Ok so i had a horrible near death hallucinogenic "fake meth" trip 3 months ago
Because of it i have now been sober for 3 months (yay:D)
But i dont know what this "fake meth" and was curious if anybody does
BRIEF HISTORY
It was the end of august. I lost my family/my job and i was very depressed so i started shooting meth. At one point i shot meth or missed or something and my whole arm went cold and numb so i freaked out and callled 911(i was alone) i went to the hospitol and lied to my entire family about it, i thought i shouldve gotten help but i didnt, from this point on i developed a horrible paranoia to needles(getting a blood clot or dying). everytime i shot i got extremely bad anxiety i would shake and it would take me 20minutes to finish a shot. i also could NEVER finish an entire shot i always left a tiny little bit in the shot ( just put it in my mouth) i got really bad chest pain and felt like i had a heart attack almost everytime, but i was seriously addicted i couldnt get enough of the effect intravenous meth use gave me. Also i got to the point where somking weed gave me HORRIBLE anxiety. i took a huge bong rip once and ended up going to the hospitol thinking i was die(it felt like my heart kept stopping) i ended up going to the ER 4 times and doctor visits 8 times. My source kept giving me was looked like the purest crystal ever but it tasted wierd and made me feel really tired. one doctors visit made my family find out i was doing meth. and the doctors said my kidneys and heart were in horrible shape. i was told i had to quit or i was going to die
i got to the point were i was going to rehab but i wanted to get high one more time.
THE TRIP
It was the end of november and i was seriously addicted to meth at this point(about 3/4 gram a day) went over to my friends house and did some of his meth ( i assumed my dealer was screwing me over). All was good the first shot i did about an 1/8 of a gram. and i finally acheived that high i had been seeking for about a month. all was good for about 30-45 minutes we talked about me getting clean whether i would really do it or not. Then came the time where i was ready for my second shot. it was my friends shit so he put it on my spoon for me. They was a very clear small crystals. none longer than a centimeter or say this ----- long lol. very skinny. he loaded a little over 1/4th of a gram and i loaded it all in the shot and he said "dam your gonna do the whole thing" i said nothing and for the first time in about 3 months i finished the entire shot not leaving any left in the syringe. i stood up and immeadiatly felt something was horribly wrong. A huge overwhelming rush of euphoria came over me. i waved my hand in front of my face and it left long trails behind looked like slow motion. i started to freak out yelling at my friend saying "im dieing im dieing take me to the hospitol please please" he kept yelling at me "no your not" "no your not dude chill out", he said" you probly were issing every time before and this is the first time you havent missed" i didnt think so i know was a hit/miss feels like. i was persistant and he started to take me to the hospitol when we left everything was foggy and ghost like. there wasnt a car in sight i literally didnt see a single car the entire 5 mile drive to the hospitol.(it was 3 am but live in a big city it was very unusual) its was freaky it seemed like i was about to die and roam the earth alone as a ghost for the rest of my life. we got to the hospitol and my friend seemed to calm me down a bit and we stayed in the parking lot and talked for a bit. this is where it gets freaky
THE CONVERSATION
real quick religious history. i was raised in church i never reallly got into it and my drug use like hallucinogens made me change my mind about the afterlife.
Anyway he started talking about god and sins or doing bad things. remember i truly thought i was dying. everything i learned when i was a kid about god all came back to me out of nowhere. i started talking about all the horrible things ive done in my life(confessing my sins) having sex with multiple women, stealing, ect. we started driving back to his apartment and it starts to get really weird. he started to try and tell me how all these bad thing wernt really bad and everytime he tried i would argue with him how no there not good there horrible things, we got to his apartment and i asked him what he thought of the afterlife, he straight up told me he was going to hell. i asked him why and he replied " i did (insert horrible thing i will not say) to my wife and i cant forgive my self and neither will jesus" i argued with him and told him that jesus will forgive you if you confess and truly in your heart ask him for forgiveness" he told me " that may be true but i cant forgive myself" he then started talking about the anonymous and how he will inevitably burn up in the sun or something. the entire time he was talking to me i felt like the whole thing was some sort of test, eventually the sun started coming up and my friend told me " you need to get rid of everything drug related in your life, you need to go to rehab and and then get two jobs, and be the dad you need to be(i have a 2 yr old)" i went home with him and i grabbed a box and grabbed every pipe, every syringe, ever item i bought and fucked with when i tweeked, i started ripping drug related posters off my wall, i deleted every drugie contact of my phone, and i changed my number. without hesitation i did all of this, i truly felt like i had a revelation from god and quit cold turky that day.
AFTER THE TRIP
I ended up smoking weed once about a week after trying to cope with my anxiety and withdraws. But now i am completely sober today i quit smoking cigarettes after a month (well i have one of those ecigs) and truly believe now that god exists and i shouldve of died that day, but since i didnt reject jesus and asked him for help that i am still here today. my life has changed dramatically, i have a job, im going to college, and i got to see my kid again a couple times. but any way my question
Does anybody know what the substance was that i did, it didnt seem anything like meth..
or has anybody had a similar experience??
