Mind, Body, and Spirit brother. Congrats on the clean time, thats a huge thing, be proud. My DOC was Opiates, I've had my slip ups man, trust me, you're not the only one. Read Bills Story in the big book, even he didnt get it the first go around.
I am all about the 12 steps. NA saved me from Opiates and I am grateful for that. As hard as it might be, go to a meeting, check it out, I think you'll find the rooms are full of like minded people who have been where you're at and are willing to help you get clean just like they did. You just have to be willing, open minded, and honest.
Put pin to paper, get out of you're stinking thinking, and write what you are feeling. You'd be suprised how much it helps. I know, I know, it sucks to pick up the pen and paper and sit down and write. But I promise it works.
Also, have you ever heard of H.A.L.T.? An old timer taught me this. H.A.L.T. means stop and ask yourself, are you hungry? are you angry? are you lonely? are you tired? If you answered yes to any of these, what can you do to make it so you're not hungry, angry, lonely, or tired? I often found myself being hungry and lonely and tired. So I would eat- which makes you feel so much better, I know its hard to regain an appitite but you will in a few days. When I was lonely, I'd get my dog, Mary Jane, and we would cuddle up and watch my favorite show together. I'd call someone!! Tired- well why dont you just go lay down, and rest. Your body needs rest at this point, it takes a few days to reset but I think you'll find with support from fellow addicts in recovery and some patience, you'll feel better.
As addicts, we constantly want that instant gratification, when you go into recovery, you tend to want things and want them now. JUST SLOWWWWWWW DOWN! "You didn't become addicted in one day so remember, easy does it."
If ya want to bounce anything off of me, go for it man. I'm all ears, eyes, and fingers. hahah.
