K, so I've been to rehab 3 times and once to an involuntary psych ward. My family is not the same with me anymore, they have this concept of me, they think I'm fucking crazy. My brother doesn't talk to me anymore even tho he lives with me, i barely speak to him these days. His gf i could care less i wanna throw her out of my house actually lol. My dad is kinda dissapointed at me too, I've robbed, pawned, sold, shit from the house and they just won't trust me anymore even though it's been like 2 years since the last time i fucked up big time.I'm thinking about moving out from my house when i get a job, i just can't live with people that look down on me. Do you guys have similar stories?
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How is the Relationship with your family after all your fuck ups?
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jhjhsdi
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I don't think mine look down on me as such, but since rehab they defo treat me different.
Stupidly I opened right up and told them all my secrets/behavior patterns of using when I was on my way there...deluded thinking I was never going to use again. How I used to lie and say I'd just had a drink or a smoke when I was fucked up on K or downers, how I used to hide my usage etc.
Now I can't get away with FUCK ALL around them ffs. Even just blowing my nose for natural reasons if I'm around them they'll instantly be like WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN SNIFFING!?
It's well annoying
I had to move out, lol.
Stupidly I opened right up and told them all my secrets/behavior patterns of using when I was on my way there...deluded thinking I was never going to use again. How I used to lie and say I'd just had a drink or a smoke when I was fucked up on K or downers, how I used to hide my usage etc.
Now I can't get away with FUCK ALL around them ffs. Even just blowing my nose for natural reasons if I'm around them they'll instantly be like WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN SNIFFING!?
It's well annoying
I had to move out, lol.
i think i needa move out aswell....I'm starting to dislike my fam.I don't think mine look down on me as such, but since rehab they defo treat me different.
Stupidly I opened right up and told them all my secrets/behavior patterns of using when I was on my way there...deluded thinking I was never going to use again. How I used to lie and say I'd just had a drink or a smoke when I was fucked up on K or downers, how I used to hide my usage etc.
Now I can't get away with FUCK ALL around them ffs. Even just blowing my nose for natural reasons if I'm around them they'll instantly be like WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN SNIFFING!?
It's well annoying
I had to move out, lol.
LadyAlkaline
Greenlighter
Their fuckups. They can all kiss my ass.
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Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
My family knows almost everything and we still talk on a regular basis. It's cathartic to know that nothing i can say will surprise them anymore.
When i was homeless they offered me to live with them but i declined.
They usually always visited me in the psych wards.
Sometimes i feel like i take them for granted but as i get older i appreciate them more.
When i was homeless they offered me to live with them but i declined.
They usually always visited me in the psych wards.
Sometimes i feel like i take them for granted but as i get older i appreciate them more.
i only care about my dad these days realy....the rest can go fuck themselves with the exception of 1 or 2 other relatives.
jackie jones
Bluelight Crew
LadyAlkaline
Greenlighter
jackie jones
Bluelight Crew
My relationship with my family is frayed... at best.
Yet this can be viewed from different perspectives. I have 4 sisters, and 13 cousins on my mother's side alone. We were really tight when I was a child through my teens. Until we began cementing our, and understanding each other's personalities. We have queers, liberals, extreme right wingers, drug addicts, doctors, teachers, and convicts in my family.
We do not mesh well as of late.
Yet this can be viewed from different perspectives. I have 4 sisters, and 13 cousins on my mother's side alone. We were really tight when I was a child through my teens. Until we began cementing our, and understanding each other's personalities. We have queers, liberals, extreme right wingers, drug addicts, doctors, teachers, and convicts in my family.
We do not mesh well as of late.
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jackie jones
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Noted, Lady A.
Howsway
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I feel like my family lifts me up when I’m doing rite like graduating college and getting into law school until I fell into addiction and then I was getting snuck out of back doors.
I was adopted along with four other kids and ironically I’m closest with the biological daughter of my now mom.
been sober now so things are fine but I’m sure if I relapse they’d disown me for good
I was adopted along with four other kids and ironically I’m closest with the biological daughter of my now mom.
been sober now so things are fine but I’m sure if I relapse they’d disown me for good
jose ribas da silva
Bluelighter
first step to get the respect back is to get a job, which may be painful in pandemic times
jose ribas da silva
Bluelighter
stopping the hard drugs, don't show up high on crack or dead on opioids, also it is a first good step
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
At my worst i shot meth before work and smoked crack on my breaks.
Never again.
Id shoot up before work AND during lunch break ID buy More morphine to shoot up. Endless fucking cycle.
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
My family was full of tough love when i was young because my mother was an evangelical abstinence-style drug and alcohol counsellor. They just told me rehab or get out and i had nothing much to do with them for a decade or more. But over time they got more and more chill and pathologised me less until we just learned to accept each other as we were.
cosmic charlie
Bluelight Crew
I've probably been to 8-15 rehabs over the years and spent a solid decade behind the wall in jail and prisons. If someone wants to tell me how to live my life bitch get ready I come full steam. I have alot of violent charges alongside the drug ones but it's how it goes. You want money brotha I ain't feeling sick, nuff said... I don't think I could ever relate in words to what happen to me in the criminal justice system .... But you know what fuck you I'm dumb as fuck And be let's see what's good I ain't stong but I'm if your paper grows round let us roll from the tree. But if you're ground then fuck offd
#stopgettinghigh
#stopgettinghigh
jackie jones
Bluelight Crew
I feel you, man. I have a violent felony as well. I just got done doing a bid in March.
I was in state psychiatric hospitals in my younger days. The real ones.
Not many rehabs though. I have no hangups about my drug use.
I was in state psychiatric hospitals in my younger days. The real ones.
Not many rehabs though. I have no hangups about my drug use.