you dont, for me anyway, however it sounds to me like you actually might have a chance to turn it around, because youre recognizing it early on and thats a good thing. time fucking flys so fast that the last thing you want to be doing is realizing that its been fucking years, because trust me it happens. im living proof of it. ive lost half my life to the dope, i know it, i admit it, but do i stop no! im still sitting here with my fucking head up my ass waiting for my friend and procrastinating, getting fucking nothing done. you seem like a pretty smart person, id hate to see it happen to you.