psychonaut65
Bluelighter
LSA (HWB) - 1st time - the eros that is existent within all matter and energy
Voyagers/participants: A & B Date: 27th July 2004
Timeset: 21:17 (finished ingestion)
Dose: (LSA) six seeds: Hawaiian Baby Woodrose; crunched and chewed in mouth.
Setting: A's room
Mindset: Very tired and for me probably not the best mindset to be in; lack of sleep and lack of preparation before hand combined with the nausea to create a terrifying and fear driven state.
Experience rating (Shulgin’s scale): PLUS THREE (+++) Not only are the chronology and the nature of a drug's action quite clear, but ignoring its action is no longer an option. The subject is totally engaged in the experience, for better or worse.
We walked down to a nearby track to get away from all social contact in order to consume the seeds. We simply just chewed and swallowed the seeds. After ten minutes the effects of the seeds had taken a light grip and around thirty or forty minutes into the experience nausea was eminent; we smoked some nice marijuana to level the nausea, the nausea did not dissipate entirely such as in a mushroom trip but remained. We decided to walk back to my house and in doing so the nausea somewhat lightened down. I imagined myself walking with a glowing aura coming out of my stomach indicating the presence of a divine chemical this feeling/imagination was re-iterated throughout the experience.
On returning home we felt the effects of the seeds but were not tripping and after talking to some people present in the house we went upstairs to my room where we remained for the duration of the trip. It was a good three hours of laying there, making fun patterns with a laser pen before we started to trip hard. My memory from this point is highly erratic and remembering events in sequence to when they happened is very difficult.
We noticed that as the lava lamp went lighter or darker as it melted a different atmosphere became present in the room; the ceiling near the lava lamp began to mutate and form a warped pattern that was constantly changing. We smoked a second joint of decent marijuana which seemed to make things a little more interesting. As I closed my eyes I felt my spirit flow through the space-time continuum through a series of portals and revolving images that sent me further into the psychedelic state. We then smoked a second spliff which made me much more aware of the psychedelic experience I was partaking in. What happened between here and the petrified oblivion I was thrust into I do not know; on going to the toilet I came back up and the nausea made my trip into a nightmare. I remember falling down onto my bed with waves of intense panic piercing into my mind. My friend had put music on and I insisted that it not be too loud as with each movement he made and each sound the music (Pink Floyd) made, my paranoid disillusions became much more apparent and I didn’t like it one bit.
As I turned to face my friend all I saw was some person not a friend and I didn’t like this either, I quickly turned the light on sat up and began gazing into Alex Grey’s Transfigurations remembering that a change of scene would change my attitude to the trip. Having overcome my initial fear I felt somewhat better; however, on lying down and turning the light back out I felt extreme panic and frustration. On placing my hand on my heart I felt it beating faster and faster, I became aware of maybe having a panic attack and feared a heart attack (very unlikely in reality.) This terrified state continued until I vomited which eased the whole experience down to a comfortable and enjoyable level this must have been around six hours into the experience.
There was no deep introspective analysis during the experience; however, afterwards I felt something so profound and awe inspiring towards my life and nature it was like looking through the eyes of a child completely free of opinion, assumption and reason.
When I look back into the experience I remember a lot more than what I thought actually happened and in this way the trip has benefited me immensely. Firstly I will be so much more careful of trying new substance in the future as in assuming I was adequately experienced in mushrooms did in no way prepare me for this experience. The feeling of dropping something too big to handle became apparent and I have never had that fear with my now new found ally Teonanacatl. I am calling mushrooms my ally as I can seek their knowledge anytime but with LSA my understanding of the drug is far to narrow; with this trip I have come to realise that each substance/chemical will show me something very different to what others have shown me. The most important aspect of this experience was the fact I managed to define to myself what is beyond our materialistic world. Beyond the metaphysical layer lies a force and entity that is beyond explanation. This being is an Eros that exists behind all matter and energy. Every object/plant/animal consists of matter that is the universe itself, the universe is not a word to describe what is above our heads it is a word that defines everything in our existence.
