Crashing
Bluelighter
A lot of you know what it's like to take a little too much synthetic cannabinoids, but i thought I'd throw this into the mix.
So I prepared a sex video on the screen with intention to get high and masturbate.
00:00 Took a hit of the strong blend which I had already been smoking for a couple days...
00:00 Holding in the hit i start to play the video and begin to enjoy the session that is ahead of me.
00:00 Fondling myself proves to be a very, very strange and painful indescribably uncomfortable feeling, and the thought that "my pelvic muscles are broken" came over me.. I jumped up to sort of re-equilibriate and re-asses my surroundings and state of being.
00:01 Noticing that my HR feels like it is well above 200BPM, it was going to fast i felt like i could feel the blood boiling in my brain which was also accompanied by tracers and auditory hallucinations to support it. My stomach starts moving violently up and down inside my body... hard to explain, never had that sensation before. I think it was convulsing actually.
00:01 A new text message arrives. That sort of breaks my attention, so i sit down and pick up my phone and realize that my hands feel very pins and needles like, and I notice that my fingernails appear to be bulging out, and a lot wider than they normally are. My hands and feet are swelling and feel as if they are going to literally pop from pressure, but i think this is all hallucination. I read my text message and realized my phone looked completely different in a permanently distorted way. The buttons were all very skinny and just looked nothing like my phone. There were split moments where my perception would go back to reality sort of and i could see normally.
00:02 Trying to write the text message but i cant figure out how to move my thumb 1/4" to hit the button. Everytime i try to click on a letter, its like my thumb stops right before it hits the screen, and i literally can NOT understand how to press the button. This is very bothersome, obviously. I know what i want to do, im holding my phone, my thumbs are moving, i just cant press the button??? I look down and around at my new reality. This is not like a trip where hallucinations cycle and roll, this was a singular hallucination and that took me off guard. I couldn't NOT see the things i was seeing no matter what. I put my hands on my head and take a deep breath and realize my hands are going down through my skull like quick sand into my brain. Startled, i jump up and start pacing "what to do" style. Also having extreme shakes/tremors.
Now that everything looks like a 3D video game from the 90s, body completely flushed, heart RACING like fuck, my mind is exhibiting senseless psychotic symptoms and my body is showing parkinsonism, I decide that i am having a bad trip and remember that i smoked the blend (remember this is only 2 minutes ago and I had completely forgotten)
This is the climax of it, where i am beginning to accept the fact that i might have just dont it for good. Also note here at the same time i know im about to die, i am also checking the timeline to i can write an accurate report on bluelight LOL wtf?
The feeling of impending doom here isn't a choice, the feeling of death is overpowering. Although i know that i will be fine, and I understand what is happening, my body still reacts the way it reacts.
00:03 Decide to assume fetal position and implement extremely heavy deep breaths, pausing in between for a while. I actually begin to relax and my heartbeat becomes more apparent. Don't think it's ever appeared to beat that fast. I don't know if it was actually happening or if it was perceptual, but the sound starts getting louder and soon turns into a myriad of traditional music from all different parts of the world mixed with the sounds of fuses blowing, circuits frying, popping, crackling and other destructive type noises. It was pretty scary, but also kind of cool.
00:05 The main panic has left me, but only because i have a lot of experience with psychedelics and know how to calm my body.
00:20 Now i feel high. Finally, what a come up huh?
Now about an hour later im totally 100% fine.
The main concern im left with it, which parts of that trip were purely hallucination? Im inclined to think ALL of it was, but im not sure. I dont know if my HR was dangerously high or not, im not sure if my physical symptoms exhibited my mental ones, but i am inclined to think the opposite. If I had to compare the experience as a whole to another experience, i can only speculate it might be like what a combination of DXM and Crack in very high doses would feel like. I did have some control over my thoughts and reactions, but the visual and tactile hallucinations were really unsettling and scary because i couldn't seem to change them in any way, they just felt permanent. I really felt like I was going to die, but at the same time I knew i wouldn't.
All in all, actually a good experience to have but i can definitely see how in a different situation or on a different person, this could have been really fucking bad. My thoughts had an incredible impact on my body systems and especially my heart. If I thought of something bad, my heart rate would go up by a lot instantly, and i feel like i could have killed myself with the wrong type of thinking.
--i am very good at suppressing these types of things and was actually able to calm down in the hallucinatory state i was in then just rode it out, but for many people this would have been a 30-40 minute ordeal.
