minus-stage3-4
Greenlighter
- Joined
- May 13, 2010
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Hi, I’m a local narcoleptic.![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
I’m a military brat that had a father (if that qualifies) in the USAF 16+ yrs. I’ve had problems all my life, at least as far as 9 yrs old (hallucinations etc.).
I learned that on no account whatsoever shall anyone; even my dearest friends, closest family, distant family, teachers, counselors, wife now (ex), past girlfriend, or especially “doctors”; etc. can understand yet alone believe that these symptoms are extremely disabling in this current (anti-drug) society, that all Americans are subjected to in modern media and most-absolutely pre-programmed in all government funded schools, and government protected religious bodies.
Things got better as I aged; maybe until I tuned about 13yrs old. I then started working out (very abusive father) self defense for my mother, two brothers & myself. Anyhow - I also missed many days of high school, usually between 2-3 days a week.
At its worse, I easily missed more than 45 days per semester freshman and sophomore years. Thus requiring summer school programs, adult night school etc. Not because of a lack of interest, aptitude, or passing finals. However, because of not meeting the school-board requirements of attendance. To meet not only credits, but loss of credit due to lack of attendance. Back then I was very healthy….
I didn’t know I had a serious predicament until they banned ephedrine and GHB as over the counter nutrition supplements. I was an athletic Bodybuilder, nutritionally minded, young adult.
Principally due to my own personal experience with the control of most regime managed educational programs; i.e. public schools and their schemas that also influence private schools, propagate the indoctrination of our future citizens. Thereby creating an unsophisticated easily manipulated mass of individuals lacking a good number if any sort of pear consideration; which just leads to further empathetic denial, or lack of knowledge and/or pulling the typical card of “you’re just too lazy”; “messy”, “non-motivated” “ get more exercise, change your diet, “I can’t believe you didn’t take care of that yet”, “what’s wrong with you..?”…(blah freaking blah) type of complete unqualified denunciation that my family genetics may possibly be the basis of any systemic mechanism, type of comments out every time before changing the subject..
Even my lack of will, not going to church, not meditating enough… and so on.
You name it, and it’s been used to discredit any of my entreaties for support.
Well that's the just about a summary to the first 20 years of my life; before I was forced to become an illegal drug user addict, dependent and devotee!
And all because of the government trying to increase income through theft, and save a few hundred morons that Darwin has already arranged a way to deal with!
I will get to the next 15 years when I can, but typing is so much harder to do then reading....at least for me it is.
Without the vivid dreams and hallucinations that create a new life for me, I would have taken myself out years ago!
Much love, minus-stage3-4
I’m a military brat that had a father (if that qualifies) in the USAF 16+ yrs. I’ve had problems all my life, at least as far as 9 yrs old (hallucinations etc.).
I learned that on no account whatsoever shall anyone; even my dearest friends, closest family, distant family, teachers, counselors, wife now (ex), past girlfriend, or especially “doctors”; etc. can understand yet alone believe that these symptoms are extremely disabling in this current (anti-drug) society, that all Americans are subjected to in modern media and most-absolutely pre-programmed in all government funded schools, and government protected religious bodies.
Things got better as I aged; maybe until I tuned about 13yrs old. I then started working out (very abusive father) self defense for my mother, two brothers & myself. Anyhow - I also missed many days of high school, usually between 2-3 days a week.
At its worse, I easily missed more than 45 days per semester freshman and sophomore years. Thus requiring summer school programs, adult night school etc. Not because of a lack of interest, aptitude, or passing finals. However, because of not meeting the school-board requirements of attendance. To meet not only credits, but loss of credit due to lack of attendance. Back then I was very healthy….
I didn’t know I had a serious predicament until they banned ephedrine and GHB as over the counter nutrition supplements. I was an athletic Bodybuilder, nutritionally minded, young adult.
Principally due to my own personal experience with the control of most regime managed educational programs; i.e. public schools and their schemas that also influence private schools, propagate the indoctrination of our future citizens. Thereby creating an unsophisticated easily manipulated mass of individuals lacking a good number if any sort of pear consideration; which just leads to further empathetic denial, or lack of knowledge and/or pulling the typical card of “you’re just too lazy”; “messy”, “non-motivated” “ get more exercise, change your diet, “I can’t believe you didn’t take care of that yet”, “what’s wrong with you..?”…(blah freaking blah) type of complete unqualified denunciation that my family genetics may possibly be the basis of any systemic mechanism, type of comments out every time before changing the subject..
Even my lack of will, not going to church, not meditating enough… and so on.
You name it, and it’s been used to discredit any of my entreaties for support.
Well that's the just about a summary to the first 20 years of my life; before I was forced to become an illegal drug user addict, dependent and devotee!
And all because of the government trying to increase income through theft, and save a few hundred morons that Darwin has already arranged a way to deal with!
I will get to the next 15 years when I can, but typing is so much harder to do then reading....at least for me it is.
Without the vivid dreams and hallucinations that create a new life for me, I would have taken myself out years ago!
Much love, minus-stage3-4
