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i just smoked salvia it was a few years old, but 20x still. i'm on a low dose of haldol anti-psychotic. it doesn't really do anything for me, but i expected the salvia might not work anyways, despite the fact i read that there are no trip killers for salvia.
so i've been planning on saving this salvia to smoke when i move out of my parent's house because they are always home and i don't want to get in trouble. i have no idea what they'd think of salvia and if they tell my therapists, are they gonna try to medicate me or something cause it's not legal for consumption. i have no idea, so i'm just gonna keep this to myself and strangers on the internet. my room doesn't stink like smoke at all and i just took a shower (which was super weird) so i should be fine and not smelling like weird smoke when my family gets back from the party they went to. lol
so i packed up a pretty large bowl, about three pinches from a gram bag, maybe about .3 worth of salvia. i put my camera on facing my bed to record to see if i make noise when i trip. i sat on my bed and took about a minutes worth of meditative breathing. i took the hit and held it in for as long as i could because i hear people on reddit saying it's more likely to work holding a hit in. i only had like three seconds of being able to hold the smoke in my lungs. i exhaled and coughed. i almost puked. about 5 to 15 seconds passed and i was like "damn, nothing" to myself. and then all of a sudden the thoughts in my head are "you don't remember this!" and then it was like my vision was kind of blurry and a blanket or a wave kind of like the fabric of my bedsheet came slowly approaching my vision and completely covered everything i could see. it was kind of like i was sinking at this point. at first i felt like it's some DARE advertisement like i'm in big trouble and a teenager or something. and in my head i'm luck "how could i not remember what this would be and why would i do this. this teenage drama bullshit" is what i was thinking.....i completely lost touch with reality for a minute and then i thought that i was some kind of reality show for aliens or there was a reality show in my head. i'm not sure but i heard this voice like "you don't remember the bruels" or something and i remember i always used to hear these voices and one of the things they would say was "berlucktose" and "teddy berlucktose" i think i remembered a family of teddy bears like from when i was a little kid in a black space... i tried opening my eyes and there was this big theatrical thing like would i come back to reality in time. my eye felt like it was opening super slow and i could see what i thought was my eye lash. there was a bunch of tears. it was like my whole perspective was trying to open or close my eye or all i was was an eye trying to open or close and i didn't have a body, but the weird thing when i went back to look at the recorded footage, my eyes were open the whole time. you could see tears coming out of them on the camera. i felt like my eye closing was going to end the universe and that i wouldn't get back in time for the trip to end or something... it was really weird. it wasn't that i didn't like it, but i didn't want to be there, so i shook the feeling off and started moving around my room. i was back in reality but i felt like i was going to get in trouble or cought. i couldn't remember who my family was at all at that point. i'm really not sure what i was afraid of. on camera i hear myself laugh "what the fuck haha" pretty casually a couple minutes after taking the hit and waking around my room trying to get back to reality. i went and took a shower and had pretty cool closed eye visuals similar to smoking weed, maybe a little more tripped out feeling like the visuals were larger behind my eyes if that makes any sense.
after about an hour i'm totally fine. i'll be able to talk with my family and they won't have any clue. thankfully the hit didn't smell up my room i noticed after i got back from the shower. i smoked a little bit of weed while writing this post to cover it up just in case... actually my father and my sister actually just got home from the party to leave my fathers car here so he can drink and my sister can drive him home. i talked to both of them fine. they will have no idea... wtf. so weird having to be 37 almost 38 next month and i'm trying to hide my habbits from people. this world doesn't seem right. i think it influenced me to have a weird paranoid trip. i was afraid to stay in the salvia world... it was heavy as fuck though. it definitely hit me hard. it wasn't colorful like the first few salvia trips that i had as a teen. i remember i smoked salvia for a few months when i turned 18. the begining trips were really colorful and then they got to be darker and weird like the trip i just had. there was a big theme of being a distressed teen in a lot of trouble that i forgot about till this trip. i don't really feel that way in reality and wasn't in any trouble as a teen. it's really weird. i never get these feelings on shrooms or acid.
salvia is some weird ass shit though. i have no desire to try the rest of the bag. i probably will get curious at some point, but wtf. i was thinking of maybe getting a bunch more salvia and replacing mushrooms and acid with salvia until this trip. not the same type vibe though. i wish it was more colorful and what not so i'd get an idea for a painting or something. oh well. i think if it weren't so harsh on my lungs that i might've had a better trip. i'm not even gonna try holding it in next time. my salvia is probably stale though. i think it was actually stale when i got it.
sorry if this is tl;dr but writing this helped me get back to reality a bit. i figure i'll post it anyways even though my writing is kind of scatter brained....
also i was worried that the salvia might bother the nerves in my body because cigarettes definitely do. i didn't really notice anything at all.. i remember as a teen i used to have a couple hours after smoking salvia where my body would feel off and uncomfortable. i thought maybe that was something to do with my CNS, but having a damaged back and doing salvia now, it doesn't feel like salvia is really bad for your CNS like smoking a cigarette or anything. i'm pretty happy about that. another drug i can do with out fear of hurting my body. almost zero bad side effects that weren't mental imo.