---sorry if its convoluted that just happened so my brain might still be a little weird.
So I prepared a sex video on the screen with intention to get high and masturbate.
00:00 Took a hit of the strong blend which I had already been smoking for a couple days...
00:00 Holding in the hit i start to play the video and begin to enjoy the session that is ahead of me.
00:00 Fondling myself proves to be a very, very strange and painful indescribably uncomfortable feeling, and the thought that "my pelvic muscles are broken" came over me.. I jumped up to sort of re-equilibriate and re-asses my surroundings and state of being.
00:01 Noticing that my HR feels like it is well above 200BPM, it was going to fast i felt like i could feel the blood boiling in my brain which was also accompanied by tracers and auditory hallucinations to support it. My stomach starts moving violently up and down inside my body... hard to explain, never had that sensation before. I think it was convulsing actually.
00:01 A new text message arrives. That sort of breaks my attention, so i sit down and pick up my phone and realize that my hands feel very pins and needles like, and I notice that my fingernails appear to be bulging out, and a lot wider than they normally are. My hands and feet are swelling and feel as if they are going to literally pop from pressure, but i think this is all hallucination. I read my text message and realized my phone looked completely different in a permanently distorted way. The buttons were all very skinny and just looked nothing like my phone. There were split moments where my perception would go back to reality sort of and i could see normally.
00:02 Trying to write the text message but i cant figure out how to move my thumb 1/4" to hit the button. Everytime i try to click on a letter, its like my thumb stops right before it hits the screen, and i literally can NOT understand how to press the button. This is very bothersome, obviously. I know what i want to do, im holding my phone, my thumbs are moving, i just cant press the button??? I look down and around at my new reality. This is not like a trip where hallucinations cycle and roll, this was a singular hallucination and that took me off guard. I couldn't NOT see the things i was seeing no matter what. I put my hands on my head and take a deep breath and realize my hands are going down through my skull like quick sand into my brain. Startled, i jump up and start pacing "what to do" style. Also having extreme shakes/tremors.
Now that everything looks like a 3D video game from the 90s, body completely flushed, heart RACING like fuck, my mind is exhibiting senseless psychotic symptoms and my body is showing parkinsonism, I decide that i am having a bad trip and remember that i smoked the blend (remember this is only 2 minutes ago and I had completely forgotten)
This is the climax of it, where i am beginning to accept the fact that i might have just dont it for good. Also note here at the same time i know im about to die, i am also checking the timeline to i can write an accurate report on bluelight LOL wtf?
The feeling of impending doom here isn't a choice, the feeling of death is overpowering. Although i know that i will be fine, and I understand what is happening, my body still reacts the way it reacts.
00:03 Decide to assume fetal position and implement extremely heavy deep breaths, pausing in between for a while. I actually begin to relax and my heartbeat becomes more apparent. Don't think it's ever appeared to beat that fast. I don't know if it was actually happening or if it was perceptual, but the sound starts getting louder and soon turns into a myriad of traditional music from all different parts of the world mixed with the sounds of fuses blowing, circuits frying, popping, crackling and other destructive type noises. It was pretty scary, but also kind of cool.
00:05 The main panic has left me, but only because i have a lot of experience with psychedelics and know how to calm my body.
00:20 Now i feel high. Finally, what a come up huh?
Now about an hour later im totally 100% fine.
The main concern im left with it, which parts of that trip were purely hallucination? Im inclined to think ALL of it was, but im not sure. I dont know if my HR was dangerously high or not, im not sure if my physical symptoms exhibited my mental ones, but i am inclined to think the opposite. If I had to compare the experience as a whole to another experience, i can only speculate it might be like what a combination of DXM and Crack in very high doses would feel like. I did have some control over my thoughts and reactions, but the visual and tactile hallucinations were really unsettling and scary because i couldn't seem to change them in any way, they just felt permanent. I really felt like I was going to die, but at the same time I knew i wouldn't.
All in all, actually a good experience to have but i can definitely see how in a different situation or on a different person, this could have been really fucking bad. My thoughts had an incredible impact on my body systems and especially my heart. If I thought of something bad, my heart rate would go up by a lot instantly, and i feel like i could have killed myself with the wrong type of thinking.
--i am very good at suppressing these types of things and was actually able to calm down in the hallucinatory state i was in then just rode it out, but for many people this would have been a 30-40 minute ordeal.
---sorry if its convoluted that just happened so my brain might still be a little weird.
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