I read your other threads and questions about alcohol withdrawal.
It's a really, really dangerous idea to start drinking alcohol again after you have went through alcohol withdrawals, and if you're an alcoholic. You're going to relapse if you drink, and a lot of alcoholics wind up dying this way or coming very close to it, or if we're lucky enough to have withdrawal again it's so bad that you have to do it with medical assistance as you will die if you attempt it on your own.
If you use other drugs be extremely careful that you don't become addicted to those, and use them to "fill the void" of where alcohol was or because you can't drink alcohol, and be careful you do not binge on them.
Are you involved in AA/NA meetings or any sobriety groups? Or do your friends and family know that you're an alcoholic that recently went through alcohol withdrawal?
I know it sucks not drinking or using drugs; but think of sobriety as a gift you give to yourself, and it's not selfish to focus on yourself and your sobriety, and recovery when you first become sober.