Stimulants How to fight my relapse before it gets out of control?

[hh95]

First off I am almost positive this is in the wrong place so please feel free to move it if it is.

Hey BL, its been awhile since I have been online to have a look at the forums as ive been sortve finding it abit triggering as I was clean from meth for about 10 months (up until Christmas eve) but still crave almost daily. Now I moved to a new town about 4 months ago and the prices for meth or weed is ridiculous... I mean RIDICULOUS. So as I was not making a huge income I just couldn't afford it and no longer needed it to function and I found it sortve easy to refrain from at first. Then after about 2 weeks I started getting REALLY bored as the town is tiny and there is nothing to do around town at all. So I started smoking a lot more weed, it was affordable at first although the price was a rip off. And then It became ridiculous, to the point I was smoking allday everyday and was getting bored of that because my tolerance was sooo high. And as Christmas approached some of my mates were all going to put in for some meth and split it between us... I was offered to chuck in and I thought why not its Christmas a little bit wont hurt?... Had they TINIEST little pipe got a little buzz and INSTANTLY wanted more but couldn't afford it. So I came down and was sorta proud of myself at first, However after that pipe my cravings went back to like mid detox and now ive pretty much given in to them and started using again. Not flat out using, but we all know that wont last long. This is worrying as the price here means im gonna be doing stupid stuff to get money soon. I know its because im depressed that ive gone back to dope but I have been in denial that im depressed again and I have been sortve lieing about how Ive really felt mentally to my doc and I also hate my doctor he is a prick. So do I just go in and face up to the judgemental as fuck old school doctor stare as I come out with the truth to him or should I maybe change doctors and start from scratch and be 100% honest? Do I just sortve try a DIY approach or what? Im sortve getting abit desperate as I know how quickly this snowball rolls.

Any advice or ideas would be great. Im sorta struggling to get a sober and clear head to make decisions on what to do.
As always Thank You!

 

[f33lg00d]

Look for addiction specialist doctors and/or intensive outpatient programs.

 

[enzoff]

If you have someone close who you spend time with and you trust tell them that your affraid of relapse and if the could help you not to do stupid things, if you will, you surley will lose them

The next thing you cloud do, i for myself found out that i do drugs manily cause im bored, and it seems form reading the post the trigger for you is also bordeom, your bored and you want to pass your time with drugs, what you can do is get a timetable for your life and sticking to it, if you go to work thats 8 hours of life you cant be high + 7 hours of sleep and your left with 9 hours of free time, find a hobby or something... Thats just how i help my self hope its any good to you

 

[Crashing]

Got to find some sort of hobby or activity that you can do. Could be anything, maybe a sport, perhaps a video game, maybe a hobby like model trains or mechanical mod e cig vaping. You can maybe get interested in a certain topic and just do a little research project on it and just basically force yourself to do anything that you would picture someone else doing instead of getting high. It can be anything, maybe it's something you don't even think you'll like but just force yourself to try any new activity that you've never tried before.

Some really interesting books can help too, like Prometheus Rising or Anastasia, something with a drug-like vibe that can sort of satisfy that need a little bit. It's all about making a move when you get the craving, the craving kicks in and immediately you take physical action in some sort of activity and the craving almost always passes.

It's tough, and most of us deal with it. Just gotta find your personal coping mechanisms. Don't stop until you find what suits you, and good luck dude.

 

[zephyrhigh]

I would start by recognizing why you enjoy the drug so much like what exactly u do "better" on it in your eyes are you a cleaner or do u waste the high by picking or staring out the window etc and find ways to replace that like if your stuck on the energy it gives you to finish everything that needs to be done then invest in coffee or ask your doctor why you have a lack of energy and motivation it could be as simple a a vitamin d deficiency I trued viibryd as a depression anxiety med and it helped a lot also I had to try to self motivate tremendously occupying my time with hobbies and Doug things I would normally do while I was high to feel that same sense of accomplishment without using its a process and very difficult but it can be done I was addicted to meth for 6 years I used religiously but I found other things to drive me and motivated myself and realized I could do the same things I thought I couldn't do if I wasn't high and in turn felt better that I did it while I wasn't high that I could do it on my own that I had the will and power and strength to be dependent on myself not drugs I got busy with a jib and hobbies and healthy goals I pushed myself and won my personal battle I learned that a craving thought last about 30 seconds and if I could push through it I could overcome I still have cravings when I feel too overwhelmed but Ive learned that making a list of what needs to be done prioritizing and staying calm and breathing through it maybe turn on some music and enjoying the day and replacing the thoughf of using with positive thoughts and self pep talks works for me finding new ways and healthy ways for me to accomplish things like losing weight etc jut makes you feel great about yourself at the end of the day.....

 

[Drybone]

There is no such thing as a 'relapse' or 'slip' .

You wanted to get high. You got high. Now you have lived with the consequences.

The day you decide that the consequences are too great, then you wont use meth anymore. Until then sooner or later you will use it.

If your goal is to 'stave off' that next use, then like the others have said, pick up some healthy habits. Dont hang around folks who use drugs, and pick up a different social crowd.

If you do that for a while you will eventually come face to face with whether your new clean lifestyle is worth more than your using lifestyle.

Good luck.

 

[Fire&Water]

That was all you needed to realize

 

[hh95]

I would start by recognizing why you enjoy the drug so much like what exactly u do "better" on it in your eyes are you a cleaner or do u waste the high by picking or staring out the window etc and find ways to replace that like if your stuck on the energy it gives you to finish everything that needs to be done then invest in coffee or ask your doctor why you have a lack of energy and motivation it could be as simple a a vitamin d deficiency I trued viibryd as a depression anxiety med and it helped a lot also I had to try to self motivate tremendously occupying my time with hobbies and Doug things I would normally do while I was high to feel that same sense of accomplishment without using its a process and very difficult but it can be done I was addicted to meth for 6 years I used religiously but I found other things to drive me and motivated myself and realized I could do the same things I thought I couldn't do if I wasn't high and in turn felt better that I did it while I wasn't high that I could do it on my own that I had the will and power and strength to be dependent on myself not drugs I got busy with a jib and hobbies and healthy goals I pushed myself and won my personal battle I learned that a craving thought last about 30 seconds and if I could push through it I could overcome I still have cravings when I feel too overwhelmed but Ive learned that making a list of what needs to be done prioritizing and staying calm and breathing through it maybe turn on some music and enjoying the day and replacing the thoughf of using with positive thoughts and self pep talks works for me finding new ways and healthy ways for me to accomplish things like losing weight etc jut makes you feel great about yourself at the end of the day.....

Whoah! Congratulations! That is an amazing feat.

Its been awhilr since posted this but I have been clean off meth now for 3 months and am really feeling it. Life sucks lol. But I just use most of zephyrhigh's advice and push through. I guess the only difference is i still smoke a wincy bit of weed here and there as a treat when i acomplish a small goal or something. But thanks again great advice and a great success story!