Heavy trip, anxious and paranoid

[brushbrush]

Right now I cant sleep, and cant stop the tingles going up and down my body. It's hard to write or think without beginning to hyperventilate. I'm trying to relax, not fight it to hard, I tell myself it'll be over and my brain will stop in a few hours tops, but honestly I have my doubts.

Writing is districting me from thinking about how shit I feel, I've managed to stop weeping for no particular reason. 16 or so hours ago i started snorting my 'speed', I was expecting it to be methlyamphetamine but I have no way to know and I'm not even sure what is reality and what is in my head. I snorted about a gram of lines from 2pm to 2am. A friend also had a line and ended up really sick and I feel paranoid and guilty that it might be my fault. But they also had alot of alcohol and a little so I dont know whether I'm being irrational or not.

As well as the speed I also shared dozen or so joints with a bunch of other people. I think where thing started turning bad was after my second bucket(gravity) bong. I lost all social skills despite a huge desire to talk with people. Towards the end I finished the speed and had some more weed in an attempt to feel OK. Now I've been in my room for 5 or so hours. My ribs are very sore from the really heavy breathing i've had for what seems like the whole time. I'm still paranoid about the other people in the house. iT's almost morning, just that fact is causing my some serious issues.

Thanks for reading and Sorry for the verbal diarrhea.

 

[Trate]

That's a tough one man, I hope by now you're feeling a little better.
I've been experiencing something fairly similar for the last couple of weeks.
Personally I would probably stay away from the speed, that makes me paranoid at the best of times, let alone mixed in with a trip. But that could just be me.
Ill give you the same advice that everyone's given to me; try to sleep as much as possible, eat right, and when you feel up to it, try and be as active as you can to try and get your mind a little more centered.
Good luck, hope you pull through.

 

[brushbrush]

Thanks man. Feeling a bit better now. I got to sleep for 2 or 3 hours around midday. Still shit, but atleast I'm more chill now. This morning my thoughts wouldn't stop racing for so long, I just got painfully bored of being high and depressed. I dont think I'm gonna touch speed for a good long while. I just noticed a welt on my wrist. I think it is from the cone. I've promised myself I would throw it out so many times. Maybe I will after I just finish off this bag... how many times has that been said?

I want to eat right and sleep and be active and all the good things. But I just haven't done it.

 

[junkie skumbag]

Right now I cant sleep, and cant stop the tingles going up and down my body. It's hard to write or think without beginning to hyperventilate. I'm trying to relax, not fight it to hard, I tell myself it'll be over and my brain will stop in a few hours tops, but honestly I have my doubts.

Writing is districting me from thinking about how shit I feel, I've managed to stop weeping for no particular reason. 16 or so hours ago i started snorting my 'speed', I was expecting it to be methlyamphetamine but I have no way to know and I'm not even sure what is reality and what is in my head. I snorted about a gram of lines from 2pm to 2am. A friend also had a line and ended up really sick and I feel paranoid and guilty that it might be my fault. But they also had alot of alcohol and a little so I dont know whether I'm being irrational or not.

As well as the speed I also shared dozen or so joints with a bunch of other people. I think where thing started turning bad was after my second bucket(gravity) bong. I lost all social skills despite a huge desire to talk with people. Towards the end I finished the speed and had some more weed in an attempt to feel OK. Now I've been in my room for 5 or so hours. My ribs are very sore from the really heavy breathing i've had for what seems like the whole time. I'm still paranoid about the other people in the house. iT's almost morning, just that fact is causing my some serious issues.

Thanks for reading and Sorry for the verbal diarrhea.

it would be the buckets bro just slow down on ya weed i find if i smoke too much much pot while on meth i tend to freak out...

 

[brushbrush]

I think I need to stop weed pretty much all together. Sometimes it is good, sometimes its not. But I can't buy just a bit. Sometimes i go off it for a week or two. The lack of sleep in the first week or so makes that pretty tedious.

 

[Unbreakable]

Time for a benzo

 

[belarki]

I think I need to stop weed pretty much all together. ...

If you have issues with anxiety and paranoia then I highly recommend you stop using weed, and if using speed then take it irregularly and make sure you get enough sleep. How old are you buy the way?

Oh welcome to Bluelight! :D

 

[pisspotnrock]

Right now I cant sleep, and cant stop the tingles going up and down my body. It's hard to write or think without beginning to hyperventilate. I'm trying to relax, not fight it to hard, I tell myself it'll be over and my brain will stop in a few hours tops, but honestly I have my doubts.

Writing is districting me from thinking about how shit I feel, I've managed to stop weeping for no particular reason. 16 or so hours ago i started snorting my 'speed', I was expecting it to be methlyamphetamine but I have no way to know and I'm not even sure what is reality and what is in my head. I snorted about a gram of lines from 2pm to 2am. A friend also had a line and ended up really sick and I feel paranoid and guilty that it might be my fault. But they also had alot of alcohol and a little so I dont know whether I'm being irrational or not.

As well as the speed I also shared dozen or so joints with a bunch of other people. I think where thing started turning bad was after my second bucket(gravity) bong. I lost all social skills despite a huge desire to talk with people. Towards the end I finished the speed and had some more weed in an attempt to feel OK. Now I've been in my room for 5 or so hours. My ribs are very sore from the really heavy breathing i've had for what seems like the whole time. I'm still paranoid about the other people in the house. iT's almost morning, just that fact is causing my some serious issues.

Thanks for reading and Sorry for the verbal diarrhea.

man its the pot... Ive been a daily, heavy smoker for 4 years (Im 18 now) and for about the last 12 - 18 months, Ive been gettin anxiety a fair bit and the mull DOESNT help...

I also get the exact same feeling you described when Im on speed and smoke too many cones... Just a bit of choof is good but too much, especially on meth, is very bad.. If you find you feel anxiety/depression after havin a session, get off the buds for a bit

 

[Legerity]

Yeah nothing surprising about speed/weed causing paranoia or anxiety. I got back into the routine of smoking daily for a while and felt a lot better when I stopped. I think my sleep quality improved too; my dreams got much more vivid whereas I could not remember anything from them when I was smoking. Good luck, anything positive change to decrease anxiety levels is worth it

 

[brushbrush]

I have this last little bit left. I was gonna get rid of it but that fell through and I was sort of count on that being the last of my weed. I'm going through it and it will be out soon. But I've decided to stop smoking altogether and I'm stoked about that. So I'm in a weird place that I'm still smoking but the fact that I'm happy im going (decided on) to stop makes it good again. Yeah actually I just had some benzos for sleep, not that I really need it as I'm still smoking. I'm 21, what age did you think I was?

 

[godlovesugly]

this happens to me quite a bit on meth.

when it does happen, i try to chill myself with various methods: taking a shower/bath, eating, drinking liquids [not alcohol], listening to music. but if its REALLY bad, i know i cant be alone...so i call a friend or usually my BF. being with another person sometimes helps. when im alone and going through this, im just in my head all the time and thinking way too much.

also, sometimes weed can make it worse when you're at that point of the high...at least for me it does.