TDS I slipped

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I slipped. I have two weeks clean from stims, and five days clean from abusing alcohol. Any tips?

I feel alright, I just get these pangs of deep stress and depression. Like the opposite of what cocaine feels like.

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Shit happens and it's nothing to beat yourself up about.

I have almost two months clean from meth but took some Dexedrine the other night and felt the exact same way you feel. Just gotta keep going on. Good luck.
 
When you say 'I slipped' what do you mean ?

I've been free of alcohol for about 3 years now but I've craved it quite a bit of late and stimulants ...well lets just say I keep slipping up but its about a month this time.

Stress and depression are ongoing issues, I'm unsure of how much of a part drugs took in them developing in the first place but I do know that self medicating with booze and amphetamines is a very short term solution albeit one that is so attractive when I'm feeling low.

The truth of it is you're going to feel even worse if you fill up the void with drugs and booze and you'll just increase the speed of the downward spiral. Hang in there and fight the good fight <3
 
Mind, Body, and Spirit brother. Congrats on the clean time, thats a huge thing, be proud. My DOC was Opiates, I've had my slip ups man, trust me, you're not the only one. Read Bills Story in the big book, even he didnt get it the first go around.

I am all about the 12 steps. NA saved me from Opiates and I am grateful for that. As hard as it might be, go to a meeting, check it out, I think you'll find the rooms are full of like minded people who have been where you're at and are willing to help you get clean just like they did. You just have to be willing, open minded, and honest.

Put pin to paper, get out of you're stinking thinking, and write what you are feeling. You'd be suprised how much it helps. I know, I know, it sucks to pick up the pen and paper and sit down and write. But I promise it works.

Also, have you ever heard of H.A.L.T.? An old timer taught me this. H.A.L.T. means stop and ask yourself, are you hungry? are you angry? are you lonely? are you tired? If you answered yes to any of these, what can you do to make it so you're not hungry, angry, lonely, or tired? I often found myself being hungry and lonely and tired. So I would eat- which makes you feel so much better, I know its hard to regain an appitite but you will in a few days. When I was lonely, I'd get my dog, Mary Jane, and we would cuddle up and watch my favorite show together. I'd call someone!! Tired- well why dont you just go lay down, and rest. Your body needs rest at this point, it takes a few days to reset but I think you'll find with support from fellow addicts in recovery and some patience, you'll feel better.

As addicts, we constantly want that instant gratification, when you go into recovery, you tend to want things and want them now. JUST SLOWWWWWWW DOWN! "You didn't become addicted in one day so remember, easy does it."

If ya want to bounce anything off of me, go for it man. I'm all ears, eyes, and fingers. hahah. :)
 
When you say 'I slipped' what do you mean ?

I've been free of alcohol for about 3 years now but I've craved it quite a bit of late and stimulants ...well lets just say I keep slipping up but its about a month this time.

Stress and depression are ongoing issues, I'm unsure of how much of a part drugs took in them developing in the first place but I do know that self medicating with booze and amphetamines is a very short term solution albeit one that is so attractive when I'm feeling low.

The truth of it is you're going to feel even worse if you fill up the void with drugs and booze and you'll just increase the speed of the downward spiral. Hang in there and fight the good fight <3

I will, thanks. I meant I took over a gram of ritalin and was drinking 40oz beers like it was going out of style, despite my past alcohol usage which lead to an addiction. Before that I was straight-edge, just with my meds.

With school I can't afford another slip like this. I need to focus on schoolwork and other recreational activities besides getting high and playing video games and going on facebook.

Resisting Nut, thank you. I might go to a meeting, but they're on wednesdays at night, when I usually curl up.

I should start writing, especially when I get a craving.

It's about two weeks for the main side effects from over-use to go away, but I have schizophrenia so they were a lot worse. Luckily I was stable enough to attribute any delusions/distortions to my mind playing tricks off me.

I've heard of the HALT thing. I'll try to incorporate it. I need to just take things as prescribed. I've slipped twice on stimulants in the past month, and slipped on booze continuously for the past month. My doctor was talking about adding lithium. ALso, I'm getting off Ativan after being on it for about 5-6 months at 1-4mg. I hope I don't experience too much withdrawal. That and the Fall/Winter onset is getting me down. I know I don't have SAD but I was put on Wellbutrin for a while.

One of the problems is that I need someone to love and haven't found that person. I can't go to bars or parties alone either because I'm just too self-conscious and don't know what to do.

I'm young, but not that young. Mid 20's. Few friends. I'm sure I could find some at support groups. I should go.

Thanks for the feedback.<3
 
One of the problems is that I need someone to love and haven't found that person. I can't go to bars or parties alone either because I'm just too self-conscious and don't know what to do.

<3

When I was in my mid-twenties I determined to learn how to be alone and actually enjoy myself--actually have it be enough. It was hard (for at least half the year it was downright uncomfortable) but it changed my life. Loving a person and being loved back is wonderful but I wanted to see if it were possible for me to neither be in a relationship nor wanting one constantly when I wasn't. Changing that one thing from within myself has made a tremendous difference in my life--not only those times when I have been alone but in my ability to have more independent and free relationships with those I do choose to be intimate with.

Change of season is a tricky time for me as far as melancholy and loneliness. I try to see it as a natural connection with nature--one that will go as surely as it came, a cycle.

Support groups may give you a chance to meet new people that you can relate to at a more meaningful level. That always seems to make things even more difficult for me--my own dissatisfaction with superficial socializing.
 
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Yeah a couple people have suggested support groups to me. I assented to posting on here about it.

edit: no abuse this weekend!
 
^Thanks. Exercise has been recommended by my doctor for my continuing depression, which is mild/moderate, maybe a three of ten.

No abuse continuing! I think I'm past the hump. I know what it can do to me. I know it's not worth it.

Had a few beers with the OK of my doctor though.
 
Change of season is a tricky time for me as far as melancholy and loneliness. I try to see it as a natural connection with nature--one that will go as surely as it came, a cycle.

I just wanted to say thank you for saying this... I struggle with the season change too but for some reason I never looked at it that way. :)
 
I just have to say I want to slip so bad (opiates) but I am on Subutex and I am not able too. I want to feel that opiate feel again so bad. It continues to ama ze me how powerful depression is. It might as well be cancer or something else as debilitating. I really feel like it will kill me one day, just not how sure. I am so inept at connecting with people, but anyone and everyone who feels the depths of depression my heart goes out too. I understand how difficult it is too live under such a burden, and one that most people don't under. I wish I had the strength to end it, but I just don't.
 
realize that what you were doing to stay clean may not have been working and that u need to find out how to stay sober. im new to recovery and its hard but i damn sure know deep down that i was miserable as fuck and wanted to die when i was using this last go around. i have 3 months sober and its hard as fuck. but have come to realize that drugs hold me back in life and cause me to many problems. i miss drugs i wont lie about that, but it does feel good when your having a good day and realize that life seems beatiful sober and real. still trying to get ahold of my feelings as ive numbed them for so long. but im not using today and thats all that matters
 
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