CalmG
Bluelighter
Was inspired to make this thread after seeing one about the positive effects of smoking ganja.
For me, the effects of smoking ganja have been anything but positive, although this is partly my own fault. I first started smoking when I was 14, and completely loved it for all the reasons most smokers love it. When I turned 16, I started to realise I was gay, and being from a homophobic area with a semi-homophobic family went into denial big time. I used to be an outgoing, really popular fun loving person. Whilst I smoked weed during my denial period, I would sit in my room and talk to myself non stop for 1/4 of an hour, 1/2 and hour at a time to see if my voice was gay or not. When I was stoned, I would monitor the way I walked to see if the way I walked was gay or not. I started having panic attacks, like I was sat in this car and had to make up some bullshit excuse to leave cos I was so anxious.
Stupidly I carried on smoking weed anyway despite hating it, and the result is I have gone from this funny, popular fun loving guy into this socially anxious mess with absoutly no confidence, who over analyises everything and has none of the spark I used to have. I should have stopped smoking, yeah, but didn't take the mental health warnings seriously. The other day I was stoned, I had two voices in my head, couldn't indentify which was really me, nearly had a panic attack, and only calmed down when I stuck an imaginary badge with 'I am crazy' over my thoughts.
I have seen it effect other people too. With one guy, he was intelligent and really charismatic, but got so hooked on weed he started missing college big time, left with no grades, and started stealing vinyls to pay for weed. Of course this could be down to his personality, bu still means weed can effect some people badly. Another guy went completely fucked because of drugs, he actually is crazy, like, you can tell something is wrong with him the way he talks and everything, its werid.
So yeah anyone else been fucked over/know people who have by weed? Moderation is key and some people won't have any problems I think, but for some it's real bad, whether it's for mental reason or for the social consequences of smoking it. It certainly isn't harmless, not for everyone.
For me, the effects of smoking ganja have been anything but positive, although this is partly my own fault. I first started smoking when I was 14, and completely loved it for all the reasons most smokers love it. When I turned 16, I started to realise I was gay, and being from a homophobic area with a semi-homophobic family went into denial big time. I used to be an outgoing, really popular fun loving person. Whilst I smoked weed during my denial period, I would sit in my room and talk to myself non stop for 1/4 of an hour, 1/2 and hour at a time to see if my voice was gay or not. When I was stoned, I would monitor the way I walked to see if the way I walked was gay or not. I started having panic attacks, like I was sat in this car and had to make up some bullshit excuse to leave cos I was so anxious.
Stupidly I carried on smoking weed anyway despite hating it, and the result is I have gone from this funny, popular fun loving guy into this socially anxious mess with absoutly no confidence, who over analyises everything and has none of the spark I used to have. I should have stopped smoking, yeah, but didn't take the mental health warnings seriously. The other day I was stoned, I had two voices in my head, couldn't indentify which was really me, nearly had a panic attack, and only calmed down when I stuck an imaginary badge with 'I am crazy' over my thoughts.
I have seen it effect other people too. With one guy, he was intelligent and really charismatic, but got so hooked on weed he started missing college big time, left with no grades, and started stealing vinyls to pay for weed. Of course this could be down to his personality, bu still means weed can effect some people badly. Another guy went completely fucked because of drugs, he actually is crazy, like, you can tell something is wrong with him the way he talks and everything, its werid.
So yeah anyone else been fucked over/know people who have by weed? Moderation is key and some people won't have any problems I think, but for some it's real bad, whether it's for mental reason or for the social consequences of smoking it. It certainly isn't harmless, not for everyone.