digital-psyKosis
Bluelighter
ok a lil history before i type this out....
my name is "trip", which is a nickname i was dubbed by my friends due to my excessive acid use. unfortunately, the excessive use has done some damage to my head...i fear i may be somewhat of a slight skitzoid....even though i haven't dosed in about 3 or 4 months, i still see visuals on occasion, i see visions of people in mirrors or out of the corners of my eyes, i hear voices at night when i try to go to sleep or if i am in a quiet room, things of that nature...and i still catch tracers off damn near anything, i know that acid can cause permanent damage, but i am hoping i have not done such damage and that this is just a phase that will pass....
anyways, this is something i wrote the last time i tripped in january, at the time i had just come home from a club. i am a spiritual person, however i am not religious, i do not believe in any form of organized religion. and as i was frying i decided to put this down on paper to somewhat sum up my feelings on acid and the reason i was a very habitual user, how it made me feel, and how i felt about things around me while i was on acid...
well here it is and i am sorry about the length, but any feedback is appreciated:
"To feel superior, to feel the power of a thousand gods rushing through my inferior mortal body. To feel as if i hold the power of all the universe, yet not able to put any of it into words of human comprehension.
To feel as if i have undisputable physical strength, yet confined to the image of a harmless mortal.
To gain the sights of what most people fear, what is there to fear? why be afraid? it's all the majick and wisdom of the ages, there for us to see and experience.
To alter my personality, to become someone else altogether...i am who i wanna be now. no shyness, no quiet bystander....i am outward and forthcoming now....you will notice me, i will no longer be ignored or left behind.
To love with all my heart, or to hate with all my energy. my emotions are mine and they can and will change by my will....i am sensitive, so tread my grounds carefully. for when agitated, my wrath cometh with strict vengeance. but if you win my heart my love is yours for all time, unless i am decieved.
it is said to be poison to the mind and body on one side, yet the other side claims it to be an uplifting and spiritual experience for the soul. i can find myself, or at least another side of myself, if not a whole new world inside of myself. it's been said there are gateways to other worlds and dimensions, i believe i have found one...
the idiocracy of mankind frustrates me, however. they say you lose touch with reality.....i beg to differ. in this state, reality is all too clear.....i see things for what they really are, my subconsious thoughts become conscious thoughts, my dreams materialize in front of me, as do my nightmares, stimulating my creativity, stimulating my soul.
even as much as i love the feeling and the knowledge i carry in my inferior body and mind, i hate the feeling of trying to explain it...it's unexplainable, yet i want to share it with all. i wish i could insert my thoughts into your mind....so you could experience the rush with me. i wish you could understand it....i wish i could explain it.
oh by the way, my name is Trip, what's yours?"
thanx for reading.......phukkt up i know, but it was just something i thought i would post up to see what kind of reaction you guys would have and what kind of feedback i could get.
plur to all,
trip aka dj digital-psyKosis
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Paranoia is a higher state of consciousness....
www.geocities.com/trip5978/trip5978.html
my name is "trip", which is a nickname i was dubbed by my friends due to my excessive acid use. unfortunately, the excessive use has done some damage to my head...i fear i may be somewhat of a slight skitzoid....even though i haven't dosed in about 3 or 4 months, i still see visuals on occasion, i see visions of people in mirrors or out of the corners of my eyes, i hear voices at night when i try to go to sleep or if i am in a quiet room, things of that nature...and i still catch tracers off damn near anything, i know that acid can cause permanent damage, but i am hoping i have not done such damage and that this is just a phase that will pass....
anyways, this is something i wrote the last time i tripped in january, at the time i had just come home from a club. i am a spiritual person, however i am not religious, i do not believe in any form of organized religion. and as i was frying i decided to put this down on paper to somewhat sum up my feelings on acid and the reason i was a very habitual user, how it made me feel, and how i felt about things around me while i was on acid...
well here it is and i am sorry about the length, but any feedback is appreciated:
"To feel superior, to feel the power of a thousand gods rushing through my inferior mortal body. To feel as if i hold the power of all the universe, yet not able to put any of it into words of human comprehension.
To feel as if i have undisputable physical strength, yet confined to the image of a harmless mortal.
To gain the sights of what most people fear, what is there to fear? why be afraid? it's all the majick and wisdom of the ages, there for us to see and experience.
To alter my personality, to become someone else altogether...i am who i wanna be now. no shyness, no quiet bystander....i am outward and forthcoming now....you will notice me, i will no longer be ignored or left behind.
To love with all my heart, or to hate with all my energy. my emotions are mine and they can and will change by my will....i am sensitive, so tread my grounds carefully. for when agitated, my wrath cometh with strict vengeance. but if you win my heart my love is yours for all time, unless i am decieved.
it is said to be poison to the mind and body on one side, yet the other side claims it to be an uplifting and spiritual experience for the soul. i can find myself, or at least another side of myself, if not a whole new world inside of myself. it's been said there are gateways to other worlds and dimensions, i believe i have found one...
the idiocracy of mankind frustrates me, however. they say you lose touch with reality.....i beg to differ. in this state, reality is all too clear.....i see things for what they really are, my subconsious thoughts become conscious thoughts, my dreams materialize in front of me, as do my nightmares, stimulating my creativity, stimulating my soul.
even as much as i love the feeling and the knowledge i carry in my inferior body and mind, i hate the feeling of trying to explain it...it's unexplainable, yet i want to share it with all. i wish i could insert my thoughts into your mind....so you could experience the rush with me. i wish you could understand it....i wish i could explain it.
oh by the way, my name is Trip, what's yours?"
thanx for reading.......phukkt up i know, but it was just something i thought i would post up to see what kind of reaction you guys would have and what kind of feedback i could get.
plur to all,
trip aka dj digital-psyKosis
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Paranoia is a higher state of consciousness....
www.geocities.com/trip5978/trip5978.html
