I took LSD for the first time a little over a week ago. I've not felt like myself since. I've been reading like crazy about it, all the scary things I can find on the Internet, and right about now I am in the depth of despair.
I do not feel as sharp or present as I used to. My mind feels so blank, my emotions so dull. I know this is a powerful experience (although my trip was pretty mild, some visual distortion but never lost track of who I was) that might take time to integrate, but honestly, I just want to have my focus and personality back. I can't live feeling like this, so passive and indifferent. Did I mess up my serotonin? That seems sort of easy to fix over time. My symptoms seem more like a dopamine depletion, but from what I've read that's impossible to fix. I only took a tiny bit, I don't think it was even a full tab, although it was dosed on a single gummie bear so who knows how much I actually took.
I don't mind having a new perspective and awareness and all that stuff people say as long as I am also emotional and motivated and smart, things I feel I will never be again. It was April 30 that I took it. Shouldn't things be back to normal by now? So worried about this, I feel like a zombie and can't talk to anyone how I used to. I just want to feel and think again, to feel alive.
I do not feel as sharp or present as I used to. My mind feels so blank, my emotions so dull. I know this is a powerful experience (although my trip was pretty mild, some visual distortion but never lost track of who I was) that might take time to integrate, but honestly, I just want to have my focus and personality back. I can't live feeling like this, so passive and indifferent. Did I mess up my serotonin? That seems sort of easy to fix over time. My symptoms seem more like a dopamine depletion, but from what I've read that's impossible to fix. I only took a tiny bit, I don't think it was even a full tab, although it was dosed on a single gummie bear so who knows how much I actually took.
I don't mind having a new perspective and awareness and all that stuff people say as long as I am also emotional and motivated and smart, things I feel I will never be again. It was April 30 that I took it. Shouldn't things be back to normal by now? So worried about this, I feel like a zombie and can't talk to anyone how I used to. I just want to feel and think again, to feel alive.
