Harambulus
Greenlighter
I took them quite a bit as a youth from 16 to 20 or so, stimulants weed etc.
Coke thru uni but when i almsot fialed i stopped that and pretty much tapered it all off as i stuck into my course.
I would definately never ever resort to such frequency as those days as most of that was left feeling like **** in random places. *shudders* but the question in my mind is whehter there is any room for drugs in my life or if any use is more toruble/hamr than its worth.
since then i would enjoy some mdma maybe once or twice a year but more and more id feel guilty since ive started my own business and anyhting which takes me off track id feel bad about.
The more of a workaholic ive become is the less i want anyhting which will sully my pristigne intellect. I dont drink either btw and have been t-total besides those little jaunts.
at the same time i get super stressed and would use drugs as a release tho it made me end up feeling worse with the comedown but that was in part cos i wouldnt do anything to hlep me recover like vitamins and 5htp etc cos i thought id punish myself for being naughty. well that method didnt work cos i still have been getting alittle itch to want to take them again.
despite these desires I have forced myself not to take anything for 6 months now and am wondering if i should 'allow' myself anotehr blast.
its not like i go wild on them, as i said it was only a cpl times a year thing but at the same thing i think am i a fialure for not enjoying life without anything and should i just force myself to endure the boredom of abstinence until maybe one day in the future i find out how to enjoy life without drugs.
Thoughts?
Coke thru uni but when i almsot fialed i stopped that and pretty much tapered it all off as i stuck into my course.
I would definately never ever resort to such frequency as those days as most of that was left feeling like **** in random places. *shudders* but the question in my mind is whehter there is any room for drugs in my life or if any use is more toruble/hamr than its worth.
since then i would enjoy some mdma maybe once or twice a year but more and more id feel guilty since ive started my own business and anyhting which takes me off track id feel bad about.
The more of a workaholic ive become is the less i want anyhting which will sully my pristigne intellect. I dont drink either btw and have been t-total besides those little jaunts.
at the same time i get super stressed and would use drugs as a release tho it made me end up feeling worse with the comedown but that was in part cos i wouldnt do anything to hlep me recover like vitamins and 5htp etc cos i thought id punish myself for being naughty. well that method didnt work cos i still have been getting alittle itch to want to take them again.
despite these desires I have forced myself not to take anything for 6 months now and am wondering if i should 'allow' myself anotehr blast.
its not like i go wild on them, as i said it was only a cpl times a year thing but at the same thing i think am i a fialure for not enjoying life without anything and should i just force myself to endure the boredom of abstinence until maybe one day in the future i find out how to enjoy life without drugs.
Thoughts?
