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AngelsandFairiesarereal

AngelsandFairiesarereal

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Hi guys I’m back 💜
Thank you so much for all of you that cared and that sent messages and stuff (it means a lot) … if I didn’t write back to you yet, I just got home and kind of shy (kind of embarrassed) about everything.

I was really struggling in the last months with PTSD. I basically just stopped eating and sleeping and was only taking substances to try to avoid PTSD night terrors and flashbacks. It all caught up with me and I got really sick and wound up in the hospital. When they realized how bad I was actually doing with everything (not eating and sleeping, ect.) they sent me to a rehab/trauma center. They actually wanted me to stay there for six more months but my insurance stopped paying in so I had to leave early. So I’m back home now, feeling kind of fragile and stuff but I’m back and I really miss and love you guys. *I been thinking about you all a lot … even had a dream about a couple of you guys lol

I’m trying to get back into programs and start taking better care of myself and really hoping for a better year. I’m kind of nervous that I’m out of that place when they thought I should stay for 6 more months but I can’t control that. There’s a woman from a non-profit program that’s going to try to get me on a list to go back to this program or a different one but the whole system of NY is ridiculously overwhelmed. So I am going to try to do my best to keep going. I don’t know why I feel shy or embarrassed writing this to you all … but since I literally talked to you guys every day pretty much until I disappeared, I just wanted to reach out.

So anyways, enough bla bla …

I hope everyone is doing good or okay

Sending you all very big hugs and lots of love and a paw bump from my kitty Baby 💜💕🐈🌺
 
AngelsandFairiesarereal said:
Hi guys I’m back 💜
Thank you so much for all of you that cared and that sent messages and stuff (it means a lot) … if I didn’t write back to you yet, I just got home and kind of shy (kind of embarrassed) about everything.

I was really struggling in the last months with PTSD. I basically just stopped eating and sleeping and was only taking substances to try to avoid PTSD night terrors and flashbacks. It all caught up with me and I got really sick and wound up in the hospital. When they realized how bad I was actually doing with everything (not eating and sleeping, ect.) they sent me to a rehab/trauma center. They actually wanted me to stay there for six more months but my insurance stopped paying in so I had to leave early. So I’m back home now, feeling kind of fragile and stuff but I’m back and I really miss and love you guys. *I been thinking about you all a lot … even had a dream about a couple of you guys lol

I’m trying to get back into programs and start taking better care of myself and really hoping for a better year. I’m kind of nervous that I’m out of that place when they thought I should stay for 6 more months but I can’t control that. There’s a woman from a non-profit program that’s going to try to get me on a list to go back to this program or a different one but the whole system of NY is ridiculously overwhelmed. So I am going to try to do my best to keep going. I don’t know why I feel shy or embarrassed writing this to you all … but since I literally talked to you guys every day pretty much until I disappeared, I just wanted to reach out.

So anyways, enough bla bla …

I hope everyone is doing good or okay

Sending you all very big hugs and lots of love and a paw bump from my kitty Baby 💜💕🐈🌺
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I'm so relieved to finally hear from you. I didn't want to bombard you with messages since I knew you probably had a ton. I'm sorry you've been struggling. But it shows how strong you are that you've been able to push through and you still care enough to come back and let us know what's going on.

We've all missed your presence here. And the paw bumps! 🐱 💕
 
i'm so happy to hear from you, even if you say you are still fragile. that and feeling shy/embarrassed (for which there is no reason to, but i get that it's something people feel) is better than feeling absolutely awful. so it's at least one step up.

espero que estes bien dentro de todo y que sigas mejorando, siendo desde tu hogar o en un cento de rehabilitacion. y cualquier cosa, aqui estamos. tienes muchos amigos en esta comunidad que piensan con cariño en ti y te desean lo mejor.
 
So glad to hear from you!!

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AngelsandFairiesarereal said:
So anyways, enough bla bla …

I hope everyone is doing good or okay

Sending you all very big hugs and lots of love and a paw bump from my kitty Baby 💜💕🐈🌺
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You are so strong for being able to come back and let us know how you are doing. Wow. You are amazing and thank you for

being here. Somehow that is special and I am sorry that I always say this but it is really truly a gift. And thank you again for

doing that and being able to help us all by sharing and helping each other too.

~~~

Oh and it's so true !! And a Legend too.

thanxxxxxxxxxxx


I'm really kind of weak and slow right now but I am glad that I got this message out.

Nice to see ya and be able to be here with ya too !! So kewl.
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I'm so glad I read this.
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Hey you..

I think a lot of us me included worried "what happened" ( sudden disappearance ) but i will say in a way it sounds like it was a good thing and something you needed and still do as you mentioned trying to still get help in other ways possible.

I hope you all the best and glad you checked in
 
mal3volent said:
I'm so relieved to finally hear from you. I didn't want to bombard you with messages since I knew you probably had a ton. I'm sorry you've been struggling. But it shows how strong you are that you've been able to push through and you still care enough to come back and let us know what's going on.

We've all missed your presence here. And the paw bumps! 🐱 💕
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Aw gracias so much @mal3volent 🥰 that means so much. It’s so good to see you, I hope you’re doing well too
Big hugs 💜
 
lecroute said:
i'm so happy to hear from you, even if you say you are still fragile. that and feeling shy/embarrassed (for which there is no reason to, but i get that it's something people feel) is better than feeling absolutely awful. so it's at least one step up.

espero que estes bien dentro de todo y que sigas mejorando, siendo desde tu hogar o en un cento de rehabilitacion. y cualquier cosa, aqui estamos. tienes muchos amigos en esta comunidad que piensan con cariño en ti y te desean lo mejor.
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Ay muchas gracias Mamacita 🥰
Te mando un abrazo y un beso 💜

*I hope you’re doing good too
 
pnillyg said:
Glad to hear your okay! You are such a legend. Dont forget how amazing you are ever and if you did im here to remind you!!
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Aw thank you so much what a nice thing to say 🙂 *but just change ‘legend’ to ‘cautionary tale’ hehe 😛

It’s good to see you still around here 💜
 
kiely said:
You are so strong for being able to come back and let us know how you are doing. Wow. You are amazing and thank you for

being here. Somehow that is special and I am sorry that I always say this but it is really truly a gift. And thank you again for

doing that and being able to help us all by sharing and helping each other too.

~~~

Oh and it's so true !! And a Legend too.

thanxxxxxxxxxxx


I'm really kind of weak and slow right now but I am glad that I got this message out.

Nice to see ya and be able to be here with ya too !! So kewl.
✨

I'm so glad I read this.
✨
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Mamacita :love: yay!

Aw thank you so much! It’s so good to see you @kiely

You are so amazing too and I’m always proud of you too. *oh gosh don’t ever be sorry for what you say, your words and spirit always means so much to me. Sending you extra strength and lots of love today amiga Mia
Abrazos 💜
 
Coffeeshroom said:
Hey you..

I think a lot of us me included worried "what happened" ( sudden disappearance ) but i will say in a way it sounds like it was a good thing and something you needed and still do as you mentioned trying to still get help in other ways possible.

I hope you all the best and glad you checked in
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Muchas gracias 💜
 
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