Lightning-Nl
Bluelighter
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This is the best representation, I've ever seen, of my psychotic symptoms. This is why I question whether or not this can be classified as a psychotic illness when what I see are right on the border between illusions and hallucinations. This is the image.
That's exactly what happens. Faces will pop out of nowhere, and look clear as day for half a second, in my visual static. Also, if I stare at one place for more than 3 seconds, the "static" will start clumping together and eventually, it will form a face. If I stare at it even longer - the face will appear to be moving.
So yeah? Is there any known way to cure this? Because I've had it my entire life and I'm done... I can't live with it - it's the worst thing in existence. But the weirdest part about it is, stimulants... seem to make it better. I know that probably sounds very weird, but I'm dead serious. A low dose of Adderall will negate 80% of my visual field defects. Pseudoephedrine seems to work about just as well as Adderall in terms of stopping visual snow. If I take anything higher than 60-80 milligrams, however, (which I've only done a couple times) it makes it a whole lot worse.
It's only in that 20 milligram window that it makes the symptoms better. So what the fuck? Why do I get a paradoxical reaction to Adderall at low dosages?

That's exactly what happens. Faces will pop out of nowhere, and look clear as day for half a second, in my visual static. Also, if I stare at one place for more than 3 seconds, the "static" will start clumping together and eventually, it will form a face. If I stare at it even longer - the face will appear to be moving.
So yeah? Is there any known way to cure this? Because I've had it my entire life and I'm done... I can't live with it - it's the worst thing in existence. But the weirdest part about it is, stimulants... seem to make it better. I know that probably sounds very weird, but I'm dead serious. A low dose of Adderall will negate 80% of my visual field defects. Pseudoephedrine seems to work about just as well as Adderall in terms of stopping visual snow. If I take anything higher than 60-80 milligrams, however, (which I've only done a couple times) it makes it a whole lot worse.
It's only in that 20 milligram window that it makes the symptoms better. So what the fuck? Why do I get a paradoxical reaction to Adderall at low dosages?