Because of it i have now been sober for 3 months (yay:D)
But i dont know what this "fake meth" and was curious if anybody does
BRIEF HISTORY
It was the end of august. I lost my family/my job and i was very depressed so i started shooting meth. At one point i shot meth or missed or something and my whole arm went cold and numb so i freaked out and callled 911(i was alone) i went to the hospitol and lied to my entire family about it, i thought i shouldve gotten help but i didnt, from this point on i developed a horrible paranoia to needles(getting a blood clot or dying). everytime i shot i got extremely bad anxiety i would shake and it would take me 20minutes to finish a shot. i also could NEVER finish an entire shot i always left a tiny little bit in the shot ( just put it in my mouth) i got really bad chest pain and felt like i had a heart attack almost everytime, but i was seriously addicted i couldnt get enough of the effect intravenous meth use gave me. Also i got to the point where somking weed gave me HORRIBLE anxiety. i took a huge bong rip once and ended up going to the hospitol thinking i was die(it felt like my heart kept stopping) i ended up going to the ER 4 times and doctor visits 8 times. My source kept giving me was looked like the purest crystal ever but it tasted wierd and made me feel really tired. one doctors visit made my family find out i was doing meth. and the doctors said my kidneys and heart were in horrible shape. i was told i had to quit or i was going to die
i got to the point were i was going to rehab but i wanted to get high one more time.THE TRIP
It was the end of november and i was seriously addicted to meth at this point(about 3/4 gram a day) went over to my friends house and did some of his meth ( i assumed my dealer was screwing me over). All was good the first shot i did about an 1/8 of a gram. and i finally acheived that high i had been seeking for about a month. all was good for about 30-45 minutes we talked about me getting clean whether i would really do it or not. Then came the time where i was ready for my second shot. it was my friends shit so he put it on my spoon for me. They was a very clear small crystals. none longer than a centimeter or say this ----- long lol. very skinny. he loaded a little over 1/4th of a gram and i loaded it all in the shot and he said "dam your gonna do the whole thing" i said nothing and for the first time in about 3 months i finished the entire shot not leaving any left in the syringe. i stood up and immeadiatly felt something was horribly wrong. A huge overwhelming rush of euphoria came over me. i waved my hand in front of my face and it left long trails behind looked like slow motion. i started to freak out yelling at my friend saying "im dieing im dieing take me to the hospitol please please" he kept yelling at me "no your not" "no your not dude chill out", he said" you probly were issing every time before and this is the first time you havent missed" i didnt think so i know was a hit/miss feels like. i was persistant and he started to take me to the hospitol when we left everything was foggy and ghost like. there wasnt a car in sight i literally didnt see a single car the entire 5 mile drive to the hospitol.(it was 3 am but live in a big city it was very unusual) its was freaky it seemed like i was about to die and roam the earth alone as a ghost for the rest of my life. we got to the hospitol and my friend seemed to calm me down a bit and we stayed in the parking lot and talked for a bit. this is where it gets freaky
THE CONVERSATION
real quick religious history. i was raised in church i never reallly got into it and my drug use like hallucinogens made me change my mind about the afterlife.
Anyway he started talking about god and sins or doing bad things. remember i truly thought i was dying. everything i learned when i was a kid about god all came back to me out of nowhere. i started talking about all the horrible things ive done in my life(confessing my sins) having sex with multiple women, stealing, ect. we started driving back to his apartment and it starts to get really weird. he started to try and tell me how all these bad thing wernt really bad and everytime he tried i would argue with him how no there not good there horrible things, we got to his apartment and i asked him what he thought of the afterlife, he straight up told me he was going to hell. i asked him why and he replied " i did (insert horrible thing i will not say) to my wife and i cant forgive my self and neither will jesus" i argued with him and told him that jesus will forgive you if you confess and truly in your heart ask him for forgiveness" he told me " that may be true but i cant forgive myself" he then started talking about the anonymous and how he will inevitably burn up in the sun or something. the entire time he was talking to me i felt like the whole thing was some sort of test, eventually the sun started coming up and my friend told me " you need to get rid of everything drug related in your life, you need to go to rehab and and then get two jobs, and be the dad you need to be(i have a 2 yr old)" i went home with him and i grabbed a box and grabbed every pipe, every syringe, ever item i bought and fucked with when i tweeked, i started ripping drug related posters off my wall, i deleted every drugie contact of my phone, and i changed my number. without hesitation i did all of this, i truly felt like i had a revelation from god and quit cold turky that day.
AFTER THE TRIP
I ended up smoking weed once about a week after trying to cope with my anxiety and withdraws. But now i am completely sober today i quit smoking cigarettes after a month (well i have one of those ecigs) and truly believe now that god exists and i shouldve of died that day, but since i didnt reject jesus and asked him for help that i am still here today. my life has changed dramatically, i have a job, im going to college, and i got to see my kid again a couple times. but any way my question
Does anybody know what the substance was that i did, it didnt seem anything like meth..
or has anybody had a similar experience??
