Stimlover22
Bluelighter
I've always suffered from debilitating insomnia, my pdoc has had me on ambien to treat it for the past 3 months. Never abused it honestly, didn't feel a need. I did stop ambien on my end though because I took it one night, and ended up blacking out and driving across town and back with no recollection of doing so. That scared me. I still have 2 refills of ambien left but haven't touched it since that episode. I never went back to my doc and asked for an alternative.
Instead, I found out about "Etizolam" and it being a benzo analog. I learned that it was available through the internet and although it's not FDA approved here, it's marketed in a few countries for anxiety and insomnia. I bought a pharmaceutical blister pack of 10 x 1mg pills to try it out and LOVED IT! I loved it almost too much. I enjoyed the buzz that went along with the sedation and all so much that I have ordered and gone through roughly 10 blister packs in the last 1-1.5 months. At first it took about 1.5mg for me to feel its effects, so I roughly dose 2-3mg daily and I usually take them all at once but do sometimes space them out.
I didn't take one yesterday and realized it had been a full 24 hours since I dosed. I started feeling kinda "out of it" at work and a headache followed which was also followed by a pressure in my head and vision that I could only describe as like an impending seizure. I've never had a seizure and don't know how to describe how it felt but my head felt like it was all over the place, like it could have jumped out of my skull. At that point, it dawned on me that I hadn't taken a pill that day and decided to take .5mg to see if it would all go away and 30 minutes later.. all of those symptoms dissipated. I've also developed a twitch below my right eyebrow that comes and goes. It's annoying as hell at times, especially when I am working but I try to ignore it.
All of these feelings leave me to believe that my body is now dependent on etizolam/thienos and my supply is running short and looks like I won't be able to get more when I do run out and at the moment I have only 20mg left. What can I do? This is definitely not something I want to be withdrawing from. Should I just go to my doc, explain everything I just stated here, or taper off somehow with 20mgs? If so, how can I do that? I've never been addicted to benzos before but think I crossed that line, atleast physically.
Instead, I found out about "Etizolam" and it being a benzo analog. I learned that it was available through the internet and although it's not FDA approved here, it's marketed in a few countries for anxiety and insomnia. I bought a pharmaceutical blister pack of 10 x 1mg pills to try it out and LOVED IT! I loved it almost too much. I enjoyed the buzz that went along with the sedation and all so much that I have ordered and gone through roughly 10 blister packs in the last 1-1.5 months. At first it took about 1.5mg for me to feel its effects, so I roughly dose 2-3mg daily and I usually take them all at once but do sometimes space them out.
I didn't take one yesterday and realized it had been a full 24 hours since I dosed. I started feeling kinda "out of it" at work and a headache followed which was also followed by a pressure in my head and vision that I could only describe as like an impending seizure. I've never had a seizure and don't know how to describe how it felt but my head felt like it was all over the place, like it could have jumped out of my skull. At that point, it dawned on me that I hadn't taken a pill that day and decided to take .5mg to see if it would all go away and 30 minutes later.. all of those symptoms dissipated. I've also developed a twitch below my right eyebrow that comes and goes. It's annoying as hell at times, especially when I am working but I try to ignore it.
All of these feelings leave me to believe that my body is now dependent on etizolam/thienos and my supply is running short and looks like I won't be able to get more when I do run out and at the moment I have only 20mg left. What can I do? This is definitely not something I want to be withdrawing from. Should I just go to my doc, explain everything I just stated here, or taper off somehow with 20mgs? If so, how can I do that? I've never been addicted to benzos before but think I crossed that line, atleast physically.
