TDS I am having an Epiphany - medications have clouded my mind and made me crazy

[speeder37]

In many ways, over the past month I have increased the Adderall on my own. I had an extra prescription that I filled and paid cash, went to pharmacy that i never got it filled and paid cash for generic. So instead of 40MG a day --- 60MG - 100MG I guess along with the other medications prescribed Prozac, Gabapentin (neurontin) -- didn't abuse those...
I have been paranoid and panicky and making things up in my head for every situation and then jumping to conclusions and making baseless accusations, been very hyper and hardly any sleep. Slowly trying to taper down, I notice I am calmer without the Prozac (Fluoxetine) but feel like I am in a fog now.
I want to get off the Prozac so need to tell doctor I have been taking as prescribed but making me very anxious, I want Wellbrutin with Adderall.
But honestly, I am trying to work things out with this guy I loaned money to and because of my accusations and thinking things, he was going to sue me for defamation (slander) but I realize that it is better to work things out rather than spend thousands on a lawyer.
I notice when I have have a few drinks - say three or four Microbrews it puts me in a nice buzzed state without the drunk feeling but I don't want to become an alcoholic..

 

[ad lib]

Hey speeder37, what is it that we can help you with? Is it the taper? The side effects from the medication? I just want to clarify because I'm a bit confused as to what we can do to help

 

[Mysterie]

so your epiphany is that 'medications have clouded my mind and made me crazy', but you 'want Wellbutrin with Adderall'...

yes alcohol does get strange on anti-depressants, have you planned this out much, how long do you plan to take stimulants and anti-depressants for?

i dont know why every aspect of being an individual has to result in being on meds, being on anti-depressants is very fog-like ime, yuck

 

[tocooperate]

dunno what going from prozac / adderall combo to wellbutrin / adderall combo is gonna do to your perceived effects on your psyche... but switching to wellbutrin would only be a "taper" if you reduce the adderall consumption- wellbutrin boosts dopamine which any more of and you will see the mania turn to psychosis.

and be very careful with the alcohol- good friend of mine has a pretty serious drinking problem now from using it as a crutch between adderall refills.

gl