so i've been planning on saving this salvia to smoke when i move out of my parent's house because they are always home and i don't want to get in trouble. i have no idea what they'd think of salvia and if they tell my therapists, are they gonna try to medicate me or something cause it's not legal for consumption. i have no idea, so i'm just gonna keep this to myself and strangers on the internet. my room doesn't stink like smoke at all and i just took a shower (which was super weird) so i should be fine and not smelling like weird smoke when my family gets back from the party they went to. lol
so i packed up a pretty large bowl, about three pinches from a gram bag, maybe about .3 worth of salvia. i put my camera on facing my bed to record to see if i make noise when i trip. i sat on my bed and took about a minutes worth of meditative breathing. i took the hit and held it in for as long as i could because i hear people on reddit saying it's more likely to work holding a hit in. i only had like three seconds of being able to hold the smoke in my lungs. i exhaled and coughed. i almost puked. about 5 to 15 seconds passed and i was like "damn, nothing" to myself. and then all of a sudden the thoughts in my head are "you don't remember this!" and then it was like my vision was kind of blurry and a blanket or a wave kind of like the fabric of my bedsheet came slowly approaching my vision and completely covered everything i could see. it was kind of like i was sinking at this point. at first i felt like it's some DARE advertisement like i'm in big trouble and a teenager or something. and in my head i'm luck "how could i not remember what this would be and why would i do this. this teenage drama bullshit" is what i was thinking.....i completely lost touch with reality for a minute and then i thought that i was some kind of reality show for aliens or there was a reality show in my head. i'm not sure but i heard this voice like "you don't remember the bruels" or something and i remember i always used to hear these voices and one of the things they would say was "berlucktose" and "teddy berlucktose" i think i remembered a family of teddy bears like from when i was a little kid in a black space... i tried opening my eyes and there was this big theatrical thing like would i come back to reality in time. my eye felt like it was opening super slow and i could see what i thought was my eye lash. there was a bunch of tears. it was like my whole perspective was trying to open or close my eye or all i was was an eye trying to open or close and i didn't have a body, but the weird thing when i went back to look at the recorded footage, my eyes were open the whole time. you could see tears coming out of them on the camera. i felt like my eye closing was going to end the universe and that i wouldn't get back in time for the trip to end or something... it was really weird. it wasn't that i didn't like it, but i didn't want to be there, so i shook the feeling off and started moving around my room. i was back in reality but i felt like i was going to get in trouble or cought. i couldn't remember who my family was at all at that point. i'm really not sure what i was afraid of. on camera i hear myself laugh "what the fuck haha" pretty casually a couple minutes after taking the hit and waking around my room trying to get back to reality. i went and took a shower and had pretty cool closed eye visuals similar to smoking weed, maybe a little more tripped out feeling like the visuals were larger behind my eyes if that makes any sense.
after about an hour i'm totally fine. i'll be able to talk with my family and they won't have any clue. thankfully the hit didn't smell up my room i noticed after i got back from the shower. i smoked a little bit of weed while writing this post to cover it up just in case... actually my father and my sister actually just got home from the party to leave my fathers car here so he can drink and my sister can drive him home. i talked to both of them fine. they will have no idea... wtf. so weird having to be 37 almost 38 next month and i'm trying to hide my habbits from people. this world doesn't seem right. i think it influenced me to have a weird paranoid trip. i was afraid to stay in the salvia world... it was heavy as fuck though. it definitely hit me hard. it wasn't colorful like the first few salvia trips that i had as a teen. i remember i smoked salvia for a few months when i turned 18. the begining trips were really colorful and then they got to be darker and weird like the trip i just had. there was a big theme of being a distressed teen in a lot of trouble that i forgot about till this trip. i don't really feel that way in reality and wasn't in any trouble as a teen. it's really weird. i never get these feelings on shrooms or acid.
salvia is some weird ass shit though. i have no desire to try the rest of the bag. i probably will get curious at some point, but wtf. i was thinking of maybe getting a bunch more salvia and replacing mushrooms and acid with salvia until this trip. not the same type vibe though. i wish it was more colorful and what not so i'd get an idea for a painting or something. oh well. i think if it weren't so harsh on my lungs that i might've had a better trip. i'm not even gonna try holding it in next time. my salvia is probably stale though. i think it was actually stale when i got it.
sorry if this is tl;dr but writing this helped me get back to reality a bit. i figure i'll post it anyways even though my writing is kind of scatter brained....
also i was worried that the salvia might bother the nerves in my body because cigarettes definitely do. i didn't really notice anything at all.. i remember as a teen i used to have a couple hours after smoking salvia where my body would feel off and uncomfortable. i thought maybe that was something to do with my CNS, but having a damaged back and doing salvia now, it doesn't feel like salvia is really bad for your CNS like smoking a cigarette or anything. i'm pretty happy about that. another drug i can do with out fear of hurting my body. almost zero bad side effects that weren't mental imo.