Jersey0485
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Aug 4, 2013
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Well , I decided it was time to come off the drugs. After two years , and the back surgeries I just got seeming to work , I figured come of these pills before it gets dangerous. I was taking around 90 mg a day between Percocet 10/325 and oxycontin 20 mg.
I am at 40 hours cold turkey. No sub , no pills , no nothing. And I am kind of confused. Last night was fucking miserable , sweats , chills, stomach felt like there was a circus going on inside it , back was in horrible agony , legs were going ape shit and sore like crazy.
I medicated myself with the following , safely, Imodium double dose, Tylenol 3x 500 mg , 600 mg ibuprofen , soma , Benadryl x2 , melatonin , gasx. Two multi vitamins ,Bananas , water , French fries.
I slept throughout the night with one wake up to take the dogs out at 430 , then I arose this morning around 1030 , took vitamins Imodium and NyQuil hoping to knock myself back out. But I have an extreme surge of energy , which I think is how I react to everything that is supposed to put you down ... As the opiates used to give me insomnia instead of sleep.
All I am suffering today is chills and cold sweats , stomach aches and a feeling like time is at a stand still and I want to do everything and nothing at the same time.
Am I out of the woods , did it not even start , wtf is going on , why don't I feel like I'm going to die. I a bracing for a lot worse and this seems like something I can get through.
I prayed and asked god to help me with this , but I didn't ask him to make it easy. All I've been saying to myself is the drugs aren't gonna beat me , I'm stronger than that , and without trying to piss people off , thinking of this 20 year old heroin junkie I had met a few days ago , and telling myself I won't be him. When my mind races I pay attention to my breathing and with each breathe I say. You'll win , your better than this , fuck these drugs , I don't need something that will make this happen to me without them , stay strong , beat it,
What the fuck is happening to me .... Don't be afraid to give me bad news ... Is the worst still to come.
I am at 40 hours cold turkey. No sub , no pills , no nothing. And I am kind of confused. Last night was fucking miserable , sweats , chills, stomach felt like there was a circus going on inside it , back was in horrible agony , legs were going ape shit and sore like crazy.
I medicated myself with the following , safely, Imodium double dose, Tylenol 3x 500 mg , 600 mg ibuprofen , soma , Benadryl x2 , melatonin , gasx. Two multi vitamins ,Bananas , water , French fries.
I slept throughout the night with one wake up to take the dogs out at 430 , then I arose this morning around 1030 , took vitamins Imodium and NyQuil hoping to knock myself back out. But I have an extreme surge of energy , which I think is how I react to everything that is supposed to put you down ... As the opiates used to give me insomnia instead of sleep.
All I am suffering today is chills and cold sweats , stomach aches and a feeling like time is at a stand still and I want to do everything and nothing at the same time.
Am I out of the woods , did it not even start , wtf is going on , why don't I feel like I'm going to die. I a bracing for a lot worse and this seems like something I can get through.
I prayed and asked god to help me with this , but I didn't ask him to make it easy. All I've been saying to myself is the drugs aren't gonna beat me , I'm stronger than that , and without trying to piss people off , thinking of this 20 year old heroin junkie I had met a few days ago , and telling myself I won't be him. When my mind races I pay attention to my breathing and with each breathe I say. You'll win , your better than this , fuck these drugs , I don't need something that will make this happen to me without them , stay strong , beat it,
What the fuck is happening to me .... Don't be afraid to give me bad news ... Is the worst still to come.