wonderlost
Greenlighter
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- Jul 9, 2016
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I am 20 days clean from a large amount of Percocet. Was abusing them for 4 years and have been though the withdraw before. When I decided that enough was enough, I planned for it. I use Kratom once a day to help with the bad withdraw, some stomach medicine and a medicine for restless leg syndrome from my doctor. Wasn't a walk in the park and man I wanted a pain pill but my mind was strong for once. I made it.
7 days ago my psychologist put me on Adderall (20mg twice a day) along with my Prozac which I have been on for awhile. I have always felt I had some ADHD so I was okay with this. Two days later though the urge to abuse my ADHD medicine was STRONG. I took an extra one convinced that it wasn't working. I then went camping and did some coke. I'm not a stranger to it but I really wanted to do it. It's been downhill with the urges for a buzz. Not for my pain medicine but wanting to take a lot of the Adderall. Actually went for some more coke for myself the other night which honestly buzzed me but bored me. I have never did something like that before. The next day it was the craving to take a lot of Adderall and wanting to smoke some weed ( I don't smoke weed. I actually dislike it) and I light up a cigarette when I have been smoke free for 5 years! Thank goodness it tasted gross.
I really don't know what to do. I feel like I'm missing something. I'm sure it is that high from the Percocet but I have no craving for the pills. I have been happy otherwise. Exercise, sleeping and having fun with my family so I am so confused why I feel like I'm having these strange impulses. Is this what happens after you give up years of never having to face anything sober?
Any advice on this would be amazing. I know my mind is dealing with this new drug Adderall and while I don't physical feel "high" I do feel it has been somewhat positive but can someone who has abused a prescription ever take something they need.
I like saying that I did it. I beat the Percocet hold. I just don't like thinking I'm on a fine line onto another addiction. What is going on?
7 days ago my psychologist put me on Adderall (20mg twice a day) along with my Prozac which I have been on for awhile. I have always felt I had some ADHD so I was okay with this. Two days later though the urge to abuse my ADHD medicine was STRONG. I took an extra one convinced that it wasn't working. I then went camping and did some coke. I'm not a stranger to it but I really wanted to do it. It's been downhill with the urges for a buzz. Not for my pain medicine but wanting to take a lot of the Adderall. Actually went for some more coke for myself the other night which honestly buzzed me but bored me. I have never did something like that before. The next day it was the craving to take a lot of Adderall and wanting to smoke some weed ( I don't smoke weed. I actually dislike it) and I light up a cigarette when I have been smoke free for 5 years! Thank goodness it tasted gross.
I really don't know what to do. I feel like I'm missing something. I'm sure it is that high from the Percocet but I have no craving for the pills. I have been happy otherwise. Exercise, sleeping and having fun with my family so I am so confused why I feel like I'm having these strange impulses. Is this what happens after you give up years of never having to face anything sober?
Any advice on this would be amazing. I know my mind is dealing with this new drug Adderall and while I don't physical feel "high" I do feel it has been somewhat positive but can someone who has abused a prescription ever take something they need.
I like saying that I did it. I beat the Percocet hold. I just don't like thinking I'm on a fine line onto another addiction. What is going on?