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Bluelighter
- Joined
- Dec 21, 2012
- Messages
- 104
Hello all,
I am in so much goddamn pain now, I am starting to think why God makes me continue to live. It's actually getting to the point of where I am contemplating suicide with very painful methods, the only methods available to me. Overdosing on ibuprofen never worked, I tried that 3 times and have no rope to make a noose. Honestly if i had a gun by me, I would instantly take it and kill myself.
I'm day 6 into stopping IV methadone and heroin, plus benzos, crack and crystal meth. I have made a lot of friends in rehab, it's a really good program, but THE DOCTORS AND NURSES ARE ABSOLUTE NAZIS. They come up with so many excuses, every day, as to why I cannot start suboxone. I can't hold food down or sleep, I'm going day 3 of no sleep. Can't think straight, and all the meds they did give me do nothing. Not even seroquel is helping.
Today I finally got the most straightforward answer I have gotten. Basically I am still coming up positive for methadone. Once I stop coming up positive for it, apparently thats when I can start Suboxone maintenance.
So last time I did opiates was sunday. I shot up 40mg of methadone mixed with about .4 of heroin. It's saturday today, so by Monday should I be peeing clean? I hope to god i do.
I am in so much goddamn pain now, I am starting to think why God makes me continue to live. It's actually getting to the point of where I am contemplating suicide with very painful methods, the only methods available to me. Overdosing on ibuprofen never worked, I tried that 3 times and have no rope to make a noose. Honestly if i had a gun by me, I would instantly take it and kill myself.
I'm day 6 into stopping IV methadone and heroin, plus benzos, crack and crystal meth. I have made a lot of friends in rehab, it's a really good program, but THE DOCTORS AND NURSES ARE ABSOLUTE NAZIS. They come up with so many excuses, every day, as to why I cannot start suboxone. I can't hold food down or sleep, I'm going day 3 of no sleep. Can't think straight, and all the meds they did give me do nothing. Not even seroquel is helping.
Today I finally got the most straightforward answer I have gotten. Basically I am still coming up positive for methadone. Once I stop coming up positive for it, apparently thats when I can start Suboxone maintenance.
So last time I did opiates was sunday. I shot up 40mg of methadone mixed with about .4 of heroin. It's saturday today, so by Monday should I be peeing clean? I hope to god i do.