Mephistophilus
Greenlighter
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- Mar 18, 2010
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I'm not really sure why I registered here, what to type in the topic, not sure of much really. I do know that I intensely dislike other drug addicts. I've always thought I was different, but earlier as I looked at my belt lying on the floor it occured to me that maybe that's what all addicts think.
I've been on and off heroin for about 12 years. I used to cold turkey off it, for about 7 or 8 years, then I just got to a point where I didn't have the will. I went on Methadone though I didn't want to, it was the only thing the doctor would offer me. I had it in my head that the longer I stayed on Methadone, the harder it would be to come off. God knows how, but I managed to come off Methadone and be clean.. for about 6 months. Started using heroin again, back to methadone, was on it for quite a while, at least a year, came down from 100mls to 20 in a few months.
day1 6mg of subutex....
day 2 injected heroin as doctor would only increase the 6 to 8...
day3 took the 8mgs told doctor I'd took heroin the day before.. boy am I a smartie... more withdrawals, took 100mgs of amitrptyline, whoopee drowsie, fell asleep for 4 hours.
today the doc wanted me to take suboxone instead of subutex, 14mgs of suboxone. Sublingually took the 8mg pill. the withdrawals laughed at the puny attempt to contain their awesome power. So I hit one of the 2mg. Jesus, It felt like my whole body was on fire. It went away after 15 minutes, but the withdrawals didnt. Took one of the other 2mgs. Injected a subutex 2mg that is several years old.
I give up with this typing, I'm so weak, I don't have any fight left in me.
I've been on and off heroin for about 12 years. I used to cold turkey off it, for about 7 or 8 years, then I just got to a point where I didn't have the will. I went on Methadone though I didn't want to, it was the only thing the doctor would offer me. I had it in my head that the longer I stayed on Methadone, the harder it would be to come off. God knows how, but I managed to come off Methadone and be clean.. for about 6 months. Started using heroin again, back to methadone, was on it for quite a while, at least a year, came down from 100mls to 20 in a few months.
day1 6mg of subutex....
day 2 injected heroin as doctor would only increase the 6 to 8...
day3 took the 8mgs told doctor I'd took heroin the day before.. boy am I a smartie... more withdrawals, took 100mgs of amitrptyline, whoopee drowsie, fell asleep for 4 hours.
today the doc wanted me to take suboxone instead of subutex, 14mgs of suboxone. Sublingually took the 8mg pill. the withdrawals laughed at the puny attempt to contain their awesome power. So I hit one of the 2mg. Jesus, It felt like my whole body was on fire. It went away after 15 minutes, but the withdrawals didnt. Took one of the other 2mgs. Injected a subutex 2mg that is several years old.
I give up with this typing, I'm so weak, I don't have any fight left in me.
