@Coffeeshroom, what you're describing is something that happens to almost everyone who has eaten lots of mushrooms. Especially when you get used to certain settings, large dosages, and a particular strain or type of mushroom. It becomes an automatic activity, you take your huge dose of mushrooms, have a good time, and a few days later do the same thing. On and on and you stop learning as much from your trips, you take the lessons for granted, and your growth kind of stagnates.
Then something changes. You do a different species or strain in the wrong amount. Your body doesn't like it and rebels. The people around you change from the normal friendly ones you're used to. Suddenly you're around wingnuts or jackasses. You have to deal with a complicated issue that causes your brain to relate it to past trauma or regrets. Or you get lost in the woods or in town. The next time you take mushrooms you can get stuck back in the panic of your last trip.
I've seen sad cases of this, where good people that love to trip decide they can't take mushrooms anymore. Or even other psychedelics. To me it's a great waste because
a. Laughter is the greatest medicine
b. mushrooms make you laugh more than anything
c. Therefore mushrooms are the greatest mushrooms
I believe mushrooms are an amazing medicine and I'd be a much more unhappy person without them. I've saved myself from getting caught in a 'shroom rut' although I've taken breaks of several years. When I was young if I felt something bad coming on I'd grab a sleeping bag, get in a closet, put the sleeping bag over my head and meditate. Something extraordinary would always happen. One time in particular when I had a terrible feeling like the mushrooms had 'poisoned' me, inside the sleeping bag I was suddenly in Brahmaloka.
I guess hyperspace is the modern term for what I considered Brahmaloka. In Hinduism 'Lokas' are worlds populated by different races of beings. Not going to waste time discussing Hindu mythology but these worlds are where angels and devils and leprachauns and elves and dwarves and humans anthropomorphic animals and enlightened ones live.
I hit the jackpot with Brahamaloka, I suppose I could have gone to hell loka or animal loka or demon loka or some other horrible place. Instead of wasting more time he's a link to wiki's blurb on Brahamaloka if someone is interested.
en.wikipedia.org
I figured out it was Brahamaloka because there was a man standing there. I could tell it was Brahama, the Hindu creator God. He is not worshiped much, there's snakes that have more temples than Brahma. He's only allowed one temple because he pissed off Shiva, a long story. I knew it was him because he had a beard and a crown and looked like drawings of him. Except he had an infinite number of arms, legs, feet, eyes, heads, etc. He was a fractal man. Of course I don't have the faculties to see them all at once but I could see who he was with my 3rd eye. I immediately thought of De Vinci's Vitruvian man and had a great epiphany.
We're all like the fractal man, the Vitruvian man, we may appear to be in a constant state of motion because of time but in a sense this is illusion. The other illusion is that we are all different people. We are all Brahama. I realized that was the vision the Hindus were trying to represent when they represented their powerful beings with multiple hands and legs. It's because they represent a multitude of life across a multitude of worlds. Brahma had two attendents with him, as gods are often portrayed in Hindu art.
As soon as I saw Brahama's garden I felt an immense sense of joy, wonder, and euphoria. I was out of the sleeping bag and spent the rest of the night talking to my friends, walking around the neighborhood, and having the discussions and adventures you have when you have a good time on psychedelics. Standing in the front yard laughing our asses off at the neighbors sleepily walking out to their cars to go to work.
Well, that's an off-topic tidbit, didn't mean to go so far (feel free to move it to trip reports if it's a disruption) but I think my point was any bad trip can be salvaged by a trip to another dimension. One thing that was huge was that I got turned onto the PNW mushrooms. Liberty caps, blue ringers, wavy caps, and azurescens. Wavy caps changed everything. I learned I could trust them, that they were my ally. They are very bitter fresh but they don't make me nauseous.
I didn't learn azurescens until about 10 years ago. I'd eaten them and seen them but I didn't know them. They may be the greatest psychedelic ever, they're certainly in my half dozen. Especially fresh. They're great dried but fresh they're even smoother. Smooth and clean with no body load whatsoever. There's some mix of tryptamines in them that hits just right.
I've hardly eaten a cubensis the last 25 years. On the one hand they're great, they give great visuals, but I don't really like them. GENERALLY they're harder to digest, cause more nausea, and can cause more anxiety than the ones in the PNW. This is a big generalization but it's true for me and many people I know. Cyanescens and azurescens have an opiate like sedating quality that quashes a lot of anxiety, although with psychedelics anxiety is always possible.
I'm sure there's people that believe the opposite that love cubes and are terrified by cys and azzies. Especially since they started calling them 'wood lovers' and the cases of wood lover's paralysis have been documented. They still don't know what causes it or why but I'd simply avoid any place it is found. It seems to only curse certain patches so to be safe when finding a new patch only take an amount to get an alert. No feelings of paralysis, go to town. It's kind of crazy out of all those years and all those mushrooms I've never met someone who experienced it.
Well I'm new here, you can tell by how many times I've gone off topic. I've cured many people of their mushroom trauma. People who swore they'd never trip ever again on anything. It involves taking a small recreational dose of azzies or necens and spending the evening laughing your ass off. Make sure they see how small the dose is, preferrably whole small mushrooms. For activities you don't need to do anything, going on a walk or even watching tv works. Don't do a lot, don't try to have a mystical experience. Eat just enough to make the world sparkle with a good friend you know well enough to laugh with and enjoy yourself. Mushrooms don't always have to be spiritual and they don't think it's a crime to laugh with them. They're certainly laughing at you.
