs of 10 HBWR arrived in the mail and me and a friend planned on sharing the bag of truffles at mine that day since the house was free for the week. Long stories short, we ended up eating them later than planned due to having to give one of my dealers a lift to re-stock so we could buy some grade off him. This, on top of having to look after my not-so-well behaved 50kg dog made me slightly stressed, but I figured I can ignore it. Sadly, 5 minutes after eating my half of the bag, my body instantly rejected the truffles and I puked them all up. This was probably down to me not eating ALL day and having a completely empty stomach (kind of over-did the 'take hallucinogenics on an empty stomach' rule).
Within half an hour, my friend was laughing hysterically and was constantly describing everything he felt, which generally seemed to annoy me quite a bit. After telling my friend to calm down a bit and potentially ruining his trip (I apologised when I tripped on the seeds, but I'll come to that later), I ate 3 seeds. I've read some bad trip reports with people taking 3 seeds, plus didn't know how much psilocybin was actually left inside me so decided to play it safe. We then went to my room to watch the film Six String Samurai. During this time I felt odd, but nothing really that incredible, no visuals or confusion, just a bit more in my own thoughts. My friend seemed a bit down, and I felt it was my fault so wasn't in the greatest of moods either. But we smoked some joints and were generally not too bad.
Eventually, after around 2 or 3 hours of me eating the seeds, everybody left and I was left on my own to clear up the house. It was around 12am and I felt pretty lonely and depressed about how I don't talk to people enough and might treat them badly. At one point I even almost cried, so decided to go to sleep and watch a film in bed. Ended up just thinking about my life until falling asleep. Generally, a disappointing trip, but enjoyed the enhanced introspectiveness that allowed me to think about myself a bit more. Before falling asleep I decided that tomorrow I need to lead a productive day, visit my younger brother and mum at our mum's house and was considering trying the seeds again the next night but wasn't sure.
The next day I awoke in a good mood, tidied the house a bit more, had a spliff, read a few more HWBR reports then took the dog for a walk. After returning from the walk, I had another spliff and went to my mum's house. We had some dinner and I played on my brother's new Oculus Rift for several hours before going home at around 10:30. As I got home, I immediately decided to take 2 seeds. I chewed them up for around 5 minutes before swallowing then went to play Dirt 3. Played for around half an hour before deciding I may as well take another 2 since I may have developed tolerance from the night before but didn't want to dive straight in too much, so 4 seemed like a good number. Took them the same way as before and continued playing Dirt3. By around 00:00, I decided I may as well eat the remaining 3 seeds left in the pack, as I wasn't experiencing as much of the nausea or 'drunken-ness' as some people get within an hour of taking them. Scoffed down 3 seeds and decided I should probably write my trip down incase something does eventually happen. I'll paste what I ended up writing while tripping, then describe it in more detail now that I'm sober.
[T +0:42] 00:42: So yeah, about half an hour after taking the last 3, I started feeling slightly drowsy and my stomach felt slightly odd. Tried to load myself a bong, but felt a bit sick thinking about it so left it for a bit and chose to lie in bed and Watch The Millers.
[T +2:30] 02:30: I was really enjoying the whole film and it seemed really high definition. There was a scene where Jennifer Aniston strips for some drug dealers and I felt incredibly aroused and decided to masturbate to some porn (sorry for the details haha). This was the first moment I noticed some effects. At first I was incredibly horny, but after loading a porn video, I started to realise just how fucking weird the concept of porn is. Watching other people having fake sex could not have been any less arousing at that point, so I decided to stop and actually document my trip.
[T +2:48] 02:48: I got up off the bed and started writing stuff down. This is when it got intense. My brain started working incredibly fast, constantly changing my mind about what I was gonna write, and my typing could not keep up with my thought AT ALL. My stomach felt worse and it felt like there was a darkness surrounding me. Vision became very much pie-shaped, with blurred peripheral vision and things began to look a bit weird and confusing. I started to panic a bit thinking this may have been a bit too much, but calmed myself down by rolling a cigarette. When I tried smoking it though, I felt sick and realised my body was rejecting the tobacco cause it was so unhealthy and that a spliff would be a better bet. Rolling the spliff took a while because I kept getting lost in my own thought and trying to keep away the nausea. I rolled the spliff, but could only take 1 toke before zoning out or deciding to have the cigarette instead. I ended up walking back and forth from the window several times, switching between spliff and cigarette. In the end I decided to go downstairs and make a coffee, but had to make sure to take my spliff with me as it seemed to be what was keeping my trip in control.
