tenshu2k
Bluelighter
hey all,
i've been a heavy drinker for a while, and a more casual drug user. most of my weekly (or even daliy) interactions with friends involves drinking to some extent, and i'm sure many of you can identify.
on the weekends, i tend to be in large social gatherings, and go out clubbing pretty often, and of course massive amounts of alcohol are involved. i've had some wonderful times, crazy experiences, lots of good, but more recently more bad.
i started to feel some severe negative affects this year from all the heavy drinking. first was getting the withdrawal symptoms and next day severe depression. more problematic however, was that i found significant amounts of alcohol no longer gave me much of a 'buzz' or any of the inhibitory social effects that it once did. i would drink, feel pretty much the same, up until the point where i start to lose all motor coordination and or pass out. moreover, i'd black out far before that (something that increased as i drank more through the years). now its to the point where if i drink, i won't even remember the night.
i decided to quit recently, and it's going well and i've made it through the withdrawal and the cravings. my problem is, i still have a good amount of social anxiety and really need something in clubs or those social settings to help me out. the closest thing i've experienced and enjoyed was mdma, but that's something i really reserve for special occasions.
anyone go through something similar, and find something that can help? i really don't want to get back on the wagon (or is it off the wagon?), and it's difficult in situations where everyone else is drinking and i'm being antisocial.
anway, any help is appreciated.
i've been a heavy drinker for a while, and a more casual drug user. most of my weekly (or even daliy) interactions with friends involves drinking to some extent, and i'm sure many of you can identify.
on the weekends, i tend to be in large social gatherings, and go out clubbing pretty often, and of course massive amounts of alcohol are involved. i've had some wonderful times, crazy experiences, lots of good, but more recently more bad.
i started to feel some severe negative affects this year from all the heavy drinking. first was getting the withdrawal symptoms and next day severe depression. more problematic however, was that i found significant amounts of alcohol no longer gave me much of a 'buzz' or any of the inhibitory social effects that it once did. i would drink, feel pretty much the same, up until the point where i start to lose all motor coordination and or pass out. moreover, i'd black out far before that (something that increased as i drank more through the years). now its to the point where if i drink, i won't even remember the night.
i decided to quit recently, and it's going well and i've made it through the withdrawal and the cravings. my problem is, i still have a good amount of social anxiety and really need something in clubs or those social settings to help me out. the closest thing i've experienced and enjoyed was mdma, but that's something i really reserve for special occasions.
anyone go through something similar, and find something that can help? i really don't want to get back on the wagon (or is it off the wagon?), and it's difficult in situations where everyone else is drinking and i'm being antisocial.
anway, any help is appreciated.