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Hi how's it going. Me I 'm not doing so good and came across this site through some other forums I am also a member of.

Right now I think I should just copy and paste this right in to the dark side because I am not doing well at all. I have just resisted going to score. I am writing this to stop the depression. I hope it helps. I want to know where I can write about my life on here firstly without boring people and secondly if it's possible to do that.

I desperatley need to talk with people but i will never go back to AA or NA as long as I live and I would rather die in a crack house than subject myself to that ever again. So am I angry no, just that I have been around and have never gotten to grips with long term sobriety or my depression /Bipolar etc.

I haven't drank in 9 months and it has been 13 months since I smoked crack. Yet the only thing I want to do is use, not drink which was my dug of choice for 25 years(I'm 42) and then in '96 when I first came to this country I was introduced to Crack, By God it got me ,


Anyway that's enough of an introduction. If you mods need to move this for me please feel free.
 
Congratulations on your sobriety! It takes a lot of will power and resilience to quit. :)

Welcome to Bluelight, and I hope that you enjoy it here. The Dark Side is a wonderful forum and I'm sure you'll love it there.
 
Thank you.
I have been making some posts and I have realised my time span is wrong regarding months, maybe 11 months or so, I don't know for sure regarding my last crack binge , but I can get the record from the hospital. The day I admitted myself was the last use of Cocaine. However I don't count days, weeks months anymore and couldn't care less.Just wanted to say it's wrong but hey that's where my head is right now.

And so far I am really enjoying this place.

Wow just reread my first post, amazing to see how quickly feelings can change especially when you document them. Feeling better for sure.
 
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