Parathrice
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Apr 21, 2021
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Hi I’m Parathrice. I am familiar with this site and have been for several years. I registered once years ago but took it nowhere 
I am from New England. More specifically NH. I am 47 years old and about half of those 47 years including currently have been a drug abuser. Lately it’s CooooooCAIN!! Mmm, mmm!! My blow intake has been kept in check over the years against my own wishes of course. I never had a decent, consistent source until two years ago. I live kinda in the sticks so you can imagine my reaction when the realization struck. 15 minutes drive packing cash or weed to trade and the chunky white is mine, soft btw. No hard..... like I care!! and I get fairly descent blow. Before all this it was a major production I don’t need to go into that. When I would score the frustration with the varying quality and quantity (never getting what’s paid for) always seemed to add more energy to the inevitable jones. For these reasons as well as plain practicality I just started slamming the shit. So even those times when my bag was super short as well as garbage, double whammy, this guy (me) wasn’t as concerned as he used to be.
Still..... even in spite of this, the undertaking involved to score something really just plain sucked ass!!! That was enough to keep me using less than every other month.
But now???? Whoa man! I was 5 days clean until earlier tonight. Only got a teener but any is enough! It took me awhile to actually feel and know inside that I should not and do not want to be a slave to this stuff any longer. I truly feel that inside.
What sucks is that shooting blow and having marathon sex adventures w my wife is maybe one of, if not the most incredible sensation I’ve ever felt. (Viagra is more or less a must however ).
Anyways I’m going to kick the shit period!
A side effect I picked up from this is a serious needle fetish. I’m prescribed Adderall IR (75) 30 mg a month. I shoot every single one. Using a 1cc syringe Its normally two or three shots to get it all. Why have I not ordered larger syringes yet?? I didn’t think of it till now. So it’s a lot of holes in my veins. Every day 2-4 pills occasionally more or occasionally less. My wife is prescribed Ritalin 20mg. Now those I like. Lately I’ve been using 100% ethanol on the methylphenidate for greater purity. WOW!!!! The low yield keeps that practice in check. She gets k-pins too. One guess what I do w those sometimes.... yep slam em. WTF!!!
I do have a life. I have two Awesome kids son 15 daughter 11. Yeah WTF AM I DOING? I can’t imagine the harm to my body after two + years of this shit. Oh yeah I’m prescribed suboxone as well and before you wonder yes I occasionally shoot those too.
I know folks out there have some SERIOUS demons and mine are by no means even in the same realm. For me? It’s enough and I want it to end before I loose the best years of my life sitting in my basement and slamming blow. My wife is better than me at saying no but I can persuade her. She doesn’t shoot she smokes. So that’s probably enough said for now. I’ve never formally introduced myself in this manner before soooo there you have it.
I respect all people and their choices. I hold no judgement toward any homo-sapiens out there trying to keep it real or not. Respect to anyone who makes it through my introduction.
I am from New England. More specifically NH. I am 47 years old and about half of those 47 years including currently have been a drug abuser. Lately it’s CooooooCAIN!! Mmm, mmm!! My blow intake has been kept in check over the years against my own wishes of course. I never had a decent, consistent source until two years ago. I live kinda in the sticks so you can imagine my reaction when the realization struck. 15 minutes drive packing cash or weed to trade and the chunky white is mine, soft btw. No hard..... like I care!! and I get fairly descent blow. Before all this it was a major production I don’t need to go into that. When I would score the frustration with the varying quality and quantity (never getting what’s paid for) always seemed to add more energy to the inevitable jones. For these reasons as well as plain practicality I just started slamming the shit. So even those times when my bag was super short as well as garbage, double whammy, this guy (me) wasn’t as concerned as he used to be.
Still..... even in spite of this, the undertaking involved to score something really just plain sucked ass!!! That was enough to keep me using less than every other month.
But now???? Whoa man! I was 5 days clean until earlier tonight. Only got a teener but any is enough! It took me awhile to actually feel and know inside that I should not and do not want to be a slave to this stuff any longer. I truly feel that inside.
What sucks is that shooting blow and having marathon sex adventures w my wife is maybe one of, if not the most incredible sensation I’ve ever felt. (Viagra is more or less a must however ).
Anyways I’m going to kick the shit period!
A side effect I picked up from this is a serious needle fetish. I’m prescribed Adderall IR (75) 30 mg a month. I shoot every single one. Using a 1cc syringe Its normally two or three shots to get it all. Why have I not ordered larger syringes yet?? I didn’t think of it till now. So it’s a lot of holes in my veins. Every day 2-4 pills occasionally more or occasionally less. My wife is prescribed Ritalin 20mg. Now those I like. Lately I’ve been using 100% ethanol on the methylphenidate for greater purity. WOW!!!! The low yield keeps that practice in check. She gets k-pins too. One guess what I do w those sometimes.... yep slam em. WTF!!!
I do have a life. I have two Awesome kids son 15 daughter 11. Yeah WTF AM I DOING? I can’t imagine the harm to my body after two + years of this shit. Oh yeah I’m prescribed suboxone as well and before you wonder yes I occasionally shoot those too.
I know folks out there have some SERIOUS demons and mine are by no means even in the same realm. For me? It’s enough and I want it to end before I loose the best years of my life sitting in my basement and slamming blow. My wife is better than me at saying no but I can persuade her. She doesn’t shoot she smokes. So that’s probably enough said for now. I’ve never formally introduced myself in this manner before soooo there you have it.
I respect all people and their choices. I hold no judgement toward any homo-sapiens out there trying to keep it real or not. Respect to anyone who makes it through my introduction.
