Mental Health Hearing/Thinking Sounds - I keep thinking of this strange sound

[Changa707]

Hey everyone, I don't exactly know where to post this topic...not to mention, I have a very hard time putting into words what I have been experiencing on and off for a few years now.
It seems that when I smoke tobacco or Cannabis, I think especially tobaccco....I can hear this voice in my head that sounds like my mothers voice, however the voice sounds "stretched out"...sort of like when you lower the pitch/bpm of a voice, the vowels become stretched out and stutter-like. It's hard for me to describe, but if you know about DJing you'll know the effect i'm talking about.

Anyhow, i'd like to mention that I am not literally hearing this sound in the acoustic sense...but I hear/think it in my mind and it will sort of loop in my head for short periods of time. I can never really put a finger on what the voice is saying, but it seems to be a voice that is distressed yet assuring...very weird. But I have noticed that it is a feminine voice and it seems to remind me of my mother's voice.

I mean I don't think this is a case of schitzophrenia because I don't actually hear voices, but I wouldn't be surprised if it has something to do with long-term cannnabis/tobacco use (over 5 years here) starting from when I was a teen.
Has anyone out there had a similar experience, hearing/thinking of a voice (always the same sound/voice) over a span of months/years that seems to appear when you become intoxicated/get high?
In this case I liken the sound to something you would think of in a "fever-dream"...the voice reminds me of that feeling of being paralyzed in a night-terror...a voice of confusion and helplessness, a voice that seems on the verge of death..and is about to confront death. It's scary, but very intriguing to me at the same time. I just want to know why this same stetched out sound keeps playing in my head. It's never really loud or actually acoustically present..it's more or less just a thought that turns into a "sound" loop.

 

[herbavore]

I think stress can do this. Maybe there is a connection?

 

[njirem]

I remember some periods where i was so mad and depressed that when i laid my head at night i would continue seeing myself getting shot, mutilated, dying etc.
It was quite frightening so i referred to this when i talked about possible psychosis with my psychiatrist, turned out, this is a very human thing, when you are consumed with anger and stress, your brain want to cope with that and in some cases is processes it into selfhatred, with sometimes borderline-psychotic events like auditory and visual hallucinations, or strong racing thoughts, and mindcuncuming brain loops of events, words, songs etc.

 

[aq.]

I have experienced this same thing, particularly when stressed and before menstruation -- I think before menstruation is part of a PMS symptom, my OBGYN and psychiatrist are still trying to find the correlation, if there is any.

How were your parents when they were raising you? Were they strict? Did they have strict rules about not doing drugs? If so, you may be experiencing anxiety from that, and the loop that keeps playing in your head may be OCD. Of course, I am not a healthcare professional, but this is something that you may want to explore with a psychologist or psychiatrist.