At this point, time was impossible to keep track of so I can only really use time points I wrote down when actually tripping as I checked the time on my computer. Also, it was incredibly confusing and hard to pinpoint what I was actually feeling
When I got downstairs, I sat down and went between so many different activities within what seemed like both a long and short timescale. I watched some stand up comedy on TV, but wasn't really taking much in. At some point I managed to make a coffee, and sat with a spliff in one hand, writing down ways to help myself and sort out problems in life. Writing down thoughts seemed to slow my thinking down slightly and enable me to channel my thoughts more positively and keep the trip good. After what seemed like ages, it turned out I had only written about 10 short sentences, each one completely separate from the others as my thoughts were very jumbled. Since the notes I wrote down at that point were pretty personal, I decided to write a more general trip report on my phone, but this didn't go that well and ended up with this:
By that time, my nausea and stomach pain had passed and I felt amazing, able to enjoy my trip. Tried eating a banana, but it took me almost half an hour to eat half. At one point I had a cuddle with my dog and I truly felt the connection of two life forms. In fact throughout the whole trip, since the onset of nausea, lieing and cuddling with my dog helped me significantly with avoiding a bad trip.
[T +04:06] 04:06: After apparently spending an hour downstairs (seemed like forever), I decided to get up off the sofa and head upstairs. This change of scenery must have made me think I was coming down, but as soon as I started writing my feeling down, the effects increased and became intense again (possibly because I took the seeds at different times within an hour). This time everything was more visual. Stuff on youtube went incredibly far into the screen and was in such high definition I felt like I was there. Looking at patterns and psychedelic pictures was amazing.
I have no idea what I did for the next 2 hours, I remember playing guitar at some point and looking at videos on youtube.
[T +06:09] 06:09: I was starting to feel slightly tired now and decided to lie in bed and watch a documentary. It wasn't the one I wrote down, as I changed my mind far too many times. Think in the end it The Most Extreme Animals. But I can't remember, I think I wasn't really watching it. Getting off my bed was now impossible though and I felt like gravity was insanely strong. When I closed my eyes, there was quite chaotic imagery, hard to pinpoint what I saw. A lot of flashes and quick-moving patterns. Looking at my arms in bed was interesting as the one that was further away seemed much larger than the one that was closer. When I closed my eyes, it felt as if this ball of energy was circulating around my head quite quickly.
The next day I didn't have much motivation, but was generally in a happy mood.
Summary / Short Version / General points
- I was alone and felt like I could have easily fallen into a bad trip if I didn't remember that it would be over eventually and marijuana, my phone and my dog helped me GREATLY when I needed to distract myself from dark thoughts.
- Hightened vision, brighter colours, everything looks more defined.
- Everything looks more 3 dimensional and certain things are confusing, such as telling how far open my window was.
- When looking outside had moving shadows in peripheral vision and heard noises in the bushes I didn't like
- My mind felt like it was working at 100x speed, was very useful for figuring out aspects of my life I needed to sort out and how.
- No perception of time
- Drastic changes in mindset
- Hard to talk and write down thoughts and feelings.
- Impossible to hold a thought, very short attention span, but tend to zone out looking at stuff.
- Gravity feels slightly heavier
- Things look like they're melting slightly
- Objects feel nicer, similar to mild MDMA feeling
- Nature became more inviting compared to man-made items. Realised how pointless TV and movies are, when there are so many skills out there to be learnt and activities to be done.
- Realised the vast amount of opportunities there are in the world
- Could really feel connections with living things
- Very introspective, easy to analyse yourself and listen to your body and brain.
Sorry if this post was far too long, it really is hard to describe how intense and amazing my experience was on these seeds. Looking forward to potentially trying a higher dose at some point.
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