Young n inebriated
Bluelighter
Hello bluelighters, I’m 18 years of age, I’ve been a lurker for about a little over 2 years, I’m from the United States, I found blue light when I had prescriptions for 15 5mg Hydrocodones and 10 5mg oxys from faking a back injury very well and using that good old southern charm
, and I’m not addicted to opioids and I’ve been abusing them occasionally, and almost never longer then 2 or so weeks, since I was 12, and yes I’m well aware of that slippery slope, but anyway I’m kinda Innately tolerant, so I was googling potentiates, and I don’t remember why cuz I was nodding a bit from the hydros, but I typed in blue, and I saw bluelight and for whatever reason i tapped on the website and BOOM 
I FOUND A WHOLE ENTIRE ANONYMOUS COMMUNITY, WHO REALLY UNDERSTANDS, AND KEPT ME FROM ACCIDENTALLY DYING MULTIPLE TIMES. I am addicted to benzos, and I have been since I was around 15. I very quickly convinced my doctor to prescribe me 90mg of Clonazepam a month, and it went on like that for about 2 years until I was cut off completely after moving across states back home, only getting 1 prescription for 45mg. Long hellish story short I now get a prescription of 90mg of Diazepam a month for PTSD, GAD, and panic disorder agoraphobia etc. and my psychiatrist gives me gabapentin like candy like most do, but tend to stay away from it 90% of the time as to not gain anymore GABA tolerance then I already have, and every six weeks 90mg of Clonazepam given to me from a family member who I convinced to get a script for because she has a vey understanding doctor, and every now and then I will convince and/or steal some lorazepam from a different family member who rarely takes it, yes I enjoy my benzos recreationally mainly cuz of my anxiety obviously, but it’s also vey medicinal for my anxiety issues. Now anyways, I’ve decided to finally join cuz this site has given me extremely helpful information about good potentate's/ safe potentates to help get me thru a bad day up to bad months, and just so I don’t feel so alone, nobody irl knows how often I actually abuse drugs and I finally found a site where there were people who understand how embarrassed or shameful it can become, not to mention I’ve always been fascinated with mind altering substances, and medical science and pharmacology in general. This site has taught me a lot and I am so truly thankful it exists, and for all the people giving factual information, and opinions, and personal thoughts on countless different things. I really am just truly thankful I literally just stumbled onto this site while nodding on hydros and for whatever reason typed in blue
it still perplexes me to this day. Sorry for the long post it just feels so good to get this bs off my chest a little bit.
, and I’m not addicted to opioids and I’ve been abusing them occasionally, and almost never longer then 2 or so weeks, since I was 12, and yes I’m well aware of that slippery slope, but anyway I’m kinda Innately tolerant, so I was googling potentiates, and I don’t remember why cuz I was nodding a bit from the hydros, but I typed in blue, and I saw bluelight and for whatever reason i tapped on the website and BOOM I FOUND A WHOLE ENTIRE ANONYMOUS COMMUNITY, WHO REALLY UNDERSTANDS, AND KEPT ME FROM ACCIDENTALLY DYING MULTIPLE TIMES. I am addicted to benzos, and I have been since I was around 15. I very quickly convinced my doctor to prescribe me 90mg of Clonazepam a month, and it went on like that for about 2 years until I was cut off completely after moving across states back home, only getting 1 prescription for 45mg. Long hellish story short I now get a prescription of 90mg of Diazepam a month for PTSD, GAD, and panic disorder agoraphobia etc. and my psychiatrist gives me gabapentin like candy like most do, but tend to stay away from it 90% of the time as to not gain anymore GABA tolerance then I already have, and every six weeks 90mg of Clonazepam given to me from a family member who I convinced to get a script for because she has a vey understanding doctor, and every now and then I will convince and/or steal some lorazepam from a different family member who rarely takes it, yes I enjoy my benzos recreationally mainly cuz of my anxiety obviously, but it’s also vey medicinal for my anxiety issues. Now anyways, I’ve decided to finally join cuz this site has given me extremely helpful information about good potentate's/ safe potentates to help get me thru a bad day up to bad months, and just so I don’t feel so alone, nobody irl knows how often I actually abuse drugs and I finally found a site where there were people who understand how embarrassed or shameful it can become, not to mention I’ve always been fascinated with mind altering substances, and medical science and pharmacology in general. This site has taught me a lot and I am so truly thankful it exists, and for all the people giving factual information, and opinions, and personal thoughts on countless different things. I really am just truly thankful I literally just stumbled onto this site while nodding on hydros and for whatever reason typed in blue it still perplexes me to this day. Sorry for the long post it just feels so good to get this bs off my chest a little bit.
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