I am an idiot. After enduring a hellish detox for a week off of oxycontin 350 mg/day for 2 years I was thru the worst of it. But the psychological depression was massive and me being weak/ignorant scored again and have used about 180mg/day for the last six days. So my question is should I just suck it up and endure whatever new withdrawals I have in store for me (God I hope they're not as bad as before) or should I use the 8mg suboxone I have and take 8 small doses over a few days to try and taper? Do you think this will just make matters worse? I could just kick myself for what I've done but the PAWS and depression/anxiety bring such loathing. I can't live my life feeling like that. I just want to be happy again like I was before all of this. Thanks in advance for the advice. Much love.
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In need of advice! Should I just jump or suboxone for a few days?
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well first of all, you are not weak at all if you were able to get through a cold turkey detox for a week off of a heavy 2 year oxy habit. that is pretty damn amazing. I had a 5 month IV oxy and heroin habit, and I don't know how I would have survived withdrawals without subs.
from my experience, the subs help out amazingly with the physical symptoms, but cant erase that mental craving at first. you will take it, feel normal but still crave the euphoria of opiates. but only having mental cravings makes it a lot easier to quit then having both physical and mental cravings. another good quality of suboxene is that it blocks the feeling you get from opiates, so if you do oxy after you take your subs, you wont feel it (or will feel it much less than usual). so that will also help you with quitting. and if you can make it through that first week with only taking suboxene, your mental cravings will start to subside. you wont crave oxys as much as you do now. just remember that eventually, the mental cravings will dwindle and you will get back to the point where you will be happy without opiates. I thought I could never be happy without heroin when I first started detoxing, yet gradually I became happier with plain old life. you can do it.
from my experience, the subs help out amazingly with the physical symptoms, but cant erase that mental craving at first. you will take it, feel normal but still crave the euphoria of opiates. but only having mental cravings makes it a lot easier to quit then having both physical and mental cravings. another good quality of suboxene is that it blocks the feeling you get from opiates, so if you do oxy after you take your subs, you wont feel it (or will feel it much less than usual). so that will also help you with quitting. and if you can make it through that first week with only taking suboxene, your mental cravings will start to subside. you wont crave oxys as much as you do now. just remember that eventually, the mental cravings will dwindle and you will get back to the point where you will be happy without opiates. I thought I could never be happy without heroin when I first started detoxing, yet gradually I became happier with plain old life. you can do it.