The effects of the LSA lasted at least to 10:00am the following day and as I sat on a stool in the kitchen smoking my morning cigarette I gazed at a tree and with no one being present I whispered “everything is beautiful.”
peace
iopener
Voyagers/participants: A & B Date: 27th July 2004
Timeset: 21:17 (finished ingestion)
Dose: (LSA) six seeds: Hawaiian Baby Woodrose; crunched and chewed in mouth.
Setting: A's room
Mindset: Very tired and for me probably not the best mindset to be in; lack of sleep and lack of preparation before hand combined with the nausea to create a terrifying and fear driven state.
Experience rating (Shulgin’s scale): PLUS THREE (+++) Not only are the chronology and the nature of a drug's action quite clear, but ignoring its action is no longer an option. The subject is totally engaged in the experience, for better or worse.
We walked down to a nearby track to get away from all social contact in order to consume the seeds. We simply just chewed and swallowed the seeds. After ten minutes the effects of the seeds had taken a light grip and around thirty or forty minutes into the experience nausea was eminent; we smoked some nice marijuana to level the nausea, the nausea did not dissipate entirely such as in a mushroom trip but remained. We decided to walk back to my house and in doing so the nausea somewhat lightened down. I imagined myself walking with a glowing aura coming out of my stomach indicating the presence of a divine chemical this feeling/imagination was re-iterated throughout the experience.
On returning home we felt the effects of the seeds but were not tripping and after talking to some people present in the house we went upstairs to my room where we remained for the duration of the trip. It was a good three hours of laying there, making fun patterns with a laser pen before we started to trip hard. My memory from this point is highly erratic and remembering events in sequence to when they happened is very difficult.
We noticed that as the lava lamp went lighter or darker as it melted a different atmosphere became present in the room; the ceiling near the lava lamp began to mutate and form a warped pattern that was constantly changing. We smoked a second joint of decent marijuana which seemed to make things a little more interesting. As I closed my eyes I felt my spirit flow through the space-time continuum through a series of portals and revolving images that sent me further into the psychedelic state. We then smoked a second spliff which made me much more aware of the psychedelic experience I was partaking in. What happened between here and the petrified oblivion I was thrust into I do not know; on going to the toilet I came back up and the nausea made my trip into a nightmare. I remember falling down onto my bed with waves of intense panic piercing into my mind. My friend had put music on and I insisted that it not be too loud as with each movement he made and each sound the music (Pink Floyd) made, my paranoid disillusions became much more apparent and I didn’t like it one bit.
As I turned to face my friend all I saw was some person not a friend and I didn’t like this either, I quickly turned the light on sat up and began gazing into Alex Grey’s Transfigurations remembering that a change of scene would change my attitude to the trip. Having overcome my initial fear I felt somewhat better; however, on lying down and turning the light back out I felt extreme panic and frustration. On placing my hand on my heart I felt it beating faster and faster, I became aware of maybe having a panic attack and feared a heart attack (very unlikely in reality.) This terrified state continued until I vomited which eased the whole experience down to a comfortable and enjoyable level this must have been around six hours into the experience.
There was no deep introspective analysis during the experience; however, afterwards I felt something so profound and awe inspiring towards my life and nature it was like looking through the eyes of a child completely free of opinion, assumption and reason.
When I look back into the experience I remember a lot more than what I thought actually happened and in this way the trip has benefited me immensely. Firstly I will be so much more careful of trying new substance in the future as in assuming I was adequately experienced in mushrooms did in no way prepare me for this experience. The feeling of dropping something too big to handle became apparent and I have never had that fear with my now new found ally Teonanacatl. I am calling mushrooms my ally as I can seek their knowledge anytime but with LSA my understanding of the drug is far to narrow; with this trip I have come to realise that each substance/chemical will show me something very different to what others have shown me. The most important aspect of this experience was the fact I managed to define to myself what is beyond our materialistic world. Beyond the metaphysical layer lies a force and entity that is beyond explanation. This being is an Eros that exists behind all matter and energy. Every object/plant/animal consists of matter that is the universe itself, the universe is not a word to describe what is above our heads it is a word that defines everything in our existence.
The effects of the LSA lasted at least to 10:00am the following day and as I sat on a stool in the kitchen smoking my morning cigarette I gazed at a tree and with no one being present I whispered “everything is beautiful.”
peace
iopener
