trocious
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 23, 2010
- Messages
- 80
The best times in my life are when I can have an entire thought process that leads me to a conclusion about something positive. That statement is simple, but it's much more complex. It's an interweaving of sentiment to create a worthiness that could be applied to almost any human being you knew.
I miss those times, where things seemed so significant, although I could realize how insignificant they truly were. That made them all the more savory and elusive. Just the taste of such thoughts make me smile and yearn for more. It's those times where things click, and you realize your value and potential as a person, as someone who can make a difference should you choose to.
I just want to be happy, but I want that happiness to come from within. Once again that is simple and not the whole truth. This happiness needs to come from within, but that doesn't mean it can't be derived externally. For example, something that makes me happy is making someone else happy. When I know that I've made someone else's day, it makes my day that much better.
There's something about the affection of a stranger that makes me tingle. The implication is that, although that person has no idea who you are, simply by the way you present yourself and your interactions with the person made enough of an impression to warrant praise or gratitude. That can't be beat, it makes me feel like a good person; it washes away this dirty feeling I can't shake and these drugs I can't stop taking. It gives me hope for humans, knowing that if someone as seemingly wretched as me can make a positive influence on a complete stranger.
I have hope for all of those struggling out there, even you.. I know where I've been, and I've always come back to the light (even if I get dunked into the dark on occasion).
So, sincerely, I hope you all realize that you are worth something, or at the very least have the potential to do something positive.
Love,
--------- Ian ------
I miss those times, where things seemed so significant, although I could realize how insignificant they truly were. That made them all the more savory and elusive. Just the taste of such thoughts make me smile and yearn for more. It's those times where things click, and you realize your value and potential as a person, as someone who can make a difference should you choose to.
I just want to be happy, but I want that happiness to come from within. Once again that is simple and not the whole truth. This happiness needs to come from within, but that doesn't mean it can't be derived externally. For example, something that makes me happy is making someone else happy. When I know that I've made someone else's day, it makes my day that much better.
There's something about the affection of a stranger that makes me tingle. The implication is that, although that person has no idea who you are, simply by the way you present yourself and your interactions with the person made enough of an impression to warrant praise or gratitude. That can't be beat, it makes me feel like a good person; it washes away this dirty feeling I can't shake and these drugs I can't stop taking. It gives me hope for humans, knowing that if someone as seemingly wretched as me can make a positive influence on a complete stranger.
I have hope for all of those struggling out there, even you.. I know where I've been, and I've always come back to the light (even if I get dunked into the dark on occasion).
So, sincerely, I hope you all realize that you are worth something, or at the very least have the potential to do something positive.
Love,
--------- Ian ------